#keiito

[banqanas]

[dandelionuprising]

keiito replied to your post “I mean. I was a kid and now I’m an adult, sorta. So I guess that’s the...”

But yeh, it’s often confusing when you see different people with different levels of dysphoria or how they like. Live with it? It becomes kinda easy to invalidate yourself, because you don’t entirely match what you see around you. But you don’t have to, to be valid or want or able to ID as trans

I dunno how to say this, but it’s totes okay for you to id as trans. I know my sister didn’t feel too comfortable doing so, because she wasn’t as binary or something as me. Also you said you wanted to be a boy, but wasn’t. I mean, wanting to be a boy is enough proof of being trans if you wanna look at it like that. It’s okay to say you are. Aehdunno, I just see a lot of ... the same stuff I see from am I trans posts, just explained away differently.

They all explain it away do. I want to be X, but “insert personal reason for invalidating that want or justifying something”. The kinda want in and of itself is enough and there doesn’t really need to much more reason then that. Everything after the but is usually just blargon jargon n a sorta denial?

Yeah I absolutely see where you’re coming from, but the thing is, I wanted to be a boy when i was a kid bc I didn’t know better if that makes sense? It’s not that I want to be a man now, so I think I’m definitely not binary trans.

I’m relatively comfortable with agender/nonbinary/genderqueer, and I definitely am not cis. 

It’s just that.. I’m not sure why trans doesn’t feel right to me. I’m not sure it’s about invalidating myself, really, and I don’t think it’s that I want to be a Special Third Option, either.

I just feel like... I dunno. I’ve always had a very hard time including myself in a group.. And I feel like the whole debacle about gender dysphoria and transness etc etc. comes down to,... we haven’t defined what it means to be trans very well?

Like I have decided to support the most inclusive interpretation, but there are many different interpretations.

I don’t want to take anything from anyone, i guess? Like it feels like I’m appropriating something if I were to call myself trans.

This is a personal feeling, and doesn’t extend to others with similar experiences, though.

[butwhatistrue]

I often write stuff in my head in my dreams. And it’s always soooo perfect?? Like best writing ever. And like, I wanna wake up and scribble it down before I forget it, but also I wanna keep dreaming and have this perfect flow of writing? And I always almost always keep dreaming cuz I feel like I can remember it n then I can’t, but sometimes I do wake up early n write stuff down n tis perfect as I’d dreamt! Often just feels like, well my dream flow was better n now I can’t recreate it n it sucks.

I often do the thing where I’m half-asleep and having all these “genius” thoughts that I’ll forget later, and I’ll never know if it really was amazing or if it was nonsensical ^^”

[butwhatistrue]

What's your favorite continent?

Eeep! No clue! I’ve only been in Europe and Asia, and I don’t feel like I’ve been enough places to actually say which is my favorite. Also favorite how? To live in? To visit? Politically? 

So I can’t say, really!

[butwhatistrue]

I know!! It’s so confusing where it’s going and what’s happening n it gets sooo thrilling near the end n one can’t stop reading until it sorta makes sense last 10 pages or something reaaaalllllly late. But happy ending! Kindaish! Would say totes happy yes!

I just have to pull myself together!! Good to know it’s a mostly happy ending!!

[butwhatistrue]

Also I’m on my 2nd strepsil n aehdunno, I feel they help lots. I can breathe now! If u ever wanna chat u can aaaalllwaaayyyss call me! I’m like trying to call people more. Been praticing call Seb, wanna try u too one point. Just lots of fear for some reason lol

Thanks!!! I might take you up on that offer sometime! I should practice calling too ^^ Sometimes it’s just easier to chat :P 

[butwhatistrue]

You should try n finish freaks like us! I talked with Seb about it today n spoiled everything n aehdunno, it sounds so different n weird when you talk about it compared to when you read it. Almost felt like a weird story or smthing lol, like cliffnotes or short version tldr

I really should shouldn’t I!!! I read half of it already. it’s just sooooo stressful lol!!! I tried to skim through it to learn what happens, but it’s so hard to figure out o.o I think I have to read it!

[butwhatistrue]

*sends an interaction in the form of an ask* also have some validation while u at it* and some love ❤️

Aww thanks Kate!! I Appreciate it lots!!