𝕰𝖚𝖕𝖍𝖔𝖗𝖎𝖆: A (Mostly) Canon Compliment then Canon Divergence HxH Killugon Long One-Shot
This is my Hunter x Hunter Killugon gift/gift fic for my Valentine for the @killugonvalentines event! I know it is just barely 14th (at least for some people), but I am posting it now; just in case I don’t have time later. My Valentine was @ash1875! (I seem to be having a bit of trouble tagging my Valentine, so I am not sure if my tag of them will work). I hope they and anyone else who may read my fic enjoys it! There is 6k+ words, so a fair amount to read.
Will probably be posting a AO3 version soon too, if you prefer to read there. And when I say soon, I mean way sooner than the other fics I have said that for (which I haven’t posted, for the most part, on AO3 yet), because the format of this fic makes it easier to more quickly post on AO3. Alright, I am done rambling, let’s get to the fic. There will be a preview of it, then I will put the rest under a “read more” cut.
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Killua had just departed with Gon at the World Tree, Alluka in-hand, when he finally let his feelings overflow. Not on purpose, mind you, and if you were to ask Killua if he was upset about something, he would say he is fine, and that nothing was wrong. But Killua, despite his tough show and teasing in front of Gon, felt like his soul was torn in two at separating with Gon. So tears did flow and flow for a good awhile after Gon had left; it was quiet, and Killua kept his face away from Alluka to not show her how actually upset he was that Gon wasn’t there with him anymore (Alluka was perceptive though, and knew something was up.).
After crying for awhile, standing still in place at the bottom of the world tree, every so often looking up, as if Killua could somehow see Gon all the way at the top of the tree, he finally wiped them away, closed his eyes for awhile, and the re-opened them, his eyes looking like he had never cried at all, and started to turn to walk away. Sadness, but determination in his eyes.
“Come on, Alluka, it is time to go.” Killua said to Alluka.
Alluka looked up at Killua, words on her tongue to say about Killua’s unvoiced feelings and the unspoken words she could feel were there besides the words Killua just said. Alluka felt the words being said applied to more than just what was being said literally. Alluka truly wanted to say something to Killua, but decided (for now) to keep her mouth shut about it. Thinking maybe it wasn’t the best time. She was also patient after all, and she had all the time in the world to ask her Nii-chan about it. Because Alluka for sure, wouldn’t let all this pass. She was for sure going to ask about all this. …To ask about Gon. She just–wouldn’t right now.
“Ok Nii-chan! Coming!” Replied cheerily.
Alluka then started walking properly with Killua and stopped dragging her feet.
They then walked in silence for awhile until they reached their airship they would travel the world together in.
Once they seated themselves and before they took off, he got a message on his phone from Palm, saying to check out a link in their email which linked to a live feed of something they might be interested in seeing.
So Killua got out his tablet after reading the message, and looked for this email. He found it, opened it, and clicked on the link. And to his surprise, he saw Gon…who appeared to be talking to his father. Killua wondered for a second how this feed was being shown, but then shook his head at that thought. After that dragonfly Chimera Ant’s powers, and so many things he has seen and experienced; even before he took his first Hunter Exam, someone– or something getting this feed isn’t really a surprise. He still thought to ask Palm where she got the link though; just for curiosity’s sake.
…To be honest though, the main reason why he didn’t care that much how he was able to see this feed of Gon, was, well, because he was able to see Gon again, so full of life, and so happy talking to his father (though, seeing Gon so happy, without him there, talking to Ging also stung some) in probably the clearest definition he was going to see Gon in awhile. Be that in-person (of course)..or not. So to Killua, beggars couldn’t really be choosers; he was happy with what he was able to get.
Killua lost in thought, got shook out of it by Alluka who had come over from somewhere else in the airship with some snacks and drinks for their flight–wherever they were going (not even they knew where. They were currently traveling over some beautiful crystal-like formations growing on the surface. But that’s the thing, they were just traveling, with no real destinations in mind, neither of the siblings really knew where they wanted to go, at least not truly. They both hoped someday they would).
“AH! Nii-chan, is that Gon there? Those tablet things are so cool. I saw you constantly on one in the car leaving–that place. What is Gon doing anyway? ...Oh. He looks to be on top of the world tree. Hmmmm..???”, questioned Alluka.
