idk if i ever announced it or whatever but i don’t rlly feel like writing smut anymore !
i’m def comfortable implying it and even sexting in my smau but writing smut scenes feels a little weird atm for me ,, it’s chill rlly ,, talking abt smut & rereading / going over my past work ,, i simply don’t have the willpower to move forward my writing journey with smut . i don’t have it in me to work thru it (cos i originally figured this was jus writers block but suprise: nope) so pls do not expect any written smut in my upcoming works 💛 pls don’t ask for it either ,, i will continue to ignore those kinds of asks 🫠
at the same time i wanna emphasize this isn’t a forever thing ,, i’m allowed to change my mind abt shit like this cos obviously this is my blog & my work ,, but i will acknowledge that yes, i gained readers/a bit of my followers from my smut so yes i understand and i’m sorry if this disappoints u LOL but also if u’re og u know that i didn’t begin writing fics with smut in it 😦 not to yap but jus with online stuff smut is how to get ppl to read ur stories or whatever but i think moving forward i want to be known for my silly and comforting works ,, the pressure of writing smut and even the process of figuring out the scenes / pacing of it is a little more personal now to me due to life circumstances 😿👎
anyways !!! this is also why i paused bad habit ^^ they were supposed to have some written sexual tension and i jus spent MONTHSSSS unable to write it (as u can all tell) but i will say that i tried
ugh . i will always try for u, my sexy tight pussy babies 👅
i love u all ,, i know u understand & love me regardless of my decisions . i have so much faith n love for u all and for this digital space . definitely took a while to get here & figure it out ,, when i realized it was the smut that held me back suddenly i deleted my retirement announcement AHAUWHAHAHA
in other news; my lover’s anatomy parts 1-3 will be posted tmrw .
the tension, them being mean to each other and jk being a simp UGH!😩😩😩😩 I want him so bad
the scene where he asks her to feed him and I’m like this man is NAWT shying away and so he is THAT kinda boyfriend like.
and him not going to that function because “his girl” is sick. like I was shy reading this as if he was speaking about me🤣🤣🤣 and the dolphins book he finds - oc was such a cutie for that🥰
and then the scene where they Yk do THAT when he is wearing his glasses I FOLDED. I FOLDED SO BAD CAUSE HE IS SO HOT AND THWIR BED CHEM WAS BED CHEM-ING.
and then the jealousy era like girl why would you push his button like that but also valid cause walk him like a dog sis 😁
And then their talk and finally a man who has communication skills 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 cause real men just cannot🤓 at least the ones I have dealt which. Just like oc only had situationships😁 waiting for my jk now.
and then they started dating and everything is amazing in the world again😪💕
in all - a mf masterpiece like I said ❤️
you have done it once again.
Just a future drabble if you decide to do it - the gangs reaction when they found they are together 🤨🤨 jus a small little idea hehe
Also big props to you for writing this in a fic cause I can imagine how stressful that might have been plus you being sick. hope you are feeling better ❤️
also my take on ranking the kimi verse jk’s - ITS VERY HARD
fuck - bed chem jk (Obviously) but also like c2u jk cause laundry scene was insane 😭
kiss - aao jk or baby daddy jk
marry - baby daddy jk no questions asked
WE DONT KILL c2u jk in DIS HOUSE CAUSE HE IS SUCH A CUTIE 😭😭💕
ok lemme yap with u 🤝
tension/dynamic
i've been absolutely CRAVING to write a tension filled fic where they both want each other but don't know how to have each other. oh my god,,, did this concept absolutely scratch my brain.
i personally had to think for a hot minute abt their banter cos,,, yes, banter is 60% of their chem,,, but the stillness??? between them??? the way they react to each comeback??? how they look at each other or stand or sit too close??? how thick the air feels and how easy it would be to just have them kiss??? oh !!!! i really had to sit in their moment and intensify their feelings
the tension between them was slow with a sense of pressure... ugh. i really wanted to emphasize that their situation was easy. no one was stopping them from being together... but instead,, it was the pure fun of it that complicated things for each other. their dynamic is established since part 1. it's too easy to show the sudden change and honestly? unrealistic.
real tension,, real friends to lovers,,, is slow. awkward. it's this weird sense of uncertainty but also knowing and believing in them.
further, subtle things were so purposeful in each chapter imo. when i write fics,, i take a moment to think abut what each character has to offer the other/their specific traits. (my uni/college au's for example) deeper than what major i give them,, i think about their attitude and how it ties to to their little things.
for bed chem,, jk as a chem major was like a lightbulb moment for me because 1) it fit the title 2) it made it easier for me to write him as a grumpy nerd 3) it practically paints the picture of what kind of guy he is by all by itself... like, all i really needed to do was be specific with word choice and body language. being a part of the marine conservation club was like a hehe haha thing but also showcased his softer side (caring for the world and wanting to make change,,, etc).
meanwhile, oc majors in psych and she's kind of reckless. she's constantly tripping over her own feet and is unhinged for most for their banter... but she's intentful. she's good at talking around her feelings and her actions,, but she's even better at sticking to what she wants.
