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I don’t want anything bad to happen, but I kind of do. I feel like that’s what’ll make me trust him more. I hate being the damsel. I don’t want to be rescued, but, you know what? That would fix things. I think it would really fix things.
I still think about it every now and then. I wonder if it would have been different, if I’d kind of gotten some sort of willing revenge.
James and I had a nice goodbye in London. I could have stretched it out to a week-long affair, and I kind of hate myself for not doing that. For being better than Thor and Clint.
For being loyal. It’ll make me a good princess. The ideal wife.
But it’s like I don’t understand that sort of impulse that everyone else does, and without the resolve of revenge, I have no way to really solve this.
It was a good week in London, with Bond. But it should have been longer.
I should have really kissed back.
I don’t regret crying to him in that hotel room. He offered me a way out…a career in London, a chance to work with MI-6. I loved the facilities there, but…I’m loyal. To Thor, and to S.H.I.E.L.D. and to this country. And that means hating Clint for a little while longer.
I hope I made the right choice.













