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it was around 12:30 in the middle of the night, you suddenly talked to me. You know i actually wait for a couple of mins to reply, i don't want to look that desperate to you.. cause you have no idea how much butterflies you give me from your little actions.. its torture.
Será que alguém entende a nossa relação?
Um caso indefinido, mas rola paixão... HAHAHA
I really try not to care but I can’t help it. Just seeing your name on the simplest of text messages makes me beam. Knowing you thought of me at that exact moment makes me so happy.
And because of that I realize that I still have hope that somehow we will end up together.
I'm so in love with you it hurts to be away from you for any amount of time.
Is that even possible?
Oh but on a good note...
He loves me. And this time, I know it. I KNOW it.
He's gone and done it.
I can no longer imagine my life without him.
I'm ready to just quit everything right now and pack my shit so I can move to New Hampshire. I'll have to work at some silly place so I can have some form of income because I won't have a degree of course.
But hey, at least I'll be happy.
Right?
Why is today such an upsetting day?
Is it because I have to spend tonight revising my lesson plan and getting 20 science notebooks ready for Thursday's lesson?
Is it because my professor is a complete and utter asshole who believes she is better than everyone just because she specializes in science instructions?
Is it maybe because I'm here on campus still for another four and a half hours and all I want to do is go home and lay in my bed?
Is it because I spent the first 4 hours of my day today crying?
Perhaps it's because I'm feeling extremely overwhelmed with the amount of work I have to get done between now and the end of this semester.
Maybe it's because I'm slowly coming to the realization that I'm student teaching next semester and I'm scared as fuck.
Is it because I look like shit and I have no motivation or will power to change my appearance?
Is it simply because I'm tired?
Or is it because the person that I met seven months ago who I never expected to be a part of my life is actually now the only thing I can think about day and night and I have never felt for anyone like this ever before and he has changed my perspective of things, all for the better and he makes me feel like I deserve to be here on this Earth and that I have a purpose and now...
he's moving?
Is that why?
Maybe it's a combination of all of the above.
Who the fuck knows.
Him: Hey!
Me: Hi :) Just made it in.
Him: NB? Wow
Me: Yeah, took a little longer than I expected.
Him: My lil' frenchie.
Me: :D
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Him: j'espère vous savez tu me manque mais je veux que vous profitiez d'un agréable moment et ayez plaisir à voir votre papa.
Me: Your French/google translater is impeccable. Thank you :)
