#kisha talks

[kishavo]

i miss you guys, and i miss drawing

my living situation has changed drastically and i’ve lost access to my PC until i move somewhere with more space (currently sleeping on a cot in my friend’s laundry room) but i miss art so bad that i might figure out how to make my tablet work with my laptop…the resolution gets all messed up with SAI but i’m gonna try

i’m working in the funeral industry finally, i’m an actual mortuary assistant and i get to walk through a gorgeous cemetery and mausoleum every work day. but the money is shit. i need to pick up another job, i need more money, i only have another month before i have to move again

i’m still sober. 11 months and change. the last several weeks have been some of the hardest of my life. my therapist says i’m on the verge of a major depressive episode and i can’t let myself sink again, i have to do something

so i think i’ll draw

i’ll be 32 next month, and i actually feel my age, which is crazy. 5 years of addiction really aged me mentally and spiritually

i don’t know if my friends here will see this but i hope you all are well

[korravai]

holy shit 

(guess who just marathoned the entire second season of Voltron ahaha fuckin kill m e)

[kishavo]

i just turned 11,323 days old, everybody clap

[kishavo]

it’s my first mother’s day sober since i got into active addiction and i’m struggling. been no contact for 4 years

been snorting caffeine (pure powder supplement) to satisfy the cravings but i think i just need to hug someone. wish i hadn’t spent the day alone and wish my support system would answer my texts

i’m housesitting/dogsitting rn and there’s liquor and beer here. i hid it on my first day so i wouldn’t have to see it out in the open but i know where it is. and i’m getting itchy

i feel bad for disappearing for so long then showing up out of nowhere just for this

[kishavo]

would you guys pay for DBH porn from me be honest 🥺

[kishavo]

sooo totally hypothetical but...is there an audience for NSFW DBH fanart on tumblr? Connor-centric? asking bc I've noticed that quite a few people in the fandom are ace and lots of you headcanon Connor as ace but like, I read all the tags and comments on my art. i know some of y'all are horny.

I just wanna know if there's any point in posting that stuff on here or if I should make a patreon or something. tell me on anon if you want but I'd really appreciate some feedback!!

[kishavo]

Any update from you? You haven't posted for a while

hi <3 (i know i already talked to you on discord but i figured i’d let everyone here know i’m alive as well)

i had to take a break from tumblr bc i was often high on here and scrolling my own blog was a trigger. i’m sorry i disappeared with no explanation though, especially with my last post being what it was

general update for everyone: 87 days clean from coke/ket, 29 days since i smoked weed, 23 days since i last drank.

uhhh i’ve been clinging on to the finch app for dear life (anyone wanna add me???)

i moved with my ex

i’ve been attending an LGBTQ group for addicts and it’s AMAZING. i’ve never been in an irl queer-only therapeutic space like this before and they’re so supportive; for weeks i’d been coming in with only 8 hours of sobriety but when i finally showed up with 8 days clean they clapped and cheered SO loud for me i almost cried

real life is still kicking my ass though. if anyone needs me i’ll be binging Supernatural like i’m this dog staring at the ocean

[kishavo]

about to walk into my first DDIOP meeting. i’m only 4 hours sober and i’ve been dodging a panic attack all night but i’m here