May 16
my father's prevailing goal throughout my childhood was to create someone that could hate me even more than him
#and it was me!!!#good job man I'm glad I'll always have cruel voice of yours in the back of my head#just. constant.#also really hard to have this going on while also feeling bad about having a bad relationship w him#like bro he fucked you UP#like very permanently#you have fucking cptsd#and yet I still feel like a shitty son