(Vent anon) okay fuck I'm gonna shorten this but. They don't fucking love me. I know they don't . I hate them because they made me think they do. I hate them because they tricked me and manipulated me. I hate them because they lie to me. But mostly I hate them because I don't hate them. I hate that I love them. I hate that I can't say I hate them and be telling the truth. Why the fuck am I so broken. Why am I hung up on them. Fuck. I hate them.
This relationship with whoever seems rather toxic, and if you can possibly try to get out of the situation by (if it’s a friendship or romantic/sexual relationship) break off communication and (if it’s a partner and you’re living with them) try to find another place to stay. If you’re over 18 and it’s family, please try to move out and live with a friend or other family. If you’re younger than 18, then contact family or a friend that can take you in and contact cps(child protection services or another service that can help protect you and get it of your situation). It’s obvious emotional and (possible) mental abuse, which all in all is still abuse.