#justchainsawgirthings

[chainsawgir]

If I don't get cocked soon I'm just gonna implodeeee

[chainsawgir]

He corrected my spelling and insulted my music taste I'm going to nut

[chainsawgir]

I asked for a boys number today. Nervous.

[chainsawgir]

Cw // dub-con (I actively consented to and encouraged the following behavior, only tagged because of implied 'didnt know') / sex photos.

My ex used to take photos of my ass when i was distracted. I remember sitting us down to watch Bride Of Chucky, and I had to crawl over to my computer to turn the volume up.

I was wearing my shortest skirt because I wanted him to fuck me (he did not fuck me ( ._. )""), and I guess he saw the chance because about a second after I got to the computer, the flash blinked at me.

I remember turning to look at him and being really turned on because of how genuine it was. My hand flew to the hem of my skirt instinctively, tugging it lower, and he smiled wide at that. He tried to deny it for a moment, and then subsided.

'Did you just-'

'Nooooo. Turn back around.'

It made me really wet whenever he wanted to take photos of me. So wet. I still struggle to think of things he liked or wanted to do with me, but I think he liked taking photos. I think he liked getting them, too, but i don't know. I took a lot for him, regardless.

The first time I fingered myself on camera was for him. I'd asked him for photos because he'd been teasing me, and he said he'd only send them if I did. I was really nervous, but I built up the courage eventually.

It was a crummy video undeniably, i can't finger myself very well, and the room i was in was dark, but I got a really good video in response. A good angle of him from below, beating his cock and huffing. I remember how excited that made me.

I know I recorded some audios that night, too. Cyber sex is... really good.

He took pictures of my tits, sometimes. I'd hear him shuffle behind me when he was spanking me, trying to grab his phone. I'd point out how that was bad, and he'd roll his eyes.

Sometimes I'd pretend I didn't notice, letting him pause temporarily before resuming, like i didn't recognize the little pause. Maybe I wanted to feel desired, I'm not sure. Maybe it's because I'm a porn addict that it made me so soaked, thinking about being viewed in that light.

I hope he doesn't have those pictures anymore, lol.

[chainsawgir]

CW; Just a vent. Nothing insane im just sad.

My hair has started falling out from stress again which is no good. I just got it back to being thick after the last go my body had at me 3 years ago, so I'd really prefer if this wasn't happening. That'd be ideal.

I dive bombed a nap today that turned into 5 hours, and now I have an incredible headache and a 8 AM shift I have to go to-

But, on the bright side, I finished an art piece!!! My first one in months and that made me very happy, and I'm doing my best to feel accomplished about it.

It looks good, too, which is nice. I'm proud of it, and the second one I started looks good too! It's nice to see how my art has progressed over the summer despite the absolute stunt the entire last year has pulled on me.

[chainsawgir]

Hi! I'm chainsawgir, i'm 20, and I started this blog to deal with themes relating to my hypersexuality and impulsiveness! This is, hopefully, going to be a virtual diary I can keep that will prevent me from trauma dumping/ being hypersexual to those that I know intend to do me harm.

Asks r open!

My intention is to vent into the void (kinda) but if I come across your dashboard, I'm glad to have you here, and I hope whatever landed my boo-hoo blog on your dashboard goes better for you!

I will try to put CW/TWs on most of my posts, but please know this blog was started with the intention of posting about my sexual experiences/ bouts of impulsiveness.

If topics regarding any of the following bother you, my blog is probably not the place for you, and thats okay!

A lot of the things I talk about are related to men in my life and how they might harm me. One of my main tendencies is to sexualize being forced/coerced into sex with men that might murder me/ do me great mental and physical harm. I will be talking about that here, and it will be framed in a sexual light, as that is the only current way I am able to prevent myself from expressing these thoughts to these men.

I do not want to be raped, stalked, coerced, abused, or forced into any sexual situation. Do not take my fantasy posts as reality. There is definitely a conversation to be had about uploading my kind of content online, and I am willing to have a discussion involving the kind of 'content' I create and how it can be harmful. Please do not assume I am advocating or approving of my own behavior in any way.

If you are a minor, I physically cannot prevent you from looking at my content. Coming from someone who has been knee deep in a porn addiction for nearly a decade, I understand this better than anybody, believe me. But please know that, though it is almost never touched upon online, my consumption of (specifically violent) porn at such an age has had mental and physical affects on me the likes of which I still can't fully cope with-

I'm not a Bible thumper either, and its not about guilt. I have these compulsions in part because of the content I consumed as a child. I know every trick, every site, every tag, but if you're here, please allow this to push a moment of clarity into your head: You are stunting your brain. Consuming this is the mental equivalent of a pack a day. Reconsider, I am begging you.

Ageless blogs that follow me will be BLOCKED. Get help! Please! Thanks.