Things I still wonder about from my childhood
-why did I get yelled at when I thought it was acceptable to take my school work home to work on it when I was struggling to do it in school and it wasn't due till the end of the week anyways?
-why did the teachers see my failure to do 100 math problems in the required 10-20 minute time frame as me not working hard enough instead of questioning whether or not i needed extra help when it came to school?
-why did the school let a sub work there who, if you didn't know how to do something and asked her a question, would grab your pointer finger and index finger and squeeze as hard as she could until you remembered the answer, and why did all of the kids laugh when this happened to me frequently?
-why did they let the mother of a known bully sub at the school, especially when it was well known that she didn't think her son was doing anything wrong and she would be harsh on the students that he picked on regularly?
-why did no one question when a 9 year old (me) started coming to school with waxed eyebrows? especially when, days before all around the 5th grade you could hear students making fun of my "unibrow".
-why did the school constantly pat themselves on the back for driving out the bullies when they should have noticed that it was the students that were being picked on that were leaving?
-why did no one question that half of my grade was in therapy for one thing or another?
-why did half of the kids who picked on me have absolutely no problem with me until we were in a room with more people? especially one in particular who would pick on me in school but hangout with me and treat me nicely when it was just us waiting for his mom and my aunt to be done with work at the preschool they taught at together?
-why did some of the kids who turned on me to save their own skins, not realize that they could be the next target when i left, and why did they blame me for saving myself when they ended up in my boat? I warned them....
-why did I get blamed for "murder" when one of them stupidly drank his ice pack?
-why was I surprised to learn that most of them hadn't changed by the time we got to high school, why did i think he would be nicer, or she would smile and wave back, why did i think he would have gained some NEW ways to ruin someones life instead of acting like a 6 year old in a junior's spanish class, and why did I think that she would start being mean to men that she considered to be beneath her instead of just the girls?
-AND SERIOUSLY WHY THE FUCK DID THEY WANT ME TO PUT MY HEAD INSIDE THE LOCKER IN GYM CLASS AND WAIT TILL THEY SAID I COULD PULL IT OUT?! I WAS DRESSED, MY OTHER SET OF CLOTHES THAT I NEEDED FOR THE REST OF THE DAY WERE IN THE LOCKER AS WAS MY BACK PACK SO THEY WEREN'T GOING TO BE ABLE TO STEAL MY SHIT! WERE THEY GOING TO LEAVE ME IN THERE ALONE BECAUSE LIKE THAT'S THE FUCKING DUMBEST PRANK I'VE EVER HEARD OF, AND IF THEY WERE GOING TO SLAM THE LOCKER ONTO MY NECK THAT'S KIND OF MURDER WHAT THE FUCK GUYS?!