How did you decipher your kin out of all the ones that were like yours?
This one isn’t easy to answer directly so I’ll give some background knowledge about myself first. This will be a long post so I understand if you don’t want to read the whole thing.
Younger me was obsessed with cats. I would pet any cat that came near me. I believed that I was a “cat whisperer” and could communicate with them. I would pretend to be a cat during recess and the only things I used to draw were, you guessed it, cats.
This started in third grade and lasted up until I entered junior high (sixth grade where I live). I didn’t know what otherkin was at the time and at the start of seventh grade I had given up my passion of cats due to bullying and teacher intervention. I had lost myself for a while because if I couldn’t fall back on what I knew best, what would I do?
I eventually branched my interests out further and found anime through an old friend of mine. One of the first anime I ever watched that caught my interest was Ouran High School Host Club (if you aren’t familiar with the show or characters, you may want to briefly read up on it. It would take a few hours for me to explain everything about it). For some reason I felt this connection with Kaoru. His relationship with his brother almost exactly mirrored the relationship between me and the friend. I still didn’t know what kin was so I brushed it off as me being too imaginative.
Then the friend and I split apart. I was devastated by how sudden it was (and I still feel depressed whenever I recollect on our memories) and I went back to cats again. This was around the time that I discovered what being otherkin meant and I had a “Eureka!” moment. This explained everything that I had done in elementary school; and knowing that I wasn’t the only one going through this greatly relieved me of my stress. I began meditating and finding memories of my past lives and I discovered that not only was I a cat, but I was also Kaoru. And just this past year I remembered the timeline I was from; in it Hikaru and I were both trans guys (we transitioned at the same time!) and we had gone our own ways soon after the anime ended. I’m still looking for him btw so if you find him send him over here (and remind him to take his binder off. I swear he’s going to suffocate himself one of these days)
This is my first time being open about my kintypes to anyone and I feel more confident about myself after getting through all of this. And if you’re wondering what breed of cat I am, I’m a grey Scottish Fold (I would put up a picture of one that resembled me but I’m on mobile right now 😞). I hope this rambling makes sense; I shouldn’t be allowed in Tumblr after 10pm