“Yes, that is Gon. And yes he is still on top of the world tree. This video feed appears live somehow. Do you want to watch it with me?”, answered Killua.
“Of course I do!” Alluka gleefully shouted; clapping her hands.
She scooted over super close to Killua and leaned over to peer at the tabet in Killua’s hands.
Killua leaned in too, getting closer to his sister, and making it easier for both of them to view the screen on the tablet. (They were lucky Killua could multitask while flying, and that there were some things that can make the flight basically auto).
And for awhile, they just sat there, happily watching tablet, happily watching Gon (and Ging, but who cares about him, when Gon was right there), who was happy too.
At that moment, they felt like they were the only people in the world.
And they were happy.
But if they were happy, if Killua was happy, why did Killua’s heart hurt so much?
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Gon had just finished his talk with Ging and was climbing down the giant tree. It was now dark, and so the climb down was more dangerous than his climb up, but he had been through worse, nen or no nen. He could have slept up there until the morning, but—he had his talk Ging, and now he wanted to move on, move forward as quickly as possible. So even just waiting until morning was too much. Gon wanted to move forward from Ging (from Killua too?); he just felt like he had to.
Gon had made it down from the tree, and was walking on the streets trying to find a hotel or something to stay the night in (if he had to, he could just sleep somewhere outside though), when he ran into Palm.
“Ommpphhh! Nenene, oh, is that you Palm, what you doing out here so late?”
“Hm, well, I was just out for a walk, it is a beautiful night out and all.”
Gon didn’t really believe Palm’s reasons, but decided not to press it. She probably had her reasons for lying, if she was. And she had no reason to lie maliciously to him too.
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“So, what are you doing out here yourself Gon? You must be done with your talk with Ging if you are down here? Did you want to go somewhere to talk for a bit? Me and Knov and some other other people have a house we are staying in right now, and you can stay the night if you want.” Palm suddenly said.
Gon was silent for a moment, and then said,
“Ok. Sure, that sounds great. Let-,” Gon pulled an upset face at saying that, “I mean, take me to this house.”
Palm was taken aback, like she didn’t expect Gon to answer so quickly or maybe she wasn’t expecting Gon to accept her offer at all. Either way she was surprised.
“Great. Follow me, I will take you to our place.”
“Thank you, Palm!”
Gon walked up to be next to Palm while walking to her house.
Gon, the whole walk home just had his hands behind his back, and just kept peeking at Palm, and looking away when Palm caught him looking. Opening and closing his mouth a lot of the time, like he wanted to say something to Palm, but just never doing so. In the end he just resorted to chewing his lip, like he had to physically restrain himself from not asking about what was on his mind.
After awhile of doing this, Palm had finally had enough. Eyebrows twitching, Palm questioned,
“What is it Gon?! Quit with your constant staring and anxiousness and lip biting and just get out with it! …I am not going to bite Gon.”
“Ah, um, well”, Gon stammered shortly, but shortly collected himself, “I was trying to not ask about it, because I thought you must have had your reasons, but, what is your REAL reason for being here. When you gave me your reason earlier, I didn’t really think it was the truth. And thinking back on it, when you saw me out, you didn’t even seem surprised to see me. I mean, sure, maybe me being there wasn’t a huge surprise, since some people did know I went up the world tree, but no one really knew I would go back down the same day I went up, esp. at night, and even if you could guess that I might have been there, I think some kind of shock, even slight, should have shown up on your face, but it didn’t. The most flustered you got was when I asked you why you were out so late.”
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“So Palm, why were you really out tonight?”, Gon finished.
Palm’s pale skin seemed to grow even paler with this question, and her blue eyes looked back and forth like she wanted to be anywhere but there—or she was trying to come up with a good lie excuse.
Gon still had his hands behind his back, bending down slightly, and tilting his head to look up at Palm just stared and stared saying nothing after asking his question, until Palm finally cracked.
