So, guess I am back. Hi?
Feel like some explaining is in order. Or venting, whatever you wanna call it. Just want to get this off my chest.
Recently got in a chat with another fan about spesifically the scene where Katniss is daydreaming about Peetas child in CF. And how, Katniss does not in fact see herself as this childs mother. This fan actually DID change my mind. Thier idea was reasonable and def supported by canon. They were also polite so, they aren't the issue here not even a little bit.
It, ended up changeing how I read...just about everything relating to the epilouge. For the worst. Without some kind of notion of Katniss at least...having some desire to want children even if she can't it makes the way I see her having her kids so much less joyful or exciting.
DO NOT hear what I didn't say: No, I do not think Katniss was forced into anything in the least bit, nor did she in any way not want kids in my mind. It just feels...off, and less happy if this is the case. If there isn't any indication she might have wanted this if things were different shown in an explictly postivie light.
It just. Makes any of these really happy thoughts or ideas I have around it not supported by anything in canon. There is really nothing to support how happy and excited I (used to) see Katniss be as a mom.
So yea. That hasn't been the funnest.
What this means? I don't know. For now it looks like me cringing at my old posts and fanfics, and not being nervous and unsure if I should do any more at all around this subject.
