Jan 12, 2024
I haven't made any notes to self lately because my new dog won't let me use my desk so I've been sitting with her on the couch all week
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I haven't made any notes to self lately because my new dog won't let me use my desk so I've been sitting with her on the couch all week
‘I am a thirty year old adult’ I say as I spend an hour and a half picking out stickers to put on my new laptop.
I'm done crying. Hubby and I had a long talk and a cuddle. He;s on the phone with his mother. we're going to run to the store and try and find a festive plant or small decoration for a Christmas tree and to pull together a Christmas dinner. We don't have any presents, but those are just things. We'll video call his family. It won't be a typical Christmas with the big family he's used to, but we're happy to spend it together
We found a little tree at the grocery store, and all the stuff we need to make Christmas dinner. Hubby is kinda looking forward to a quiet Christmas after all. I hope everyone who celebrates has a wonderful holiday season!
September has a lot of memories attached to it. 5 years ago I was diagnosed with large brain tumors and ended up having my first of several brain surgeries very shortly after. For the next couple years, I spent every birthday in the hospital. I had to quit my job. I was hit with 100k+ of medical debt. I lost my balance, my ability to drive, my hearing, my independence. I had multiple eye problems and the entire left side of my body was left weak; I can’t move that half of my face at all. I really did think it was the end of the world.
But it was also what made me realize I want to live. I didn’t want to become bitter and filled with hate. And so I fought. I dove into physical therapy. When I couldn’t find a support group in my area, I made one online. I went to therapy for my depression. I got engaged to the most wonderful man, and managed to walk down the aisle. (My husband learned “I won’t give up on us” in sign language to surprise me with at the reception) I started this blog. I met so many wonderful, compassionate people. I found people I’m happy to call family.
It’s been 5 years. I’m never going to be cured. But I learned it isn’t the end of the world. Life may have turned out way differently than I planned. I may have lost a lot. But I also gained a lot. I can still be kind. I can pass that compassion on. I can help others. The world can change in an instant, but there are lights in the darkness. I just want you to know, whatever you’re going through, that you’re not alone. Don’t give up. Reach out to others. It might not seem like it right now, but things can get so much better.
Let’s talk about negativity in positive spaces
Hi y’all, I’d like to remind you that positivity is a mindset, recovery and healing is is a choice that I make ever day. and I say that with my last suicide attempt and hospitalization in 2005, still dealing with depression and anxiety, an incurable neurological chronic illness, and years of therapy under my belt. I understand that sometimes it’s hard to apply kind words and a positive message to yourself, but that is no reason to be nasty. Please remember There’s a real person on the other end of the screen and you know nothing about their struggles. this blog was first and foremost for dealing with my own mental health issues.
Today’s my birthday!
I hope you guys don’t mind that I’ve started posting cute animals on here. They make me happy!