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30 Random Things I'm grateful for 1. Parents like mine whom I know I can always come home to no matter how bad things are. No matter how old I have become. 2. My family that taught me the true meaning of the word family. 3. Friends. My crazy friends. I don't have a lot. But the ones I have are more than enough. 4. Heartbreaks 5. The luxury to travel 6. Experiences, regardless of how bad and good they are. 7. An apartment that is not too fancy but good enough to be called home. 8. AE - who reminded me that I am still capable of so many things. That I am not as cynic as I and other people thought I have become. 9. Education. I was obsessed with studying. And I'm glad I did. 10. An awesome childhood full of wonderful memories. 11. A job and the knack of getting the job I really want. 12. Communication skills that gets me number 11. All the time. 13. Confidence that I thought I didnt/dont have. But I have a little of it. And it comes out whenever I need it. 14. Being passionate. Not everyone is. But I am. And that I know is true. 15. Muller. We didn't end up because of obvious reasons. But losing him forever changed me. Some for the wrong reasons but mostly in a good way. 16. The love for reading 17. The love I have for music 18. The gift of being able to write down the things I feel. The things I cannot say out loud. 19. The gift of knowing how to express my feelings towards someone. 20. Being able to buy the things I want and more. 21. Great bosses. I've always been grateful for the bosses I had and the one I have now. 22. My knack for easily adapting to my surroundings no matter where I am. 23. For always seeing the brighter side of things no matter what. 24. For the fact that I know, that at the end of the day there is no one to blame but myself for the things I did and did not do. 25. The sunset 26. The beach 27. I am grateful that I was brave enough to get out of my comfort zone at 19 and move out of my parent's house. 28. Being brave (in general) even though I am afraid of so many things. 29. That friends and family, my parents specifically are healthy. 30. Today. Today is such a good day. #Day205 #durtythurty #thirtyforthirty #klaubettes30for30 (at Crystal Beach Resort San Narciso Zambales)

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30 Best Memories

Not in order (and most likely not ALL but I only need 30. On top of my head)

Whenever my lolo Mar would come for a visit he has a box of Munchkins from Dunkin Donuts. Which at that time didn’t seem to matter, but when he passed I couldn’t seem to remember him without entering our house without his trusty backpack and a box of munchkins at hand.

The very first time I visited Sydney in 2011

The first time I saw my parents again after a couple of years - Its true when they say you only get to appreciate them truly after you’ve moved out of the house and realise that suddenly, no one is checking up on you every 5 hours or that when you get home from work you have to cook your own meal regardless of how tired you are or you will die of hunger.

I got stuck in the girl’s bathroom in kindergarten with my cousin Kayna. I cried like a baby 2 minutes after realising that the door is locked and we couldn’t get out.

That time we threw stones at this boy when we were about 7 years old. Again with my cousin Kayna. Why you asked? Because he was smelling us and it pissed us off.

Every single youth camp I’ve attended during summer

Summer nights in Olongapo where I grew up. My friends would come over our house at around 7pm. We’d talk about everything, play the guitar and just sit outside our house till the wee hours of the morning. Nevermind that the mosquitos would hang out with us and bite us as if they’re in a buffet. We’d do that every single day.

Summer means no money. And whenever we would hang out our house we’d buy pandesal and pancit canton from they money we collect from each other. Normally 20’s and 10’s. lol

The very first time a guy surprised with me with flowers and chocolates. The dead ex and I had a huge fight and we broke up over the phone. He was in the States and I was in Manila. He sent me a dozen of red roses and a massive box of ferreros.

When again, he surprised me with my favourite flowers and sent it to my office on my birthday.

The very first time I got paid from my first job. 

When a friend drove me down south just so I can hang out at this place where the guy I was so into hangs out a lot. He wasn’t even there. LOL

When the same friend (April, yes a woman) and I checked in to a motel just so we’d know what it feels like and what the fuss is all about. LOL

When I graduated College. I was 17.

When this guy (see number 12) and I saw each other for the very first time after a long time. He was driving and our song played on the radio and we looked at each other. It was perfect. Almost. Except that my current boyfriend (see number 9) was sitting right beside him and in front of me. LOL

The first time I met dead ex’s parents. I had to buy a “decent” top because his mom is very old fashioned.

That crazy crazy time friends and I were wasted drunk and driving along Commonwealth avenue during a crazy storm. The things I did…maaaan.

My first kiss…naturally. It wasn’t anything I expected it would be. It was in the school’s stock room while I was in detention arranging books. 

My brother’s engagement. 

When I was about 9 or 10. My parents would leave the house for work at 6am. I’d take care of my siblings who was 7 and 3 I think at that time. And I’d be their mum until real mum gets back at dinner. 

The first time I learned how to cook. My dad taught my how to cook sautéed mung beans. Only to find out years after that it was his favourite. 

When my sister was born

Moving into my first REAL grown up apartment.

My 28th Birthday. Spent at the beach with closest friends and they surprised me with turon ice cream cake. 

“I opened my eyes and saw him looking at me”

I was maybe 6 or 7. I don’t remember. All I remember was I accidentally broke a whole case of beer from my grandma’s store and oh boyyyy was she pissed. And my grandpa saved me. 

