How do you feel about love?
“Ah love is quite wonderful when you are in it. You feel like nothing else matters so long as you are with the person you love.”
“Well love can also be quite stressful for those who have a hard time expressing themselves. Just confessing your feelings can be rough. It was that way for me when it came to Iris. It worked out for me but I know many others that they were rejected.”
“I do agree with Kaldar on this as well, but it can be pretty difficult if you had bad experiences or have seen bad moments when it comes to love. It can either make you a better or worse person depending on what happens during the relationship. Sometimes you wonder if love is even worth it.”
“That’s right. The only reason you are currently with Princess Scarlet is because mother picked her for you. Sure you love your family and friends, but when it came to romantic love...you always stayed away from it...especially after seeing your friend get killed by his so called girlfriend.” Rafael said but then asked, “...Diederick...are you perhaps afraid of love?”
“...I’d be lying if I said no. I generally never really felt motivated when it came to relationships and never bothered to try before...but it did get worse after that day. With Scarlet that fear is starting to slowly go away.”
“But not completely right? It will take time for that fear to go away. It is not something you can get over so quickly. I can see that you are trying to be the best fiancee for her but...have you spoken to her about this?”
“I have not. I figured she has a lot of other things to worry about with her own kingdom. I don’t want my problems to be a burden to her.”
“I suggest you should talk to her about this. I think she has a right to know about it. You know how much she loves you...at least it might make you feel better and she might understand your feelings more so. If you need some alone time with her, we will take up your duties temporarily.”
“I agree. Please talk to Scarlet about this. If you need privacy to do so, I can always find a place where you two can speak to each other with no worries of anyone spying on you.”
“You two are right. It’s not fair to Scarlet. I will take both of your advice and tell her what I am going through.”
“That’s the spirit. I wish you all the best and hopefully at least ease your fears a little bit.”