Jun 21
yall I legit have a thumb injury because I scroll too much- I'm not fucking kidding.
Fuck my life
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yall I legit have a thumb injury because I scroll too much- I'm not fucking kidding.
Fuck my life
Me: I'm gonna lock in!!!! There’s nowhere to go but PAINSTAKINGLY forward!!!!!!
Also me: ..... I'm not worth all this, I should just give up-
Me: GIVING UP IS FOR THE WEAK AND STRIAGHTS AND NEAUROTYPICALS
ME: GET BACK TO THE GRIND, YOU FUCKING FAILURE BIRD, ROCK BOTTOM AINT THE KINDA BOTTOM WE LIKE TO SEE
WORK HARD, PASS ALGEBRA, GET BITCHES, OR FUCKING DIE TRYING
AND I MEAN TRYING.
Me for the past 2 hours (basically I'm planning on dumping my entire life on my parents and praying they are kind and supportive because I need their support and communication more than ever now)
how often does a person need to eat?????
well chat, do I communicate my emotions and needs to those I love and feel safe around or should I endure?
Endure is looking pretty nice.
guys I'm already having a shit day, can't we cool it with the impending doom of my comfort hellsite?
oh wait. I think I'm anxiety scrolling. Funnnnnnn.
At least I realized it so I could stop! ... (doesn't stop because it's fineeeeee)
Wtf bro, why am I anxious rn. Ik I got "The Anxiety" but like dude- why does my skin feel like it's on fire because I'm near another human being who I think is cool and could judge me.
I feel sick. Anxiefuisozjsks.
Came out to my family as a transmasc
What I went into it expecting: My middle brother would hate me and scoff and dismiss me and be the most transphobic one of the family, my little brother wouldn't get it and my dad would escalate things and cause a "I miss my little girl" scene
What actually happened:
Middle brother, the one I thought would be a hateful little dipshit, started defending me and correcting our younger brother when he stumbled with learning my new name, AND immediately started using my name without issue (he was actually the first to ask my pronouns and if he should call me his brother)
My dad got teary eyed but he didn't make it about him and told me he was proud (which made both of us teary-eyed).
They all have been calling me he/they and my name the entire evening, even at dinner, and when they sang happy birthday to me it was the first year they used "Deryn" in the song. We've been laughing and making jokes and I didn't believe I could ever be this happy with them.
Yall. I don't deserve this. I didn't think it would go this well and it feels like a fucking dream. Wow. If I possessed the ability to cry, belive me I would.