That time I was playing with bubble gum and accidentally sticked it on my brother’s head. My mum had to cut his hair to take em off.

My first ever corporate job

Seeing my best friend for the first time in a year. She moved to the states and came home for a visit without me knowing. We were yelling at our door for 5 minutes (and I’m not even kidding) because that was probably the very first time someone ever surprised me.

Today. The 3rd of November 2014. Realising that in two days I am turning 30 and its slowly creeping up on me. Here I am looking for the rewind button. 

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30 Favorite Songs

That’s what friends are for - Let’s not even get into details why. Let’s just say that, this is probably the only nice memory I have of my mum’s ex husband aka my mum’s sperm donor (of me and my brother) - Whitney Houston

Nothing Like it in the World - This isn’t because I just watched Mr. Big live last night. This is because one day one of my best friends in the world named Juan asked me what I think love is. I just looked at him. And he made me listen to this song. It says’ nothing like it in the world. And it totally made sense. It made perfect sense. Something that even Merriam webster couldn’t explain. - Mr Big

Stronger - “Now that won’t kill me can only make me stronger…” those lines, it lifts my spirits up every single time. This song has been my cure all bullshit song for as long as I can remember. Kanye sure knows how to make someone feel awesome - Kanye

Five Candles - Reminds me of my best friend Jhoana. I created a birthday blog for her eons of years ago and this song was included in that blog. - Jars of Clay

Wonderwall - I heard and paid attention to this song long after it was released. It was in a cd that Jhoana gave me after she left for the states. Years after, now…it reminds me of her and Juan. - Oasis

I could sing of your love forever - Never fails to remind me how awesome Summer Youth Camps at church was when I was in high school. Always. - Hillsong

All About Loving you - “I’ve lived, I’ve loved, I’ve lost…” This was Muller and I’s song. - Jon Bon Jovi

Breakaway - I moved out of my parent’s house at 19 because of so many reasons. And this song helped me get by. - Kelly Clarkson

Sanitarium - Metallica were the MTV Icon in 2003. Limp Bizkit sang their version of this song. I fell in love with it. And yes, the rest as they say is history.

Cherry Bomb - Because Joan Jett and Cherie Currie. - The Runaways

Fighting is over - My love for the band who sang this is just one of those things that I cannot explain. I honestly can’t think of a specific song because every single song in the Under Southern Lights album is basically my favourite. Then again, this one gets me every single time. I mean “Though alone in this sea of faces it’s still your face I wanna know…” how can that not get to you? - Urbandub

Sight of the Sun - I just told a friend right now how feel good this movie is. This is after we talked about how wonderful Jack Antonoff and Lena Dunham’s love story is. It constantly reminds me that no matter how fucked up you are, someone (maybe) will still come and save you from all your worries. Someone who would make you want to wake up every single day.

Your Body is a Wonderland - Hands down to John Mayer. While I love  him and most of his songs. This is by far is the best. - John Mayer

Ironic - “Don’t be surprised, if I love you for all that you are” - Alanis Morisette

All I have to give - Dude, I have to. I just have to. For the sake of the boy band fan girl that I was. - Backstreet Boys

One hundred Ways - James Ingram

Crazy Love - Michael Buble

A thousand Years - “How can I love when I’m afraid?” Again, this is brought to you by the crazy song choices of Juan - Christina Perrie 

Stay - No 90’s kid does not have this in their list of favourite songs. I nailed this song. - Lisa Loeb

Diggin on you - TLC

Invinsible - Crossfade

Scars - Papa Roach

The Reason - That guy I was so in love with for more than 4 years. He sang this song to me once. I was never the same. LOL - Hoobastank

Fix You - This song was and will always be a reminder that you don’t have to be fixing people all the time. Sometimes and if the right person comes along, he will fix you instead - Coldplay

Hold On - Will always be my feel good music. - Wilson Philipps 

Nice to meet you anyway - Is a constant reminder how scared and complicated I am when it comes to falling in love - Gavin Degraw

Not a bad thing - Never. - Justin Timberlake

Name - This was just recently added to the list. - Goo goo Dolls

Angel - I use to say that I want this song to play on my funeral. I kinda still do. - Sarah Mclachlan

All this time - If you have been my friend for long. You’d know that there are only two songs I sing at Karaoke’s this song and another one from the local band MYMP. - Tiffany 

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I stabbed someone with a pen today, then smashed the keyboard on his head. Yep. I did all that...in my head. I fucking hate lazy workmates. #Day199 #durtythurty #thirtyforthirty #klaubettes30for30 #vscocam (at Net Lima Building, Bonifacio Global City)

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Please come back next year when I'm ready to get up from this bed. Me this morning. Happy to say I managed to get up, get ready for work and actually work for 9 hours today. Ah. Adulthood. #Day197 #durtythurty #klaubettes30for30 #thirtyforthirty #Mondays #vsco #vscocam (at La Mancha Residences Coronado Street Guadalupe-Viejo Makati City)

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It's all about seeing what your heart wants to. Believing that things will get better even in the midst of chaos. #Day196 #durtythurty #klaubettes30for30 #thirtyforthirty #vsco #vscocam (at Net Lima Building, Bonifacio Global City)