#kitty rant

[silverlight013]

Hey everyone, you may be wondering why i’ve gone quiet again; well the short answer is that i’m not doing so great. My depression and anxiety are at an all time high i literally spend like an hour trying on clothes in the morning because i want to be comfy and nothing feels right and then that makes me in a horrible mood because i eventually compromise and bring a second outfit with me. On top of that my family isn’t always the nicest so with the holidays i had a lot of confrontation so thats makes me quiet, then christmas came and went and everyone had big plans for new years right? Nope not me. Monday the 31st i had to rush my cat to the vet to get stomach xrays cause he wont stop throwing up and like $400 later im send home with laxitive and sensitive tummy food with a diagnosis of a possible object in his stomache, nothing concrete just that it might be a hairball. So for the last two days ive been with him feeding him every 2-3 hours. Todays my first day back at work and for the next 9 hours im stuck at work with my bf that ive grown to hate because he doesnt listen to a single thing i say and hes self centered (this is a guy who got me ziltch for christmas) and im worried about Crow...he finally did poop yesterday after more than 24 hours but he needs to keep going. I need a break and i need help and i need out. So commissions, donations, literally anything at this point to get me the hell out of here because im going insane...

This is Crow

[kitty-thekitten]

OKAY NO

THERES THIS AD FOR CHOCOLATE MILK THAT STARTS WITH A GLASS FULL OF ICE CUBES AND THEN THEY POUR CHOCOLATE MILK INTO THE GLASS AND I ALWAYS GET SO MAD AT THE COMBINATION OF ICE AND MILK (chocolate or not) THAT I HAVE TO STOP WATCHING WHATEVER YOUTUBE VIDEO IM WATCHING FOR LIKE 5 MINUTES

THIS IS NOT FAIR I JUST WANTED TO LEARN HOW TO DO PERFECT EYEBROWS

[phoenixvigilant-blog]

*Sighs* Effing Hate Drama...

So, my little sister Nina (no real blood relation) is currently working 2 jobs. She works at our local Firehouse Subs as well as recently returning to IHOP. Everything was fine when I dropped her off at 5, they weren't super busy, but incoming diners were steady. Some friends were working tonight too. Stayed to eat some dinner and socialize, then came back home. When I returned at 9:30 to pick her up, she looked ready to kill. I had to wait until we were in the car on the way home 15 to 20 minutes later to find out the long string of events that rendered her the angry, crying young woman I was driving home. Apparently in an effort to split up the work more evenly, her manager started fidgeting with the number of tables per waitresses section. With the exception of Nina, everyone got 5 tables. When she spoke to her manager about it, one of the other waitresses; an elderly woman who is a customer favorite, began to behave like a teenager, waving her hands and half shouting "whatever, whatever". The cooks were being incredibly uncooperative with her, and when the youngest of the servers working tonight was bored and began rolling up silverware for the tables; the elderly waitress, who is known to do exactly the same thing, got annoyed with Nina for letting the girl do so instead of doing so herself. Stressed out and tired from consistently working double shifts, either working at the sub shop then IHOP or working double shifts at IHOP alone, tonight's fairly ridiculous shenanigans from the rest of the staff was enough to infuriate her. Just blah. Neither of us tolerate drama and tonight just seemed to be full of it. Just ranting...

[stealth-kitty]

This week has been BLUH!

Ok so started off with having to cancel con plans, my laptop caught a bad virus which resulted in me having to take it in to get fixed for about $130! Then mom and I got into a fight, and now that I have my laptop back to factory settings I thought about just doing some drawings on my tablet...turns out I lost my installation disk for my tabled so my pen strokes are horrible! T-T I really hope next week is better...I need a hug.

[aomorikat]

I found out today from someone else that despite his perfect GPA and top 5% MCAT scores, after his med school interviews he was rejected. From all 20 schools. They weren't even like big schools just average SUNY and other New England schools

I mean we were nothing and also at the same time have been over and done with and up in the air (but over and done with in my book) and he was all mysterious about why he wasn't telling me about med school. Before he went off for the interviews I was like "well since he's on his way out, I can get him out of this mindset of staying in buffalo and hanging around like I am because he can do so much better" so I told him "I'm applying for RIT and York for 2015" (slight change of plans, I'm still going for that but I'm doing another degree first, but I digress..) and he comes home asking me about it and talking about working and staying in Buffalo and then saying "well I haven't made my choice.." 

There is no way this dude could have failed those interviews. Anyone who has met him and interviewed him or just talked with him would know that there is no fucking way he could mess those up unintentionally. And then lie about it. "I'm still deciding. I'll stick around here. Lets be baristas together!" Getting his roommate to report on me. Stick around here, until what, I leave and you know for sure and you've what like.. reapplied and done it right this time and lie again "oh i made up my mind, glad the offer still stands, hey its where you're going" 

There's no possible way he fucked up all 20. I'm just going to punch him. A lot. Half of the time when he gets drunk he just rambles about his passion for exercise science and helping people and his doctor dreams and how he's going to decorate his practice with fish tanks. It's what he lives for. 

You know, I'm just gonna text him like right now and be like "sooo, you haven't announced where you're going yet! have you decided? oooh is it a surprise?" 

We were so close. Thick as thieves. Always each others date to shit. 

And its like dude you should know me well enough by now to know that if you did fail, I wouldn't judge you or think any less of you, and I'd always be encouraging for whatever comes next. But not when you just lie to me. I would say lets pick things up, lets look at what happened, lets try again, you can do this, it's just a bump in the road and we are all on our own roads and sometimes it helps to have a friend with a tow truck nearby when our cars get stuck on our road's bumps. But now I just gotta be mad like why couldn't you just fucking be honest and tell me. 

[resonating-kitty]

I fucking hate this.

[gethighandpetcats]

Put flyers up for my lost cat. I am feeling a bit better. Instead of feeling like he isn't coming back, I feel like he will come back after he explores and learns how to be an outside kitty. This kitten is my life. I've taken care of him since he was four weeks old. He was the runt, so naturally he was so small and skinny. I spoiled him silly. I just miss having my kitten wake me up in the morning and hearing his little meow right before he pounces on me. I like to think he's off making kitty friends and loving the fresh air.

[kindredkitten]

I hate people

Dont tell me you fucking love me then go and say the same shit to my fucking friend.... So fucking done... Fuck it all....