*Sigh*, “FINE, fine, I will tell you! God!”, Palm kept on muttering for awhile before answering though, and Gon could swear he could hear some less-than-nice words being said as well, “So ok, I kind of knew you would be coming down, and I wanted to come get you to make my offer and than when we got back to our house, I talked to go somewhere private, that wasn’t literally outside for ANYONE to hear, and, talk, about some things. Some very important things–that I think should be discussed, and honestly should have been discussed before your talk with Ging and most importantly BEFORE Killua left. But, better late than never I guess.” Palm finished in a huff, and almost out of breath.
Gon blinked, “Um. Okayyy then.”
“Just follow me then.”
Gon didn’t say anything and just started following Palm when she started walking forward.
They walked for awhile until they reached a medium-big-sized painted red and white trimmed, 3-story house with a decent amount of different sized windows. A few of the windows even had flower pots with beautiful flowers growing from them (there weren't that many plants besides those things though. Some grass and a couple of trees and bushes). Gon pictured it would look even nicer during the day from the outside and that on the inside, that there would be a lot of natural sunlight from the windows.
Palm stopped at the front door, hand reaching for her purse to look for something, then stopped suddenly to turn around to look at Gon. Once she was able to see that Gon was still there (was she worried that he was going to wander off?), she continued on digging through her purse, until she pulled out something shiny and metal. They were keys.
*Huff*, “Finally found those goddamn keys.” Palm muttered under her breath.
With keys in hand, she got the food door opened, and quickly turned the lights on. Oh, Gon just noticed that the home appeared unoccupied, since there didn’t appear to be any lights on when looking from the outside, and Palm had to turn the lights on when she entered.
Palm looked back and noticed Gon’s confused expression.
“What is on your mind?”
“Well, I noticed you had to turn on the lights, and that looking at the windows, there didn’t seem to be any lights on. Is there no one else home tonight, or…????” Gon shot back.
Palm didn’t say anything for a bit (like they were at a loss for words), and just started blinking rapidly, until Palm appeared to make up their mind at what to say, “Yes, it is just the two of us tonight, the rest are…out at a gettogether, and will be staying the night, at, hm, a hotel over there until at least tomorrow, so it will just be the two of here tonight. I hope you are ok with that?” Palm finished off with a question.
Gon quickly answered, “Of course I am okay with that! I just didn’t expect for there to be no one else here tonight since you said you live here with others, and you didn’t mention they would be gone at all until now. But it is really no big deal that it is just us for the night.”
“Good then. How about we go to the kitchen and heat up some very late dinner. There is some leftover pizza left. You can take your pick from Cheese, pepperoni, and sausage.” Palm suggested, and right afterwards she said so quietly to be honest inaudible, “and maybe while we are eating..we can talk–about some things.”
While confused why Palm was so hesitant to voice the last parts of what she said, Gon still replied back happily, with a louder-than-normal voice, “Sure! That sounds nice.”
They walked over to the kitchen, Palm turning on some more lights as they went, including the kitchen once they got to it. They found the pizza in the fridge, as well as a fair amount of sodas (judging from the state of the fridge, there really did look that there were a lot of people living there, so Palm was probably telling the truth when she said others lived here with her. To be fair though, how big the house was, might have been a tell too) and other drinks to choose from.
Gon ended up picking 1 sausage slice and 2 cheese slices and an Orange soda, while Palm picked 1 pepperoni slice and 1 cheese slice and a Coke. They heated up their pizza slices in the oven, and then went to the dining room to eat there. This time, Gon turned on the lights when they entered the dining room. They then sat down and proceeded to eat their pizza and drink their soda for awhile in silence, until Palm interrupted that silence, and asked with an ice breaker, “So how did your talk with Ging go?” She said somewhat hastily.
Ging stopped stuffing his face of cheese pizza for a sec to stop and think about her question.
“It was…nice, we talked about so many things and our experiences and the people we have met and come to know, and just so much stuff. It was great to be able to talk to him, on top of the world like that…, but now I don’t really know how to feel.” After a short pause, Gon started back up in a more hushed tone,
“After talking to him, I realized more and more that while I was excited to meet and talk to him, that he wasn’t and had never really been a father to me. Talking to him was more like talking to an old friend I had never met face to face until that meeting. And now I just feel kinda empty and hollow on the inside, like I am missing a piece of myself that I may never get back. Meeting Ging truly was great..but he even said “something more important than the thing you’re hunting would be right there by the side of the road”, and him saying that causes the emptiness in my heart to grow and fester even more. …I feel like I have made a huge mistake.” With that last word Gon was getting louder again, and was speaking more hurriedly, and like he was very upset. And he just kept getting louder and working himself up more and more.
