Hello. This is a. Kin mail I think. If you dont mind I would like my kintype to remain anonymous. Kinonymous if you will. Hey that's good I should trademark that.
So.
To my son,
You were one of the best things that ever happened to me. If you felt the same way, I can't say for certain. But please never think you weren't special to me. That you aren't still special to me, because if you weren't, I wouldn't still be thinking about you for the many years that I've regained memory of you.
I guess I never made it unclear, with how fiercely I protected you. It was a dangerous world we lived in, but you came back home safe day after day. Even so I forever rued the day you might not return. That doesn't mean I should've pushed my insecurities (nor my obsession with punctuality... /a bit silly) on you. So for that, I'm sorry.
Even more, I'm sorry for lying to you. For hiding everything from you. It would've hurt you for you to know, but you deserved to. You deserved to know the truth. About me, about you, about everything that happened.
I'm sorry for letting everything that happened happen to you. There was more I could've done, I'll never be satisfied with how I raised you.
But you, you're a different story. I loved you for you and I still do. Even despite my mistakes, my failures, you stayed. You tried. You worked hard. And amongst all that, you also smiled. That's a sight I can say with my whole heart that I miss. I'd give anything just to see that silly vibrant grin of yours again.
If you ever see this, thank you for being here. Please keep prevailing, even if the universe seems like it's against you forever. This world is dark, it needs a hero like you.
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