part 5 behaviour
because at this point,, they're together but not together,, jungkook tests the boundaries. they have a lot of unspoken rules so he does all he can to break them. oc,, doesn't really do much to stop him and i found it really important to decrease/limit her doubts because 1) the tutor thing wasn't really meant to be this whole trust issue thing 2) they have a lot of security in each other 3) the scenes where he skips the gala,, shows up when she has food poisoning,, when she had a hard day and he comes over to check on her ... it all shows the kind of friend he is and oc feels safe and secure in the man he is and how good he is to her
smut
ok i was realy nervous about this because 1) i was sick as a fucking dog writing the scene 2) i didn't want to disappoint 3) it had to live up to thefic title.
sometimes, i think i have to write these really wild scenes with position switching and insane dirty talk,, but because oc is a virgin... i thought it would be more fun to show her increasing interest to be intimate with him. the dry humping scene was HILIARIOUS to me. i thought it was a funny way of her exploring how fast jungkook would fold and the glasses part... yeah. i really like the way it led to their moment lol.
the actual sex scene i think turned out really cute. they have this... intense yet intimate energy between them. jk taking the lead but oc also knowing what she wants? the way they fuck and kind of just get lost in holding each other... the kissing narration?? learning her?? yeah. that tickled my brain. love the way oc has this playfulness during the entire thing,, meanwhile jungkook was losing his mind seeing her tits.
jealousy/communication
what's a kimi fic without her collateral damage hottie of the month ? first it was eunwoo/dex for c2u, mingyu for aao, and now it's dohwan for bed chem LOL. i think adding this and specifically my choice in who is coming in to play brings this relevancy into my fics that readers are able to laugh and relate to. brings connection yk!!
dohwan was so harmless ahahhaa. ngl, i think oc hearing jk fuck someone was like a "uh... omg. yikes.. i think i'm kinda jealous rn lol" moment but jk seeing a hickey on oc + being in a complicated state with her was a very "i want to die and i want you in the front row so you can see how much u hurt me and then i want u to cry over me,, only for me to beg god in the afterlife for another chance to live so i can comfort you" moment for him.
their communication/banter was such a big part of this fic. i think the plainness of their words held so much significance that after each line,, it felt like their tension would shift. again, specific word choice was really important. their banter and ongoing walking around their feelings was essential in keeping them (and readers) on their toes. their original ending was supposed to be this vague realization that they wanted to be together and the irony was that i wasn't supposed to write their smut scene and leave it as this tension filled open-ended fic,, but i'm glad i did what i did and gave them a definite ending.
some key lines i put into oc's dialogue was
"think i can do it? get you to want me?" to "i don't know how to have you" and finally; "i want you" was veryyyyyyy... premeditated. it gave this storyline through 3 lines and i really liked thatttt
the pavlov thing was funny as fuck cos again,, she's a psych major LOL. and the woof woof thing LOLLOLOL. very kimi core crackhead vibes
kiss, marry, fuck,, and kill;
you're so real and so funny for that HAHAHAA. protecting c2u jk fr cos that kid went thru so much chasing after c2u oc LOL
extra/ending note;
i'll think abt the extra!! i don't really think they have much left in terms of plot cos everything is basically all done... the friendgroup def knew smt was up but never said anything cos they mind their own business. i think it's pretty obvious as they 1) always sent oc to jk's room 2) teased them a lot 3) scolded them a lot esp taehyung
anyways,, u are literally the sweetest !!! i love receiving asks like this. i was afraid that ch5 would be too long and because there were so many scenes,, i felt like the significance of each one would be mushed up into one entire review/outcome. thank u for going into detail !!! i know a few readers say they read every word i write ,, so it's very rewarding to hear your thoughts with each scene and letting me yap from a writers/creative perspective
currently still recovering from being sick ,, finishing up my winter sem at school + preparing holiday related events for my preschool LOL. bed chem was so fun to write and i'm so incredibly blown away from the amount of love and support it has received in the past since i posted it. like... 1.7k already?? almost 1k on avg with each part?? uhhh... what the heck !!!
all in all,, i'm glad it fed everyones delulu mind. glad to know we're all ovulating together <3
i can't wait to share more fics with you all in 2025 😽💓
hi! sorry for being mia, i had planned to update my fics & write but this week has been tough,, work wise, school stuff & socially 🙂
honestly feel so cooked n jus wanna write my fics in peace but unfortunately my only time to cry and freak out has been in the shower
hope to be active this weekend! pat urself on the back for being so patient lol ,, pls keep my asks nice so my online presence/anxiety can feel at ease 🥹
ma'am you have a CRACKING pair of boobies ryt there lyk fr my flat af ass could never 🫠
i'm so excited for bad habits and the idol!jk series!!!!🤸♀️🩷 and the fact that idol!jk is directly opp to ctrl!jk who seems lyk completely opp to him but is def js lyk him on the inside🤌🏻🤌🏻🧎🏽♀️🧎🏽♀️ i js hope these to go are in for a long ride
my twt acc is private and a bunch of my guy friends are on there and we are homies but not HOMIES like dat yk GAUWHHAHA but i wanted ti participate in the trend </3 this is my ver HAHAH
so excited for bad habit too… prepping part 1 atm ,, and halfway done writing pt 2… thinking of posting them both on the 14th just for funsies but idk … don’t quote me on dat !
also hate to break ur heart but idol jk is a one shot 😀 it’s listed under text msgs in the trivia: love m.list ,, not under series (ie: bbydaddy, ctrl jk, it!jk)