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@kedas-whinge thats where it shall all go sorry everyone ahaha

Thought about care and comfort again.... sighs whimsically but with adult worries

#kedamoment #im good!!! like actually good this time #i just sighhhhh i wish i was someones lil guy. someones stupid little man. but i gotta go home and be. the big one! thats ok #being big aint all bad #now i wanna be small?? GIRL MAKE UP UR MINDDD #i dont like wanna be small i just want the good stuff when i am ig

Bbbbbbbb had a rlly good bath last night i heart everyone who care me

#kedamoment #haha. sigh #so nuance #so complex #im sooooo ready to be big now

When the c ars ..... "I needed someone to feed"............ .. . Me when I can . Think of sometjing ELSE! and someone else!!!!! And stop worrying about stupid old me!!!

#kedamoment #i heart the cars soooo much woaw #heartbeat city the album everr

Need to make a new spam in the interim all 30 something of us can celebrate me being 290 days purge free today.

#kedamoment #its a little sad to me i can already tell my partners wont b as excited abt it as i “want” them to b haha #i hit a year sober and there wasnt much and ts made me scary mean raging and awful #ofc they dont care about my gross little (NOT ANYMORE!!) habit tbh idk why i even do. that was a hs-early college me thing.#it wasnt that bad when i stopped...#i miss it im sorry i rlly dont want to but jesus christ do i miss it sb #like sometimes i just!!!!!! grrraaaaghhh it sometimes feels like nothing will solve xyz but thirteen sennosides. cries.#ive also! been too scardd to weigh myself which is a blessing and a curse. even *i* think i look worse than i did a week ago. and.. like #im not even happy abt it this time #i would very much love my ability to eat back but alas!!!! 12 years! more if u count the rumination disorder. aha im nasty and gross #and i always have been!#now i just walk. walk and walk and pilates and walk and sometimes if i feel like i wont pass out? ill gym. rarely #i always feel like imma pass out these days tbh #i need... like. help #need to reach out to the specialistmy therapist sent me but brooo #i dont wanna get better! i can almost barely tolerate the damn vessel i do not feel ready to give that up!!!!!!!!#but if i dont i see my future and it is more of those weird blackout fits when i smoke or losing even more of my teeth or like something ..#idk going wrong when we do psychadelics or whatever #i wish i could!!! just!!!!!!! eat #sobs. at least im not thinking about how much i 🪽looove✨️ my disorder or whatever. i KNOW im childish and retarded for still being sick aha

Gotta take bro at his word that hed say it if he was sick of me or wanted me to leave him alone or whatever. Im not but I really need to just trust ts cuz not doing so is like calling him a liar or something like that and ik he isnt a liar. Ough.

#kedamoment #i feel incessantly annoying and im unbelievably greatful HE hasnt treated me that way at least aha but #im gonna b soooo normal and ACTUALLY not annoying today watchh

Dear Diary why am I scared of him today??

#kedamoment #is it bc i got like this around him at first?? do i fear it happening again if hes even moderately nice to me????#or am i embarrassed as fuuuck after a week of being needy and reallll dumb?#both?????#grrr #i like him he is cool as fuckk n real nice and quite smart and caring and thoughtful and yappy and calming but #i am so afraid of him today aha #i dont want to go babymode again just cuz i thought about something nice he did or said for too long.. ive been genuinely incompetent @ work #but also. thats the max comfort i was able to get while stuck and whatever!!!!! we cling to it as if we deserve it!! even tho like #i do not! at all!#im grown but at what cost

Bedtime. Im so much more content.

#i rlly do attribute it to giving my pal the puppy treatment i think. rlly got me peaceful #made me wanna give tummy rubs and make puppy noises and play fetch tho i heart dogboys #kedamoment

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