My inner thoughts
I never thought I would feel scared of what I always thought was comforting. These thoughts always made me feel like it’s so easy to go & never come back. The thought of not being alive, makes me feel alive. It makes me feel like I would save so much pain and burden from everyone around me. A soul to be forgotten, would be mine. A perfect soul to be forgotten. The pressure and pain would immediately be lifted off people’s shoulders. Everyone that has to worry about me, will be freed from the stress and the amount of obstacles I created for them unintentionally. But then, I think of little things that would affect certain people while I’m gone. I think so hard, on reasons for me to stay. For me to keep moving forward. Just in a snap, I’m convinced myself that’s a waste of time. It’s me who needs to subtract myself from what we call, life.
Ig-Kailanibelle