“take me, i’m alive, never was a girl with a wicked mind, but everything looks better.. when the sun goes down. i had everything, opportunities for eternity, and i could belong to the night. your eyes, your eyes. i can see, in your eyes, your eyes... you make me wanna die. i’ll never be good enough.”
-- MAKE ME WANNA DIE by THE PRETTY RECKLESS
Bailey had no idea when she had ended up on a table, dancing drunkenly, but the jeers and shouting were all encouraging her in her incapacitated mind frame. She giggled, holding her arms out as she spun, blindly, dizziness taking over her before she even turned in a full circle. “Uh oh.” She mumbled, stomach turning over as she stopped spinning, stumbling slightly. The attention was gone from her, for now at least, which she was glad because she was sure she was about to barf.
When she glanced up, she saw a familiar face in the crowd, frowning at her.
“Ma.. Kena?” She stumbled, confused, taking a step over, forgetting she was on a table and losing her footing, immediately stumbling down onto the floor. Makena was there in a flash though, picking her up, dusting her off.
“Nooo, no, you can’t see me like this again. I’m a mess. I look - i look like a mess. This isn’t good.” She shook her head vehemently, but Makena’s grip on her arm was strong as she pulled her out of the stranger’s house and into the cold, fresh air.
“C’mon, let’s get you home.” Makena was saying, although all Bailey could see was a blur, everything spinning past her, and she knew she was going to throw up again.
“This isn’t me.” Bailey continued to try to defend herself drunkenly. “This- this isn’t me. I don’t know who this is. I don’t... Don’t know who i am anymore.” She mumbled along. Makena didn’t say anything, but she looked as if she was listening, and that... That was new to Bailey. She never really felt like she had been listened to before until Makena had come along. “I used to have everything. When i was younger. Or i think i did. Then i grew up and- and suddenly... Everything was different.” She let out a small laugh at that, although she didn’t know why. Makena opened her mouth, about to say something- but it was too late and Bailey was bending over, promptly emptying the contents of her stomach out onto the other girl’s shoes.