the W's
Why
can’t you just leave me alone
it’s been so long
with barely ten words passing between us
and yet
whenever I see your face
hear your voice
think about you
my heart gets all fluttery
I feel my stomach release the butterflies
and all I want to do is hide my blushing face
so that
you’ll never know
never even suspect
how I have felt all this time
Who
do you think you are
making me fall for you
with your stupid face
and perfectly awful smile
the way you act like you think that you’re
just so amazing
because I can tell you right now
that you are.
How
I’ve always been on the outside
watching and observing
how everyone
acts
looks
when they think no one can see
and yet
not even all these years of watching
waiting for you to mess up
do something wrong
so I have an excuse
to hate you
has made any difference
jerk.
When
will I be able to
move on
leave this all behind me
forget that you ever existed
to torment me
with my lack of anything
resembling beauty
grace
or style
I have so little
and yet somehow
I always hoped
that it wouldn’t matter in the end
but it will always be there
until I learn
to let go
of the dreams I have built around you
Where
did this even start
where was I
when you came and stole
the first love
I ever had to give
you never give me anything
in return
aside from passing glances
and just existing
we’ve never
had a conversation
lasting more than three minutes
introduced ourselves
to each other
you’ve always just
been there
like the sun
or the wind in the trees
and for some
inexplicable reason
I love you just as much
What
have I ever done
to deserve this
stagnation
injustice
when
all I've ever wanted
was
to have somebody
anybody
love me
for being me
for the way I laugh
the way I talk
using my hands
like paintbrushes in the air
the way my face squishes up
when I smile
why
can’t anyone
do that
where
do I find
the person
who will