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LENA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE!!! 🎁🎂🎉🎊

Thank you sweetie! It’s so nice of you to remember it (:

[inmyownfiction]

Wan wan! @kebeans I think is funny how you love Inuyasha being a dog lover xD I’m a cat person but I don’t know if there is a cat character I adore? Or I don’t remember now haha ♡

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LENA IS IT STILL THE 28TH WHERE YOU ARE I HOPE IT IS BECAUSE HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! YOU BEAUTIFUL HUMAN BEING ♡ i hope you spend it / spend it well ^^

it is not but your message was the first thing i read in the morning of the 29th :))) thank you very much sunshine! <3

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i've always wondered what year you got married? or like, how many years you've been married~ and what is your husband's take on the fact that you're a kpop fan~~ is this too personal? >.< i've always been curious! i think being married and a kpop fan is really cool cause you manage to have 2 loves at the same time ;u;

hi sunshine, thanks for the ask! :)) i got married in 2010 so in august it will be 6 years (and 12 years since we met each other omg i was literally 15)well… i don’t think my husband is super happy with the fact (believe me, no man would be totally indifferent) but at least he doesn’t get seriously jealous cause i just don’t see my biases in a romantical way and i’m like… idk… quite a calm fan in real life, i don’t hang posters on the walls or have their faces looking at me from all electronic devices.he does get frustrated sometimes with the amount of time i spend on subbing movies, writing covers or photoshopping - but i’ve always been like this, crazy passionate about language and music related things, so i guess he’s used to it after all (yet i’m sure the concept of caring about celebrities seems pretty wild to him).aaand music wise… he doesn’t like rap so as long as i don’t blast Cypher Pt. 3 when he’s around, we’re fine lol (he likes listening to SPICA or Ailee though :))

[inmyownfiction]

10, 23, 51 (i bet it's gonna be soohyun lol), 66 ^^

Hi hi thanks thanks!

10:do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach? 

On my side~ and hugging a plushie! Or the pillow sometimes ahahhaa.

23:what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations? 

Now that I have internet with a new company, we also have more channels on TV, not only the national ones~ And I’m obsessed with the Investigation Discovery ahaha. Watching too many Detective Conan makes me likes a lot things about cases, with murderers and that type of tv shows c:

51:think of a person. what song do you associate with them? 

How do you know that ¿? No one knows I like Soohyun x’D

There’s.. too many songs omg. I’ll choose only 5~ because they are endless ahaha. Not in a particular order:

1. Michi ~ To you all by Aluto. Once I said I could sing this song to him If I ever meet him in person x’D It’s one of the purest love songs ever.

2. Kawaranai Mono by Hanako Oku. After I read the lyrics he came to my head lol Another cheesy love song that hurts my soul. (Except for the part of his big eyes, Soohyun’s are small uvu) It’s like a “goodbye” song. Pls put it on my funeral ¿?

3. I can’t by 4men. He covered this song a lot and listen to his first full cover of it I noticed he was my bias so~ it have a special place in my heart uvu

4. Only Hope by Mandy Moore. I love this song so much, and fits Soohyun and I well uvu ¿¿¿¿¿???? I discovered this song watching Dream High >_<

5. Break up by U-KISS. I cannot not imagine him singing the song in the karaoke version being an idiot lol x’DDD That video is glory.

And an extra one because it’s from Snk’s OST.

6. Counter.attack.mankind. The first part of this one sounds in the background in my favorite scene part from the anime. When Mikasa gives up after to know Eren is “dead”, but then she reminds him and decides to keep fighting. That’s how I felt the first time Soohyun noticed me lol So I see him as Eren in that part and me as Mikasa and makes me cry when I watch it lol -lame-

66:what would your ideal flower crown look like?

Ehh.. I don’t know xD But I like the ones with small flowers. Not those that are big big so looks like a hat lol. And I like white flowers uvu ~

This was long, sorry! >_<

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hihi lena bb // Once you get this, you have to say five things you like about yourself, publicly, then send this to 10 of your favourite followers (positivity is cool) ❤

hi sweety~ thanks for the ask! ^^

1. my eyes - both form and colour, dark amber to green;2. i’m a morning person but i love staying up late as well… i just don’t sleep much and feel totally ok;3. my language abilities; 4. i’m good at rational decision making and usually don’t need whoever’s advice;5. i’m quite strong physically (i won’t run a marathon but if it’s about like hiking with a backpack all day long, count me in)

[inmyownfiction]

1, 2, 20, 41 yay for ask games! ^0^

1:what color do you talk in? 

I don’t understand this question quq

2:what songs do you think people remember you by? 

Now you will remember me with Alone xP

20:what are the promises you’ve made to yourself? 

What a deep question eue One of them is that I won’t make people to hurt me so easily again. I’ll try to take care more about me, because I’m important even when I can’t see it easily.

41:if you could choose one instrument to master overnight, which would it be? 