“That in a way, meeting Ging has caused me to lose the very thing Ging was alluding to. The thing that actually was most important to me. And I feel like I know what that important thing is, but I don’t want it out loud or even think about it, because that would mean that I have actually well and truly lost it! And thinking about that just eats me up inside!!!” Gon finished up his rant exhausted and out of breath.
*Huff**Huff**Pant* “...I just don’t want to feel like this anymore, so empty, so hollow. Palm–just how should I get rid of this hole in my heart?”, Gon whispered.
Palm didn’t say anything for a good long time; taken aback by such an outburst by Gon; a kind of outburst she wasn’t used to from Gon at all. It reminded her of Killua’s own heartbroken outburst plea to her in the palace. And she also wasn’t to Killua breaking down like that. Gods, how can two kids be so different from each other, yet so similar. How can two kids love each other so much, but yet, be so dumb with their feelings for the other. How can they be so dense?
“As painful as it may be, you need to admit to yourself what you're missing in the first place to cause you so much pain and distress. You need to understand and voice it, and then, try to remedy it. So tell me, what is it that you are missing? Or maybe it is not a what, but a who. Tell me Gon, because I think we both know exactly what who is it that you are missing.” Palm spoke up and asked; her blue, deep eyes staring at Gon intensely, but kindly.
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“Killua. It is Killua that has caused me to feel this way.” Gon said quietly; voice trembling.
“No, it is you that has caused you to feel this way, not Killua. Ok, it is Killua too, it is both your guys fault for being so hopeless and obviously in love with each other, but somehow both thinking that you are undeserving of the other’s love. You two are usually pretty smart, but in regards to emotions, feelings, love; you guys are truly idiots. But you get my point. It is just as much, if not more you, doing this to yourself as it is the other person. And I think deep down both you AND Killua know this.” Palm rebuked Gon.
After this, Gon and Palm just stared at each other, both waiting for the other to say something. Though from the look in Palm’s eyes, she wanted Gon to say something and that she wasn’t going to say something until he did.
“Alright, so now that I know that Killua is the missing piece of my whole–of me, what do I do know? What exactly am I supposed to do?” Gon mumbled, though his voice wasn’t as shaky as before.
“That is not my decision to make, Gon, it is yours. But I would also say that like how deep down you already know it was Killua that was causing your heart anguish, that I also think you know what you should now.” Palm said with tough love; wanting Gon to come to make his own decisions now that he has finally started to admit his feelings to himself…for Killua.
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“I am going to go find him, I don’t want to leave him after all. I don’t want to join Ging or even Kite again. No. I just want to be with him, and only him.” Gon said in a louder, but still quiet voice. His tone however was now clear and resolute. All that shakiness and uncertainty from before, now gone.
This caused Palm to have her mouth agape, in small shock from this confession. That didn’t last long though, and it quickly turned into a smile. Her smile looked truly catlike.
“Good”, she proudly said, “Now go get him. His airship shouldn’t have taken off yet, especially if you hurry. I asked the boys to spy on Killua and Alluka–that is why they aren’t here, well, at least most of them; in hopes I can get you to change your mind about separating with him before he leaves.”
Now it was Gon’s turn to be surprised. He had known Palm wasn’t being entirely truthful about stuff, but if he were to be honest, he didn’t really expect that.
“How do you know that?” Gon asked.
Palm looking shifty, eyes darting back and forth, tried to dodge the question, “Oh that doesn’t matter, silly, what matters is you getting to Killua before he leaves for good. He was up in the air, just to see some sights, but he touched down again in preparation for a longer time, so this is your chance to get to him. Do you actually want to miss him or something, huh?”
Gon placing his hands on his hips, “It will be fine, I am fast, and I am too curious now to just leave without you telling me how you know that. And while I am at it, I also want to know the REAL reason why you were out night today too.” Gon said with determination.
