#justmymoon

[justmymoon]

28/1/2014 ~ Tuesday

Paul is very strange. I don’t understand him. He was very happy with me and all this stuff, but today he was shy. Very shy. I greeted him this morning with a simple “hi”, but he was like… I don’t know how to explain. He was red. Jack and I everyday we speak more. Yesterday I don’t post anything because I was chatting with him :$ I think I love Jack more than Paul. But Jack is very, very, very lonely. And Paul is in my school. Very near of me. Shiiiiiiit! What can I do? I only cry! I don’t know what to do! Ally and I went shopping. I only bought a little and cute skirt for this spring. But ally bought 3 sweatshirts and 7 different trousers. Or she is rich, or she is crazy. Just my moon :)

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27/1/2014 ~ Monday

I was worried with return to school.

U know… Paul…

So when I enter on school I didn’t want that he saws me.

He was there. Damn shit!

But he didn’t ask me anything about the party and the just-a-little-bit-more-and-it’s-a-kiss. I think that he was thinking and and if I didn’t wanted to kiss he, I didn’t wanted to speech of this.

He is an amazing boy.

Jack and me? We were speacking. He wants to come here in summer. Ok, it’s very cute, but IN SUMMER. And we are in January. -.-‘

Every day I love him a little bit more. Sorry, but it’s true. I LOVE HIM SOOOO MUCH. 

Paul? We are exellent friends. We laught all the day when we are together. And we can be more than friends. But… 

I HATE BE IN LOVE! STUPID FEELINGS!

Just my Moon :|

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24/1/2014 ~ Friday

Today Jack speaks to me.

In Facebook. He finally speaks to me.

He finally remember my feelings.

In the school we had to do a special work in pairs. The teacher choose the pairs. I am with Sophie, a girl that sits next to me. It’s a good opportunity to meet new friends.

In piano class (the famous music class) the teacher was very angry with me. Because I didn’t study the piano at the usually time I do. I don’t have time. And all my blood is very… I don’t know. I feel my legs fall. Is the circulation of the blood in my body.

Ok, returning to the Jack’s message: It started by a simple “Hi.” I didn’t answer him. But then I read another recent message. “I miss you” I never, ever, ever was so happy. JACK MISSES ME!!!!! OMG!!

I nearly cried.

Tomorrow is my best-friend's birthday. She's name is Ally. I just buy the present now: The new CD of Katy Perry. She loves this crazy girl and she wants these CD more than nothing. The CD is Prism.  

Today I could ingest the 4 pills. But I continue feel bad. I feel my blood is running out of my body.

Wish me good luck, please!

Just my Moon :)

P.S. Jack misses me! I am the happiest girl in the world! :')

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22/1/2014 ~ Wednesday

Today I discovered that I am in love with nuggets.

Yes, the food xD

Because in school, for lunch, I buy some nuggets. And WOW! Their were awesome!

Ok, let's go with the importan point:

In school, nothing of very important. My friends are very special, but sometimes I want to be popular. Not because the fame, or the likes in Facebook. Becasue they look like very happy... They laught and they are very pretty (most of them). And me... I am very normal. Ok, rather I am strange.

But in music class... Ok, nothing of very important too.

Today I had a dream. Or a nightmare. I don't know what is it.

In my dream I were in the center of a frozen lake. The ice was breaking.

I watched and suddenly in my left it was Jack, a bit lonely of me, shouting my name. He was very worried.

And in my right was Paul. He was shouting my name too. And he, like Jack, was worried. 

I didn't know to wich side I had to go. So I start crying and the ice brokes, letting me fall into the cold water.

When I woke up, I started to think in that dream. Or nightmare.

It was like the reallity. Because I don't know to wich side I have to go. Jack or Paul? 

And if I don't decide to wich side I have to go, I'll end up falling, unsure what to do.

I am a bit scared about my mind. It look like a genious. 

Just my Moon :)

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19/1/2014 ~ Sunday

Tomorrow is monday. But I don’t have to go to school, because in the town where is my school, tomorrow is like “a little monday holiday”. I want to discover something different of me. Do you want to know a special secret? The cold never bothered me. This Christmas holidays, in that beautiful town where I met Jack, I was without gloves in the snow, and my hands never were hurtled. I wanted to do something that prove that my hands have something different. So I pick 2 ice cubes and put they, one in my left hand and one on my right one. At the beginning I was cold. Very cold. But the ice cubes melted very slowly. Veeeeeeery slowly. And I was near the fire. Wow. My little sister, Juliet, thinks that I am crazy. Because she enter on the room I went and sees me with the ice cubes. And she was like… WTF? But she is sooo stupid, so i don’t want to be stupid like her. I have to follow the treatments, but today I don’t swallow 2 of the 3 pills that I have to ingest. I am so scared… I can’t swallow a pill without be nervous. Is a stupid fear. Inside my brain is like: “you have to chew that pill”. And it’s horrible. If you are reading this, please notice that you are alive. It’s very boring write and don’t know if someone is “reading” you. So… A big kiss and wish me good luck with the pills! xD Just my Moon :)

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18/1/2014 ~ Saturday

I hate be ill. I cannot breathe well, because of the hurt in my stomach. I hate medicines. Today I went in a small party and I met again a girl that 3 or 4 years ago we were friends. And we are friends again. I love when things like this happens :) I just had seen my favorite film again, Titanic. Is the 7th time I see this wonderful film, and I always cry. Today I cried to. :’) It’s so beautiful ❤️ I am in love. But he hurts me, because he gives to me all his love, and one day he disappears. I met him this Christmas holidays. His name is Jack. He have big blue eyes. He is perfect… But I love him so much. Soooo much. And he never talks to me again. I am in a big confusion. Because I love Paul too. Paul is a guy in my school class that have blue eyes and brown hair. And I think he loves me too. What can I do? Jack is a “Holiday Love” or is more than this? And Paul is… Wow, I met him and it was magic. It was in music class. One day I knew that he loved me too. It was one of the bests days of my life. But then was one long summer and when I enter on his school… I was so happy. I don’t know what to do. I love Jack, but I love Paul, too. I can never met Jack again, and Paul speech to me every day, at school. I hate be ill. But I hate be in love, too. Just my Moon :)

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17/1/2014 ~ Friday

Today is friday, my favorite day of the week. But today isn’t a very good day. I was in the doctor this morning. And I discover I am ill. Is a strange illness. It isn’t very heavy, but I need medical treatment. I was talking of this with one of my friends, and she told me that I cannot be scared. I am not, but is one month of treatment and I hate it. Last year I suffered an illness in the blood. It was a bad bacteria inside, and I was with one month of treatment, too. To start my blog, this is a strange day and it looks like a film. Start with all the bad. But it isn’t a film. It is the life of a strange teenager. Just my Moon :)