I Never Did Deserve You
I’d write to you if you let me, but I know you wouldn’t read it.
There’s just so much I should have said. Words that would linger on my tongue every time I left. Unspoken truths. The truth hidden behind my lies. Pride wouldn’t let me speak.
I know I never deserved you.
A tainted girl, broken inside, jaded. I always did decieve.
It’s true I didn’t know then what I was doing. Looking my soulmate deep in the eyes and still choosing to lie, to push, to battle.
I was a modern day Greek tragedy.
Acting out in fits of fear and rage. A deadly combination to any romance.
I never did deserve you.
Even when I knew you were the one, wrapped in your arms, planted forehead kisses. Like flowers blooming in spring after the perfect amount of nourishment. Springing to life with pure intention.
And like the flowers in spring, I knew you wouldn’t stay, you couldn’t.
So much damage already on my heart, even just being 17. I was like a beautiful tulip tormented by an early frost, frozen before reaching potential. The world hadn’t been easy or pretty in quite some time for me.
Tracing the lines in your hands at night while you slept, memorizing every freckle, for I knew the day would come.
I knew you couldn’t stay.
I knew I never did deserve you.
-Tyler Christine