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“Fine. Fine. I will tell you. Sheesh!” Palm huffed.
So I will be honest, I kind had been waiting for you come down from the tree to talk to you. In order to be sure I wouldn’t miss you, I got Knov and Knuckle to help me find out a way to get a live feed of you to watch you. The live feed wasn’t to just be sure I wouldn’t miss you though, but also to let your friends and the people that care about you, be able to watch your talk with Ging. Though, voices couldn’t be heard from the live feed, I thought people would be happy to just see a visual image of how you were doing.”, mumbling Palm added, “though, some people might have been able to tell what you guys were saying if they are good at reading lips.”
Palm, wanting to quickly move on from what they just said, so it wouldn’t linger in the air, continued, “I especially wanted to send it to Killua; I even personally emailed him the link. Most of the other links sent to people were just the same email forwarded a bunch of times. Killua’s, I wrote to him personally. …I wanted—”
Gon interrupted, “Wait, you have Killua’s email?”
“Don’t interrupt me! I wasn’t done!”
Gon looking mildly ashamed, “Sorry, Palm!”
Grumbling, “Whatever, it is fine. And to answer your question, yes, me and Killua exchanged emails, phone numbers, and contact info in general a bit ago; in order to keep in touch. Since we are,” Palm blushed, “friends now”. Palm finished with a gentle tone.
“OH! That is great, Palm, I knew you two would close, it was just a matter of time!”, Gon yelled excitedly.
Palm blushed further, “Now I know why Killua thinks you are so embarrassing, because you well and truly are, exactly that. I have no idea how Killua can handle this all the time. Well, to be fair, he isn’t really handling it very well in the first place. But still.”
Coughing, “Anyways, I am going to finish what I was saying, before I was EVER so rudely interrupted.”
Gon now looked more than mildly ashamed.
Palm winking, gave a teasing smirk seeing that.
“So anywaysssss, I wanted to make sure he was able to see you, I thought it might make him reconsider separating from you, because I know that absolute IDIOT loves your thick-headed ass with all of his heart, and that leaving you must be breaking his heart, even if he would never usually admit that. I only know, because he let out some of his feelings to me, which only happened due to the vulnerable state he was in. Killua usually has a harder time expressing feelings than that. That case was a more rare occurrence, Palm stopped for a second. Then continued, “But it looks like that didn’t work, that Killua was stubborn and block-headed himself about his feelings, and decided he HAD to separate from you and leave after all.”
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“So I had to use my backup plan. …And that was getting you to realize your own feelings and go after him instead. And my plan appears to have worked.” Pam said with a confident smile. Though, she was looking somewhat ashamed like Gon was before admitting to just how far she took things.
“So that is why I was out tonight. I knew you were going to be down soon from the tree, so I waited there, and then I happened to run into you coincidentally, and then I also happened to invite you to the house I was staying at, so we could have a talk.” Palm was flustered saying this, but her voice was steady.
“You said other people were living here with you, and you mentioned others helping you in this plan, so other people knew besides you?” Gon questioned with a confused face.
“Ah, yes, others knew about it, helped me with it if they were more ok with taking part in my plan, or just made sure they weren’t here if they weren’t, because I thought a one-on-one talk with you would work better. Though, even the people who didn't want to take part in the plan more actively, them being willing to be out of the house makes me think they support you guys finally getting together too! Just in a more passive wayyy… So I take that as an extra win.” Palm while her face was still flushing blue some by the end of her explanation sounded a lot more confident than before; she even sounded a bit proud.
Which caused Gon to be both amazed in a happy way that she would do all this for him and Killua, but also at the same time, he was also amazed in a mortified way. Gon felt torn between these two different, but similar feelings for awhile, before settling on the more happy feeling.
“I-I don’t know– what to say really, Palm, but–thank you, I guess”, Gon stuttered, “No. Not I guess, but just thank you. Really, really thank you. You helped stop a terrible mistake from happening–separating from Killua, and helped me more come to terms with my own feelings for him too. So really, thank you so much Palm, thank you.” Gon said the rest with resolution; burning fire in his eyes.
Palm’s mouth made an “O” shape, and then said, “Good. Now go get to Killua. Time is ticking, Gon.”