Violin ;u; I love piano and violin, but violin is violin and I feel like I could look pretty cool playing a violin, too many violin lala violin. I love violin.

I love you, thanks uvu

[inmyownfiction]

@kebeans is da bomb! ¿?

Karina is writting a lot of stuff (read read) and I really enjoy reading her even when sometimes I don't say anything hehe.

I remember maybe our first ask on tumblr? I followed her when she had another url name and she was like "omg senpai noticed me, thank you". This was really funny, because I'm not really that type of person to be called senpai haha. More than self-esteem problems it's because I'm more like a follower than someone to follow.

But she started to grow up in the fandom, a person who gives a lot of support to U-KISS and also being really helpful with kissme. She writes her feelings like the last one about the boys and I can't believe when she says she is not good at expressing herself. Even I can see clearly her emotions in her videos, she's super expressive.

I do have this feeling of jealous, and she knows ahaha, because she is younger and is doing super well in life + luck time with her idols. And I really feel jelous of her relationship with her family and parents and I feel guilty for that but well.. I'm not the only one who would feel like that seeing something you want but you can't have.

She is a super duper awesome girl. I call her rainbow because is like that. Her personality is bubbly, shiny, a very hard worker and a super amable lady. But she have her temper too haha. She likes cute stuff, pastel colors, pink pink and pink, sweet things, and it's like a cute muffin you just wanna hug, but actually she is brave, a badass woman! She's like Honey-senpai from Ouran, srsly haha.

Karina is also very smart. And I'm not talking about studying and knowing about stuff from school or university, we all know she's a girl who can study. But she also is wise about things of life, things that I'm afraid of, and she helps me to confront them if I'm hesitating. She is able of transform her insecurities and "flaws" in tools and virtues. Ahh it's hard to explain, but she can transform everything in good things!

I'm someone who depends a lot in people, but I'm uncomfortable asking for help and talking about myself. I suffered of bullying on internet because of being noticed by U-KISS, especially with Soohyun and it was a dark time. Yes. Even when I was supposed to be really happy and impenetrable. That's why I'm weak and a crybaby. But a crybaby in both ways, good and bad? But I did, I cried a lot during that time and she was there and protected me from my demons and insecurities and gave me courage,defending me too.

Ahh, I really admire her. Who's the real senpai, then? I have my own definitions of things, and admiration is different from idolizing, isn't it? This is why I don't call U-KISS idols, because that's more like "I like them because they sing and dance well and are handsome". I ADMIRE them. You know, when you see them and your eyes shine, your smile appears suddenly and you feel your chest super warm and you think "They bright so much, I wanna be like them". And yes, they are talented and handsome but the feeling is more strong and not that simple. So, in this way, in the same way... I admire Karina. Like a kid who wanna be as her dad/mom or his favorite hero when he grows up, or a big sister or brother. This is funny 'cause I'm older but I can't against the feeling ahaha.

So I'm super happy when she is noticed by her bias. And she worked really hard to get it. You know, it's really hard to talk in front of a camera while recording. And then you have to see which one of the videos is better (or sometimes, which one is less worse) and edit and try then to get a reply and if you are a little bit lucky, you will be chosen for those shows bla bla. Must be terrible to be online there on ASC... but she did it and super well because she's awesome. She talked faster than usual because of nervous but she did super well and I just stopped talking with another friend in the phone when she was live lol

So, because I admire her when she compliments me about something I feel like blushing and I wanna hide... Like when she says I'm awesome for knowing a second language. I'm not really sure I know english that well to call it a second one... I still have problems to understand sentences or words and listen is hard. And speaks, oh my.. Plus, in this days knowing english is like basic ahaha. It's not like knowing another type of language like... latin or hebrew, I don't know. But she says she admires me for that, and I'm touched ♡

I give up easily on things and I have no patience to wait for improve. The example of this are my drawings. Everybody says "you've improved a lot in one year!" and I'm like "duh, but I suck". I know this things takes a lot of work and effort but how I fail on everything I try I see the failure evern before trying. Yeah, I'm that kind of pathethic person. BUT! They only thing that worked for me and I still can't believe it, it was U-KISS. It was all about luck, but when your messages are picked from a lot of people you feel special. You feel important. And happy. That's why then you start to want more and then the become greedy. Selfish too. I'm like an ogre oh my god ahaha. There's a big difference between Karina and me. And I'm sorry for this feeling again, I have an internal fight. That’s why Let it go, let it go.. can’t holding back anymore ♫

Someone told me once "I have the power to make flowers bloom". It was pretty but weird. I don't really understand it or if it's true, but one of my reasons to live is giving my friends, family and people I care smiles and random demonstrations of love. I can't kiss or hug my internet friends, neither U-KISS, but I wanna reach them anyways, with daily messages even if it's just a heart in a message, or a drawing. Or who knows. This is why I started to write about Karina, to say I admire her and she writes nice things but I ended with a whole book omg I'm sorry.

In a few words, Karina is beautiful and I love her ♡