2 Fucked 2 Function

A cluster-fuck of my thoughts. Post a lot of song lyrics and book quotes that I like (and always open to book suggestions!) Every thing else is just my brain doing the hokey-poky 23 year old female cop

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I have mostly moved off tumblr- so if anyone wants more book quotes I have a twitter Liv@bookfunnies

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Hi.

So I feel bad for using y’all as a rebound

. But your all I got.

I’m 29. And I cut again.

First time in years.

Because that’s where I am. And I realized I have no one. I live alone. I don’t date. I have no one I consider a friend. And I kinda just exist in me own. And yal, people o haven’t talked to in years, are all I have. That and my dogs, cuz they are the closest thing I have to relationships I have.

Sorry for the mistakes but I’m crying whole trying this cuz I honestly don’t know what I have to live for but lonely ends:

I’m sorry

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This went on for months, being put down and told I was worthless. In 6 months, they killed my love of a career I had been doing for four years. In February of this year, I was feeling worthless. I felt I couldn’t do anything right, I had no career, I was gettihn paid less and was going into debt, and I was.... hopeless. At the end of February, I attempted suicide.

I’m not going to give specifics, but I was in the hospital for almost a week for an “accidental” overdose. I was lucky enough a friend tried to check on me, and I didn’t answer. She never told anyone that it was a suicide attempt. With her help, I quite my current job. I went back to my old job as pet time and have been working hard.

Last month I got a promotion, with more pay. I suddenly felt I could breath again. BecUse, just brace you try to get out of life doesn’t mean it gets easy. I was still struggling and hating myself. But 8 months later I feel like I’m back on track.

So yeah... that why I have been gone

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Hi y’all... so first off I want to apologize. I’ve been out of service lately and I’m sorry. I know no one reads this, but I need to get it off my chest.

In September of last year, I moved to a new job. At first it was great; treated well, good pay, good oportunity. I felt like training was... more brutal than usual, but it was because I was learning.

In December I was released from training. And I realized, it wasn’t because I was just in training. I was treated horrible; cut down, told I couldn’t do anything, that I would never get it, that I was a danger to my coworkers. I would mislead once in a -2 hour shift- something I could core t in a second, and would be bereted for hours. Once, I said 104 (the current time) instead of 119 (the person I was raising). We both laughed and corrected it, no harm done. My cowered stood up, came by my desk, and proceeded to yell at me- with claps between the worst “you*cant*even*give*a*messge*right*why*are*your*here?!?” Once I was suppose to keep track of something and she asked for the paper, I said “I didn’t write it down..” going to tell her I wrote it on documents to sent to people, but she cut me off yelling, “I can’t depend on you for anything!”

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I’m sorry I haven’t posted here lately... I’ve been in such a deep depression. I left my job where I was working 70 hour weeks, to a new job. I thought I was getting a new start and I was so hopeful.

But then it all went downhill. I was treated horrible;always being put down and discouraged and my mental handicaps (I have mild surface dyslexia) were brought up and then put down. In less the. Six months they had me suicidal and hating everything to the point I was physically getting sick from stress. Got to the point my parents came to visit because they were worried for me.

I finally quit and went back to my old job. I have been “part time” (but working 40 hour weeks) since June. When I reach 1500 hours I have to go back to “full time” (60 hour weeks). I can make it to the new year proboly... but I have no idea after that. My tremors are getting worse and I have no future plan and I’m just spiraling down. I have no future and no friends and really, don’t see the point anymore

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OMG TOMORROW

[ienchanted]

Billy Porter gets ready for The 62nd Annual GRAMMY Awards.

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Lee referring to the bad guys blood as ‘Ketchup” kills me

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Yukasa + “I like you”

In honor of episode 3! I rather enjoyed this one. c:

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LMAOOOOO ITS EVEN BETTER ANIMATED💀

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She was wet. She was actually excited. 

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[silentrelease]

Usually not into “vampire” themed anime as it can be childish but Devils’ Line is dark and adult. And the opening episode art was just— lovely. Wish I had a poster. Thank you Hulu. 

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I need to read Devil’s Line... the art looks cool and I like the characters. He’s adorable.

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Anzai is so damn adorable

Watching Devil’s Line and I know he is suppose to be this tragic, half-vampire, tortured hero, but he is so cute and I can’t take his smile

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Devil’s Line Vol. 10 Ch. 51 - Ray of Light.

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