#kin experience

[wolffenawolf]

Spending time in a youth center I believe has been good for me it has given me belief in myself and has helped me with many things it feels like having my own little pack something I guess I really needed as a wolf Therian something other than an online group they might not be Therian or Otherkin like me or even share similar experiences and the way I act as a wolf probably seems immature and cringey to them but whenever I speak I feel like I'm being heard I'm finally getting my life together after many long years of spending time completely shut away in my room finally have dreams and ambitions things to work towards but I must say I never lost touch with the Wolf Therian part of me even when I didn't feel it whatsoever it was still there and it would always come back I still feel phantom shifts even when I don't try to I feel mental shifts randomly throughout the day I have impulses though I do not act on them that is how I know this is not a phase

If it was then how come I had a phantom shift feeling ears and a tail after several weeks and months not wearing my ears and tail not meditating or even trying to force a shift after quite a while of not even feeling like a animal at all I could feel my muzzle and even claws at the end of my fingers I had impulses to walk on all fours just 3 days ago I wasn't even looking into the community when it happened I had just finished making my bed and I was watching a 3 scary games video by Markiplier when my mind started to shift from watching the video to noticing my body feeling inhuman and then just a wave of animal instincts and impulses the best way I can describe it is a change of personality or wanting to eat that slab of beef even though you're on a vegan diet it's hard to explain past that point

Tldr: my life is in a better place now after joining youth center also Therianthropy is not a phase

(sorry if this is a little messy couldn't really think straight today)

[crt-fruit-fly-blog]

Finally, after months of meditation, soul searching, and everything else imaginable, I felt my wings. To begin a sort of explanation, I started this "journey" to feel my wings a few months back because I'd seen myself vividly during one meditation session. I saw what I looked like as a fruit fly, and I saw my little wings folded on my back. Since then, I've wanted to feel my wings so badly. I've felt a third set of limbs for almost as long as I've identified as a fruit fly. I feel the two limbs between my arms and legs, roughly around my ribs. To the point though, feeling my wings was a very reassuring and also a very comfortable experience. I have never felt so close to my kintype before, and it was a very uplifting moment. I can only hope this feeling isn't going to leave me again, it is truly amazing.

[crt-fruit-fly-blog]

Last night I had a very strange dream. Now that it's later in the day, I'm realizing it was most likely a dream shift. Dream shifts aren't uncommon for me, but this one felt different? To make things clearer, I was definitely a fruit fly in my dream. I was seeing things as a fly would, through many lens, so my vision was very obscured and blurry. I was simply flying outdoors, everything looking either green or yellowish. I was following a path, and as I neared the end, a large mass slowly appeared in my line of sight. It was dark brown, almost black, and I assume was covered in think fur. It had four tufts from the top of it's head that I think were ears, but they may not have been. It had a long face, with many teeth sticking out all over. Lastly, it had six eyes that were like slits along its head. Anyways, just wanted to add to my experience list. Whatever creature I saw was definitely friendly, or at least curious, and I'm going to attempt drawing it.

[crt-fruit-fly-blog]

Insect Shifts

I've experienced my fair share of shifts throughout the years. I still remember my first shift and how different I felt during the time it happened. I experience sensory shifts more often than anything, as they seem to be easily triggered by my surroundings. The shifts are fairly basic, I have a very enhanced sense of smell, and smell more than just fruit. I can usually pick out individual scents, and are better at pinpointing where the smells come from. I have experience with phantom/astral shifts (I'm not sure what I should call them, apologies). I only have these shifts once or twice a month on average, but they are definitely notable. I generally feel very small and almost out of body. During this shifts I can feel my six legs, but have yet to feel my wings, but I know they are there, which brings me to my next point. I have experienced dream shifts, and though they are usually uneventful, I can feel myself flying. I have not yet been able to figure out exactly what I looked like, as I see the dreams through a first person view. Anyways, just adding this to my experiences. I'm hoping to keep a sort of journal here, just to keep up with my experiences and so I have reference for myself.

[arcane-winter]

i had the realest kin experience a few days ago omg so i was at a party with a group of friends smoking some pot b/c it was 420, and i was feeling good. at some point i had sneezed because i got too much smoke in my nose, but when i did sneeze, i felt my elf ears very vividly. it was amazing tbh