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[kazechama]

Butterfly drinking Pitch Black's tears because that's what my brain supplies when I read about this

[kazechama]

Happy #tiger

[kazeslittlevictories]

Today was mostly me relaxing. I got little to do in preparation for election day or the Board meeting next week so I slept in – glorious feeling truly – and then went for a shopping/ladies trip with my bestie. It was great. I bought a couple new water colours and glued magnets onto my half pans so that I can use a metal pencil case I already have for my pallet. Very handy. Also, yes I had 30-40 strong small flat neodymium magnets at home just hanging around. I had them for years with the knowledge that I'll use them for a project or two. Well XD

I've did the priming for a small painting for SO's mum's birthday next week. She's going to get an autumn landscape because she loves red and gold and dark brown (those are the colours in her living room). I'm going to try and not plan this painting in detail. I'm curious how it'll work out.

After the art shop we went for a tea with my bestie. We ended up talking a lot about mixing colours and painting. The tea house does little exhibitions of art all the time, and we talked a bit about the paintings on display – lovely messy acrylic paintings. In the end I invited my bestie over for an acrylics painting session. She's loving water colours but she has trouble thinking with negative space (holy stars, me too) but I think she'll enjoy acrylics and I have all the stuff at home so she can try it out. Plus this will be great quality time, relax and bonding. I am so looking forward to it.

[kazeslittlevictories]

Today didn't start well, and I didn't get work work done but I'm feeling better now. I've had some me time watching Ladybug and Hellboy and I painted some Cullrian smut which I really like. I had nice company at online chats, which makes me feel like I'm not alone and at the same time giving me space for myself. I'm glad I stayed at home and didn't go you meet people as planned. It helped me a lot. Yay :3

[kazeslittlevictories]

I've been anxious all day today, without really having a reason or knowing what I'm anxious about. I'm not sure if this was a mild flashback or what. I don't know what could have started this shit, besides this being the aftershocks of last week's therapy session. Wuth?

I'm very confused and tired all day because it takes so much energy to just move and do stuff. Argh.

I've done some painting and research on how to watercolour. It's a challenge because my brain is not used to thinking watercolour. I'm using my inktober stuff to practice; the paper is weak so it's not the best to work with, but it's fun and I do have a couple sheets of nice watercolour paper for paintings when I'm more sure of myself.

The painting does help take my mind of this bad feeling. I'm not sure if I'd describe it as more grounded or present or what. It's hard to put into words.

I've pushed through and met with a friend for cake and chatter. I was afraid I'd have to cut it short because I'll run out of energy but it was refreshing. The bad feeling actually stopped while we were talking. It was very pleasant two hours.

I think I'll have to look for some nice good-feel reading to help me through these days. Or writing. I'll probably end up writing angsty Jack? Or I'll start on that Ladybug fic of mine. Angsty Chat and heart-broken Ladybug is a nice option too.

[kazeslittlevictories]

There's nothing like painting at 2am to battle anxiety <3 Pictures tomorrow

[kazechama]

The latest painting I did. Since multiple people asked for progress photos while I was painting, you can find those under the cut. Various lighting conditions, I’m sorry.

Yes, I primed the canvas with yellow.

Dark blue for the sky and lake

Added clouds

Basic shapes in the background and blue for the lake

Basic brown shapes

Light sources. Multiple ones, because I like it hard...

More brown shapes, reflections and shadows+highlights.

Added one more light source and details.

Added my tree in the foreground. Love him.

Fixed mistakes, added more fine highlight details. Signed the baby.

[kazeslittlevictories]

Yesterday was dedicated to painting, I've done most of the painting. Then I noticed some mistakes like a missing reflection some shadows out of place. Why did I go for a painting 10 times my usual size, multiple light sources and reflections in water?! Right, because those light sources in the water were the inspiration for the piece. I'm very happy with how it's turning out. It's warm and welcoming, the lights take you for a walk around the lake. Light and dark are balanced, I'm happy with the perspective more or less too for eyeballing it. Today was spend in a lot of pain because my painkillers did shit against period cramps. It wouldn't have been bad if I weren't at work without warm water bottles or the option to sleep through it all. But I think I found most problems in the painting. Also today we wrote history with resolving Iran's PMD issue peacefully. There were so many voices saying it's Iraq all over, but it wasn't. Me sleep now.