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I've updated my nickname, don't lose me 🤗

pics for not empty post (joke that we made with my buddy (????))

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Had an interview for another job

I don't think I've got it despite lots of preparation and being good friends with the deputy store manager. I really don't fucking get it anymore. 

Aye, it's got me down, however hearing some things lately has really cheered me up. To know that my dark days are done and the I am moving forwards really inspires me. The fact I can inspire myself just reminds me that I am a good person and that I shouldn't beat myself up all the time, something of which I tend to do a lot and often.

I'm so happy with the true friends that I have now and I know that we will be there for each other come hell or high water.

Also I'm doing another obstacle course event thing!

Last September I did a course called Tough Mudder which is an incredibly difficult course both physically and mentally. This year I'm doing a similar event called Endurance Runner in the Peak District. I'm doing it for Cancer Research UK with some friends of mine so that gives me something to train for and get hyped for. That and America. Lol.

As geeky as it sounds I've been watching a lot of Star Wars lately and maybe my insanity has reached a new level but when you really look at this film it is full of inspirational life lessons. Being a Jedi is all about strength in dark times, forgiving and forgetting, not holding grudges or creating animosity. It's really about being at peace with everything around you. I'm not talking lets start masturbating over this tulip because it's colour is so nice. I'm talking about how we can become so pent up in all our superficial worries that we forget what really matters such as friendship and happiness.

However to quote a different film all together I'm going to leave you with this last quote from the film Zombieland.

Rule 32: Enjoy the little things

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Valentine's day, fuck off.

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Had such a great 21st birthday yesterday!

I'm officially an adult all over the world.

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A weird way to get motivated.

Just before Christmas my neighbor across the road died from his 3 year battle with cancer. Today was his funeral and it was sad. To think that his wife who has spent her whole life with him is now on her own does get to me. Yet so many people young and old told me today to go out and enjoy life. As i've said before and will always say

'We're not here for a long time, we're here for a good time'

People are fascinated at the fact that I'm only 20 and I've already been to Africa volunteering and how I'm already planning to go away to America for the summer. This whole post is kinda cliché and cheesy but it really drove home a few things for me.

I don't want a full time job yet

I don't want to get married and have kids yet

I don't want to burden myself with debts and worries yet

Instead I've decided to live my life to the full first. Do the things I can whilst I'm young. I'm gonna go for a run now and enjoy every last step because one day... I won't be able to run anymore and I will envy all those who can but do not.

KEERS OUT

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Just passed out.

Had a bath and read The Dark Tower: Wastelands. It was clearly too intense for me too handle.

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So this is a thing. I have no money though...