#killmemylifeiscomplete

[thisisobrien]

I'm happy today.

- I got a job interview for tomorrow ❤ - Two of the old dogs I'm watching over at my house got the zoomies and it was so hilarious I couldn't stop laughing ❤ - New photos of Matthew Daddario ❤ - New video of Prime that was excellent omg. And he liked only 4 tweets since he uploaded it. 2 of them were mine ❤

[thisisobrien]

The vidder says that video is bullshit but it’s awesome and it made me cry and feels a lot of things.

LOVE STYDIA  💕❤️

[thisisobrien]

Sciles & Jalec.

And I have a theme and a song titled Infinity. But infinity can sometimes break. 

[thisisthsou]

OMg you all need to watch this video!

Part 1 is there: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JwYQ1N98Wv8

[thisisthsou]

I don't know what to do. The year is ending and I just finished the best book of 2015. I feel so empty now that the book is over. I'm so sad because there'll be no more and I'm so sad because there'll be no more of Lochan and Maya's love. Those who read the book will understand. Gosh I'm so speechless I want to scream my feelings on top of the world but I can't put words on it.

[thisisthsou]

I’ve started reading this book a while ago and put it down after 20 pages because I was so tired after coming back from work but I picked it up again yesterday around 10pm and I couldn’t stop myself from reading it. It’s only when it was 3.30am, I forced myself to stop and told myself I will finish it this evening.

Here’s the resume.

She is pretty and talented - sweet sixteen and never been kissed. He is seventeen; gorgeous and on the brink of a bright future. And now they have fallen in love. But... they are brother and sister. Seventeen-year-old Lochan and sixteen-year-old Maya have always felt more like friends than siblings. Together they have stepped in for their alcoholic, wayward mother to take care of their three younger siblings. As defacto parents to the little ones, Lochan and Maya have had to grow up fast. And the stress of their lives—and the way they understand each other so completely—has also also brought them closer than two siblings would ordinarily be. So close, in fact, that they have fallen in love. Their clandestine romance quickly blooms into deep, desperate love. They know their relationship is wrong and cannot possibly continue. And yet, they cannot stop what feels so incredibly right.

I can’t tell you how much this book is great, how much it makes me feel holy shit!! I think I’ve definitely got something for stories related with forbidden love (even in post-apocalyptic worlds *winks at TLOU and Joellie*) 

Books talking about incest is not new to me. When I was younger I was reading fanfics about Tom and Bill (from Tokio Hotel) and even after years I’m still impacted with some of them stories as they were wonderfully developed. 

Back to Forbidden, I can’t imagine not crying at the ending, I have this foreboding it’s not going to end well. I can feel it. It’s already risky where they are. They were already some impactful twists so far. It’s so well written, many many times my heart started to beat faster, each time they got closer (and I love that they get more and more close only bit by bit and sometimes it’s one step forward two steps backward). I also feel really strange when Lochan is having a panic attack, it almost feels like I’m having one. 

Anyway, I give this book 5 out of 5 stars already. And I’m pretty it will overtake Alice Bliss (a book I read in May 2015) in the ranking. 

And also there’s something funny. My goal this year was to read 12 books. Before yesterday, I thought I’d fail since I had only read 11. So I had told myself fuck it I just want to read, it doesn’t matter if I’m in the middle of the 12 book. Haha. I think I’m going to complete it XD

[thisisthsou]

Beatitude.

I had felt anxious for the past few days until I went to the animal shelter. I only walked two dogs at once (Voren and Urban like usual) and didn’t walk any other dogs because I ended up staying in their yard until closing. At first, Gitane and Biancka weren’t there so I couldn’t pass up the opportunity to stay exclusively with Voren and Urban. Then they were all reunited and I spent time with every dog. I didn’t see the time fly by as I was stroking Voren to sleep. Everyone fell asleep and it felt so peaceful, even the other dogs in the big yard weren’t all that noisy.

Serenity.

I must say it was the most amazing afternoon of all time. Voren never wanted so many hugs! And I absolutely did not skimp on those.

As usual, I took a lot of photos and videos so when I came back home in the most relaxed state ever, I wanted to use a Sleeping at Last song for the montage video and guess what I ended stumbling upon? The soundtrack of Many Beautiful Things composed by Sleeping at Last. I didn’t hesitate to buy it. His music is heaven!

I cannot stress enough how lovely that afternoon was!

[thisisthsou]

I woke up this morning inspired to write. Hours later, I sat on my chair, listening to music and I suddenly got tons and tons of ideas. This afternoon I went to the animal shelter to walk dogs and I got back and actually started writing a bit.

I FEEL ALIVE!!