((I made a realization or two earlier today, with the help of Bruce-Mun, and I just want to say... That if I don't reply to a post of yours for long periods or at all, it's not because I hate you or am ignoring you or whatever; it's because I am honestly overwhelmed and you amaze me too much, or because I think you expect a lot from me, so I cannot think what to post back/first. I genuinely sit here and read and reread whatever you've written and think that I'm not worthy, because you're too cool.
I have this habit... of trying hard to push away the people I care about/admire the most, because I get terrified. Call it abandonment and self-worth issues. It takes a lot of patience to get past that and I only know of like, a couple people who have been sturdy and patient enough to fight through my wall, so I'm sorry. So basically, if I'm ignoring you, it's probably because I like you too much. Sometimes the ice gets completely broken right away, sometimes it takes a while, and sometimes my wall slowly melts, but just know if I don't post a reply to you for days or a week or however long, it's not because I don't like you. ))
