#just. remembering

[bark-barkley]

[stillthesunkenstars]

Brax reaching out to hold bennys hands,,,, tears of the oracle y’all,,,

[loochieloo]

yall remember when aoc would play among us

[cobalt-mutterings]

I have a headache.

As I spin and spiral,

I remember a fragment of a memory.

It is sharp and cuts my foot as I step on it,

Shards leaving a residue.

I remember why I pushed everyone away.

Who I am is disgusting and vile.

My face is cracked,

My mask is dirty,

Brain is chipping away.

I have a migraine.

And no matter how much I sleep,

It doesn’t go away.

I feel a punch in the gut,

The pain lingers like how your head is supposed to on my shoulder.

I’m supposed to feel your presence even after death.

But you are nowhere to be found.

All I can feel is my heart.

There is an imprint on the outside where I am supposed to hold you close.

But the scar has healed like an earring hole left empty for years.

There is no more room.

I wished things were different.

My head is pounding like how you last knocked on my door.