“K! Will do, Palm! See ya for now! Thanks for everything!” Gon shouted, while turning around to run out of the house, getting progressively louder each sentence.
Palm plugged her ears with how Gon was getting, though, she still heard him anyways.
“Yeah Gon, I will see you later. Now hurry up quicker, stop talking to me, and just run, RUN, RUN!”, Palm shouted back.
“Ok, bye Palm!” Gon yelled back one last time.
“What did I just say?!” Palm snapped back.
Gon didn’t answer back this time.
A pause, before Palm whispered, “Good, that’s my boy.”
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Killua and Alluka after eating a more proper dinner after just eating some snacks while watching Gon and Ging’s live feed for awhile, they set down their airship, took a nap and made a proper dinner in preparation for a long time of just Killua flying; flying to destinations unknown.
They checked their fuel, and made sure they had some spare fuel in the airship. As well as good working appliances, snacks, drinks, food, water, entertainment, etc.. They were preparing for a good, long trip. Where sure, they will stop to take in the sights and restock, but it never hurts to be prepared.
And with that done, they finally took off in their airship, to travel the world, both known and unknown; together.
They flew for awhile, when they suddenly heard a loud noise.
*BANG!*
Killua and Alluka startled. Wondering what on earth could have made that sound.
Killua put the airship on auto-pilot, and then went to see what it was; telling Alluka to stay where they were, and lock the door behind him, telling her to not answer the door until he knocked, identified himself, and they both said and did the code they made up earlier for just such occasions (after all, voices can be imitated, so they had to have other ways of making sure the other was actually the real person). Alluka pouted, thinking he was being paranoid, but didn’t argue, and agreed to do what he said.
Killua then left and waited until he heard Alluka lock the door, before he left.
He started combing the area, going through each room and location on the airship looking for the source of the noise when he finally found a closet with a ton of stuff fallen over and something?; someone??? on the floor. Killua was having trouble telling since it was dark, and due to the figure being covered in a blanket.
“Who the hell are you, and what are you doing on my ship?” Killua demanded coldly.
The form didn’t respond.
“I am going to give you to the count of three to answer, until I come over there and make you. 1, 2–”, before Killua could finish, he was suddenly tackled to the floor, with someone screeching, (Gon?!!???), “KILLLLUUUUAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!”
“Uggghhhh, what on earth, Gon, is that you!? What on bloody Earth are you doing here?!?” Killua yelped with surprise and bafflement.
Gon didn’t answer right away, and just kept on hugging Killua and sniffling. The hugging and extreme show of emotion from Gon, caused Killua no end of embarrassment. He was blushing majorly. Way more than Palm had ever blushed.
Gon kept doing that for awhile, and Killua, not knowing what to do, just let him, and laid on the floor awkwardly. Completely and utterly confused and embarrassed.
Until Gon finally spoke.
*Sniffle.’ “I just–didn’t want to separate from you after all. I didn’t want to leave, I didn’t want you to leave. I want to be together with you—forever.”
Killua was flabbergasted. To hear Gon say such a thing to him out of nowhere, that he wanted to stay with him; to stay together with him forever, even (something that Killua himself has thought for so long, but has never really been able to voice. And yet, here is Gon, saying the very thing he couldn’t ever say). Killua didn’t he had never been so happy, embarrassed, and confused in his life.
However.
“Do you–really mean that, Gon?” Killua asked softly. While Killua was happy, he couldn’t help but not believe the words he was saying. After all, how could anyone ever think that of someone like him. Especially someone like Gon (have you forgotten already that he isn’t perfect either, Kil?).
With this question, Gon just stared at Killua, furrowing his brow unhappily.
“Of course I do, Killua. Why wouldn’t you think that is true?”
“Because, you are you, and I am me, and—”
“What does that even mean?” Gon cut Killua off.
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“I mean how could you, someone who is so good and beautiful (you keep forgetting he isn’t actually perfect, just like you. Do you really hate yourself that much? How pitiful.), care so much for someone like me?” Killua’s voice broke.
At that moment, Gon fully understood what Palm meant about both him and Killua sucking at feelings. They both truly hated themselves so much, they thought the other person didn’t deserve them. Heh. Palm was right. They really were two, big idiots.
