task 001 | secrets
1. What is their deepest desire?
his deepest desire is to be a good person. he wants to enjoy his life. he wants to be with someone that looks at him like he matters and he wants to be able to believe it.
2. What do they truly need to be their best self, even if they do not realize it yet?
beau needs to break away from his family and became his own person to be his best self. he hates everything that comes with being a kook unless it means new clothes or items.
3. What in their past has happened to them to make them the person they are?
when he was ten, he witnessed his father speaking to someone else about the real reason his mother had died. spoiler alert, it wasn’t from cancer as he and sawyer were told to believe. beau was sworn to secrecy and he’s been holding that in for the last decade, letting it rot at his insides.
4. What do they believe to be true of themselves due to this past pain, even if it’s not true?
beau believes that he is not meant for anything. he will only live in his father and family’s shadow his entire life. he knows that even if he fails, his father will make sure he has everything that he will probably hate. his father will always be his crutch to save him.
5. How do they portray themselves to others?
beau tries to come across as someone that is confident and kind of a bad ass. the confidence comes with having a lot of money and he can be a trouble maker whenever possible.
6. What is the armor that they wear to protect themselves?
when he becomes too comfortable in a relationship, whether it be friends or boyfriends, beau tends to protect himself with his social status. he acts like he is too good for someone because he’s a kook and his asshole facade shines brightly.
7. What is their true self or who are they deep down?
beau is a sweet guy deep down. he loves deeply. he cares for his friends and family. he wants the best for them. he yearns to help them and make their lives better. he is not some kook asshole that he can be on the surface.
8. What is their immediate goal?
his current immediate goals include pissing off his father and creating havok to soil the robbins name. he knows that will involve punishment but it makes his adrenaline surge.
9. What are their short-term goals?
his short term goals are to graduate college and find a job that will allow him to earn his own money, not live off the robbins fortune.
10. What are their long-term goals?
beau wants to leave the outer banks and find a job on the mainland after he graduates college. he has plans to break free from the robbins name and live his true life. he isn’t sure how soon that will be able to happen but that is the future he sees for himself.
11. What do they think they are most afraid of? What are they actually most afraid of?
beau is afraid to be genuinely happy. he is afraid that when happiness comes, he will be punished for it from his father. he is afraid that his father will do something to ruin his life and make him regret all of his decisions. in all reality, he is most afraid of his father because he knows the man is always up to no good and he will taint someone else’s life to make his own seem better.