The rain poured heavily over the dusky starlit boulevard. Claudia wore her hooded cape, one she’d had since before that fateful fire at the Rue Royale, as she walked along it. She couldn’t catch cold and it was almost a hundred years out of fashion, but she still held an affinity towards them, like a child clinging to a security blanket.
Claudia knew how much of a child she could be at times in spite of her intellect and the years that weighed on her, and it was one of many things that made her wonder why. Was this just another effect of her curse -- that part of her should always remain a weak, pathetic little girl on the inside? Why did she need that comfort and security if she truly was a woman? If she wasn’t human?
Madeleine, her makeshift mother, was lost to her. It was the cruelest irony that she died almost the exact same way Claudia had tried to kill her maker -- poisoned blood. The poor woman lived in a dream; though they both filled gaps for each other (lost mother, lost daughter), she could never be the companion she needed, and she could never be her little girl. Still, she cared for her enough to grieve. There was no one to help her with the body and give her a proper burial, so she had to leave her in that house. There was a part of her screaming to stay behind and cling to her, convince herself that she was asleep and would soon wake up as she decayed.
It would only be a matter of time before the rent would be due and their landlord would discover that Claudia was quite alone in the apartment. She could have easily said Madeleine was out when he came to collect, but what if he were to snoop around and find out? She could have easily followed the old miser to his office and killed him, but then she’d have to pack up and leave immediately, and where could she go on her own looking no more than twelve? Such matters were why she needed a guardian, a protector she could live through. In spite of her loss and the sad fact that she had to do this at all, she was lucky there was one of her kind close by.
She had seen him on the street with Madeleine, teased her for swooning over his ruggedly handsome looks, and asked if they could pay him a call to which she only laughed nervously and reminded her of how untrustworthy those others turned out to be. That distrust, the fear he would see her as an abomination and try to harm her, wasn’t the only thing that made Claudia feel apprehensive going to him. There was an embarrassment going back to feeling childish. She would have rather swam across the ocean to wherever her Louis was, not caring if she died along the way or if Armand and his troupe of morons were true to their word about killing her if she ever set foot in Paris again than practically beg a complete stranger for shelter.
She would have to swallow her pride, however bitter on her tongue it tasted. She had thought it over during the past two weeks she could manage in isolation and there didn’t seem to be another choice at the moment. Her other plan required precious time she couldn’t waste biding anymore and outside help.
When Claudia reached the house, she took a deep breath before pushing open the unlocked ivy-covered gate and walking up to the door. She knocked with more strength than her little body appeared to carry, more strength than she intended.