Gon bit his lip, thinking about what he should say, and then decided the blunt and bit harsh Palm of way doing things was the best way, “Killua, don’t be an idiot”,
“Hey!” Killua got angry at the insult.
Gon ignored the outburst and kept going, “of course I care about you. You are my best friend in the world. …No, you are more than that, you are someone I love with every fiber of my being, someone I want to spend the rest of my life with. ….Killua, I love you. I well and truly love you more than anything in this world. You are my light, you are my angel. If anyone doesn’t deserve the other, it is me, who doesn’t deserve you. Killua. Will you be my boyfriend, and allow me to travel this world with you and Alluka?”, Gon asked Killua tenderly, eyes staring intently at Killua’s, his hands holding Killua’s. Them both still on the floor, with Gon on top of Killua.
Killua blushed furiously at the confession, stammering incoherently (and happily, even if Killua’s feelings were a jumbled mess right now, and he couldn’t tell his emotions from each other), “Wha-... You lo– …Me?? Boyfriend??? Travel the world–together with me (and Alluka)???? And me your light and angel?!?? I-ahhh-WhAttttt?!?!?!??????”
And Killua just kept stuttering like a complete, blushing mess for awhile. And Gon remained in his same position, face expression unchanging as he waited for you to calm down, and to hear you answer.
*Huff**Huff**Huff*, “I, Gon…, yes. Yes, Gon, I accept everything you asked me. Including your love. I–love you too, and I think I have loved you for a very, very long time. So yes, Gon, I want to be your boyfriend and to travel, or just be with you in general. Forever. And Alluka would love that too (Alluka probably would be so happy for him, and also try to tease and embarrass him, and probably Gon too, about this endlessly though). I love you so much, Gon. I love you. And…you are my light and my sun, Gon.” Killua calmed down and answered Gon’s confession with utter joy on his face and in his voice.
Gon started smiling hugely. And started sniffling (in more certain joy this time), and then full blown crying tears at Killua’s answer. He then started to lean even closer like he was about to hug him even more. Or even kiss him, when Killua placed a finger on Gon’s lips,
“Also Gon, never say you don’t deserve me, alright, I don’t like that.”
“But–”
“Yes, I will try to do the same as well. We both deserve love; including each other. No matter how much we think otherwise, that is a true statement. And we are both to start thinking and acting like it is true. Got it, Freecss?” Killua cooed.
Gon, shaking his head up and down ferociously, replied, “Yes, Killua! Yes, yes, yes!!!”
“Good. Now get over here Freecss, and kiss me, I know you wanted to, and I can’t let you make all the advances tonight. So get over here and kiss me. Now.” Killua demanded in a haughty and proud voice; that might have upset some people, but not Gon, he loved it. He loved this kind of play; especially (and only) with Killua.
“Certainly.” Was all Gon said, with a playful smirk on his face.
He then leaned into Killua, lips touching, eyes closed, their hands caressing the other, and they kept kissing like that, for a good long time. Until Killua finally said,
“Ok, ok, I think we need to stop now. Alluka is probably worried about me, and she is most likely going to be very mad at me.” Killua started to push Gon off of him.
“Oh, but come on Killua, I wanted to kiss a bit longer. Come onnnn, just a bitttt. Pleaseee…”, Gon started to beg and give Killua the puppy-dog eyes.
And God, did Killua try to resist, tried to look everywhere but Gon’s eyes, but in the end, he gave in.
“Fine. But only just a bit more. Got it? I mean it.” Killua said with no room for argument in his tone.
“Of course, my prince”, Gon said while sitting up and licking his lips.
Killua rolled his eyes, “Just get over here”, he said, while pulling Gon close and pressing his lips against his once again.
And they just continued to kiss once again. For a lot longer than just “a bit”, because Killua and Gon just couldn’t help themselves. God, Alluka was going to be so mad and worried (though, like Palm she is matchmaker herself, and would also LOVE in so many ways, this new turn of events), Killua thought for a second, before succumbing to whatever thoughts and state of mind he usually was in while kissing Gon. Which, was, basically nothing at all.
If Killua had to describe what had taken over his mind and body at that moment; it would be pure….
….Euphoria.