hm. i'm super shy and quiet, esp when i don't know people.
31: what my last text message says
oh, what a question to ask today of all days. it asks father to let me know what the specialist says re my last 'diary' entry (follow tag to see if curious, mind the cw)
41: where i want to be right now
i am exactly where i want to be rn: in bed cuddling with the floki pup.
i'm kit (they/them), turning 40 this year (2026), agender transmasc, ace demi-aro, queer as in fuck you. audhd and moderate to very sever me/cfs haver (homebound the vast majority of the time and use an electric rollator/wheelchair combo when out).
if you have to perceive me as anything, let it be as an amorphous cryptid adjacent creature of the night.*
living in southeast scotland (via england, france, wales, belgium), speaking english & french, slowly & intermittently learning japanese (spanish and ukrainian are also on my list, but one thing at a time).
the floki pup (~10yo rescue staffie) has been my faithful companion for 8 years. expect pics (when they don't get flagged as mature, thanks dumblr).
i like all type of crafts, history (i study it, or try anyway), reading, writing, art (trying to get back into both and expand my horizons in the latter), sewing (mostly historical non electric techniques), antiques and vintage, all things analogue, linux (still a noob), ... (the list goes on and on, really)
mostly sfw space and none of the nsfw are the sexy kind (that's what sideblogs are for). dark themes and imagery will be present though, so ymmv, especially since i don't always have the spoons to tag things.
i wanna make friends! so please send asks or a dm if we're moots, as my brain won't let me bother you first. signal or email are also good options, just ask me.
*doesn't make sense? i plan to make a post about it at some point. *shrugs*
• assumptions about me and I’ll confirm or deny them:
You're bubbly and outgoing when you're out with people, but it also drains your energy level a lot..
anon! thank you for giving me something to divert my bored brain, it was going in a dangerous direction! 💀💜
as for your assumption:
well, that was disturbingly spot on. though i don't think i've ever been described as 'bubbly'. but hey, there's a first thing for everything.
only caveat is that it's when i'm out with friends and the ratio of friends vs strangers is higher. as soon as more than a couple unknowns are thrown in the mix, i go quiet observer instead, until i can assess they'll take my special brand of dark and gutter bound humour the 'right' way. (though if they're friends of friends, the chances are high that they will, since my band of misfits and i have the same kind of humour, generally).
and yes, no matter how much i adore them, any type of outing where it's the whole group (or even part of it), is extremely draining. i'm an introvert, so anything more than a group of 3 (me included) and my energy levels go sub-zero very quickly, and if you add my chronic fatigue to the mix, it's worse. 💀 doesn't stop me though, especially since one of our own doesn't live in the same city anymore, so we don't see her often.
thank you, dear anon, for giving me a bit of relief from my boredom! much thanks! 💜
🐸 Describe your aesthetic.
hm. pastel goth? kinda. more goth than pastel generally. and really only purples. just kinda dark-ish, witchy, with splashes of purple when the mood hits? oh, and with some kawaii thrown in for good measure. because why not. does that actually help? feels kinda nebulous. but then again, that's kinda par for the course.
🦋 Describe yourself in three words.
smol witchy goblin.
🎤 Is there a song you know all the lyrics to?
hm. that's a hard one, because i tend to need the music for the lyrics to come to mind (i have a shite memory), and does that really count then? on the top of my head, i'd say Magic Dance by David Bowie from the Labyrinth soundtrack.
Hope you don't mind a visit from the happiness train. No pressure. ♥️ tell us five things that make you happy! and then send this to ten people who liked or reblogged something from you :-)
Theo! Hello! Thank you for the ask 💜
Five things that make me happy:
Floki! I adore my little gremlin 🐕
The roof over my head. It might be 2.5y since I moved in and stopped being homeless, but it still feels kinda novel and makes me very happy 🏡
My friends, online and not 💜
Finally having longer days and sunlight 🌞
Vintage things! All the vintage things. Art, clothes, furniture, stationary, all of it. Think of the history, their stories! 🤓
I don't really interact with your page that much, I have left anons before though but it's... Mostly because I'm not sure about where we stand... If that makes sense. But I appreciate your personality and your page 💜✨ it teaches me a lot of things and reminds me people are still trying to make a space for the good even though we don't always know who will be helped by the page. I hope you attract people that are on the same side as you with life and you can reach people who need the messages.
I hope you are happy and that your body and mind give you space to feel good, plus I love the animal videos they always make me smile ^.^ ✨✨✨
dear anon, thank you very much for your very sweet message. i really appreciate it. i know you said i didn't need to answer, but i felt the need of it, as it's been on my mind a lot.
regarding your interaction with my posts, or lack thereof, there really isn't any obligations to do so. indeed, the vast majority of the people who follow me don't. i'd even go so far as to say, that's the general experience for most tumblr users. and that's regardless of moots status.
as for where we stand, whether we're moots or not, i most probably just wanna make friends. i wanna be friends with everyone i follow, or even if i don't follow you really. i've found tumblr to be one of the best online spaces to make actual friends that last outside of it.
that being said, i think you might be taking all this tumblr interaction business too seriously. and i don't really mean you, as in you personally, but you as in at lot of 'newer' tumblr users (generally those that haven't been on this hellsite for approaching 20 years (dear lords under, i'm old)). it's something i've been noticing and you just happen to mention it in my inbox, so here we are (i'm putting it under a read more, so feel free to ignore if i'm being guilty of exactly this right now lol).
like i mentioned above, there's no interaction obligation regardless of any possible moots status and any interaction that does happen doesn't have any meaning except for liking the posts. personally, if i like a post, it's, well, because i liked it or i want to show support if it's a sad post. and i reblog something because i like and want it on my page, or because i know someone who follows me will enjoy it, or because it has info i want to share. that's it. and any replies/asks don't have more meaning than the words that are written. no hidden subtext anywhere. of course, everyone uses tumblr slightly differently, but i've found that this is generally the case for most people. and when people interact with my posts/me, i don't interpret it as anything else than they liked the post in question, regardless of moots/friend status.
it's the same thing that follow/moots/friends status aren't equal: you can be friends without following, or be friends without being moots, and like still be friends even after one or the other unfollows and you're not moots any more. you can be friends with someone without liking what they post about here, and filtering tags only goes so far, so sometimes unfollowing is the better thing to do to curate your internet experience. which is why i'll never be offended if i discover someone blocked me. and it's also why even though i'm bad at consistently tagging things i reblog, i consistently tag my own posts: makes it easy for anyone who don't follow but want to keep up-to-date with my posts.
it's why i like tumblr so much: it's no pressure. i've been using it for so long because of that. i can just share pretty pictures and funny posts and shout into the void.
