#keepmelost.txt

[i-wish-to-be-lost-mail]

I feel like Rocky when he says he hasn’t spent enough years with Adrian

[i-wish-to-be-lost-mail]

Jax: tell me everything later.

pomni: be back here later.

[i-wish-to-be-lost-mail]

Idk why people would possibly not date someone who regresses bc it’s literally so fun. I don’t regress but I like a lot of kids stuff so we legit get to sit and play and watch cartoons s and colour and stuff. And like I get to sing ti them and read them books and open stuff for them and do things that make them laugh it’s adorable I love it

[i-wish-to-be-lost-mail]

Since when did happiness get so expensive

[i-wish-to-be-lost-mail]

I want to go into forensics, I want to be good in ballistics and bloodstain pattern. But- if my partner dies, you’ll find me at a library. Because that was their dream job. We both wanted a cat named Rosie, and if they are gone I’ll still get a Rosie. And a mini schnauzer and give it their name. That way I can say it every day. Plus that’s their favorite dog. Maybe I’ll learn violin, do the stuff they swore they would. I’ll collect critters and pandas and wear their favorite colours. I’ll cry every day, every time I call the dog, every time I go to work and look at Rosie. But I’ll be surrounded by them. No matter what. It hurts, but it brings me peace

[i-wish-to-be-lost-mail]

I’m so sick of all these tomorrows

[i-wish-to-be-lost-mail]

I’m just trying to hard and it’s not enough why won’t I ever be enough I’m doing all I can right? Why domt k feel like k can get like acknowledgment I feel like I’m trying so hard and I don’t know if it’s working I feel like it is but then it is not and I don’t get it why am I not enough? Why can’t I be enough? I’m trying I promise i am I really mean it Im trying I’m trying I’m trying just fuck.

[i-wish-to-be-lost-mail]

Idk if my partner is actually sick of me or needed time for themselve. Haven’t spoken to them since 5pm. Currently about 10:40

and yeah I’m dramatic but idk I don’t see them for maybe an hour more

and it’s hard. I can’t actually do shit without them because I’m worried sick