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Happy 4/20 x
Hope you had an amazing brunch, as requested, here are some Matty pics!! (Except I’m a slut)
Okay I hope you enjoyed I am going to hide now because I just HAD these in my camera roll….
- bels xx
actual picture of me because i'm also a slut 🙌🙌🙌
bels you have no fucking idea how obsessed i am with that third photo it's actually so dangerous sending it to me. remember when he got it done onstage like a whore? oh my god. oh my god. i need to be spayed.
also brunch was lovely thank you 🩷
Hi lovely!!
For the perverted ask ham p 2:
2 (sry I’ve been asking everyone this I legally must hear everyone’s thoughts), 15, 25
- bels xx
hello, Bels!!! perverted ask ham, my fave ham to play✨
i've already answered 15 and 25 so i'll answer 2 for you here!!!
2. Milk - Breeding kink or cum play. Just discuss.
would it be cheating if i said both? sjdhdjdjsksk
i LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE breeding kink <3 it's one of my personal vices and i'm sure you can see that reflected in all the georli breeding/pregnancy kink asks that i've answered in the past ehehehe. i am not a 'breed but no pregnant' kind of person; for me, the inevitable pregnancy is a major part of what makes it so hot✨ thinking about Charli and George trying for a baby, tracking her cycle, fucking day and night while she's ovulating, trying all kinds of different positions. mating press is their fave <3 Charli folded in half while George rails her and tells her over and over that he's gonna fuck a baby into her. she's a slut for the moment he pauses and moans and his whole body shudders as he pulses inside of her. she can feel the warm release splash against her cervix and it makes her crazy. she begs him to keep fucking her even though he's spent: "more! more, George. please- moremoremore~!" he does, just for her <3 even though he's overstimulated. he fucks her hard and fast for another minute, his own cum and Charli's wetness loudly slicking his movements, and that's all it takes for Charli to fall apart and convulse around his cock. he rolls off from on top of her cos that was so hot and felt so good he feels like he's about to black out. as Charli stretches her legs, she feels the creamy mess of their cum start leaking from her pussy. she doesn't care if it gets the sheets dirty, they can change them later. she rolls over and clings to George, pushing her face into his hot, sweaty skin. she thinks about what's going on inside of her and whimpers softly as she feels her arousal building again. she's only just cum, but her body is already aching for round two and three. George pets her hair absently as he stares at the ceiling with a big, dopey smile on his face. he knows she wants more, knows she can't get enough and neither can he. he has a feeling that it won't take very long for him to get hard so he can fill her up again and again <3
okay, so um.. i wasn't expecting to write all that but smth came over me😶🌫️
as for cum play, i think it's so hot✨ i'm in such a Georli mood today so i'm thinking of Charli sucking George off and him pulling out of her mouth to cum on her face and her tongue (which she sticks out to catch a few drops cos she's a slut and she loves the taste of him) <3 i'm thinking of Charli with her squishy tits all oiled up and shiny, squeezing them around George's cock while he fucks her cleavage and cums all over her chest <3 thinking about her smearing it around with her hands and rubbing it in and licking it off her fingers, making a big show for him <3 (she's covered in coconut oil btw- so it's all taste safe ehehehe✨)
okay that's all teehee <3
Hi darling!!
In honour of your most recent Matty x No Rome post, I have a very serious important question:
Who was top?
(Also enjoy this pic of our boys xx)
That’s all! 😁
- bels / knockat102 xx
ASHJKAHDSHJ BELS I LOVE YOU 😭
ok to answer the question now: after very deliberate consideration: it's matty. wait actually it's probably interchangeable. but usually matty.
since matty towers over rome (and we all know how rarely he towers over anyone) i'd like to think he would take full advantage of that and display himself as the more dominant one. I also watched this performance of narcissist the other day where, right before the song starts, matty says, "rome? come here!" in a snappy voice and i had to pause and think about it for a while. Like excuse me how very demanding matthew. and trust me it wasn't the first time he's said that
and can i just point out how often matty grabs rome and shit? he's very handsy. like LOOK:
(grossest quality ever but that's certainly some interesting hand placement matty...)
and he always has his arms around his neck/shoulder area too. like. come on.
(they look like a married couple in the last one stop)
I think that they would switch on rare occasions because i always need to shoehorn subby matty into everything and the idea of matty being topped by a guy who's shorter than him is amusing to me. But for the most part: Matty is top, Rome is bottom 😁
Anobrain
Pounding lights and glittering music paint your ears and fill your eyes to the very brim. And then, there's Matty. Forever slipping from your palms like glitter and promises.
DLID!Matty
WC: ~3.9k
CW: Sub-DLID!Matty x Dom-Fem!Reader, situationship-messiness, smut, (semi) protected sex, creampie (ew horrid word), cumplay if you squint, kissing, handjob, semi-public sex, praise kink, slight orgasm denial (M receiving) masturbation for like a millisecond (F), cursing, drinking, smoking, weed usage, slightly angsty (who's surprised, it's knockat102 for god's sake), allusions to violence
A/N: Oh my god this took me a whole lifetime to finish! I honestly had quite a hard time with this one, and if I'm being truthful, I don't love it, but I hope that you guys enjoy nonetheless! (Sorry if this is a bit shit xx)
MDNI!
Enjoy!! xx
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“Matty! Get the fuck up you absolute wanker! I want to leave!” You smirk through your words despite the false anger painting them, punctuating your sentence by tossing a pillow over at a peacefully sleeping Matty, splayed across your couch.
“Oi!” He groans, rubbing his eyes.
“It’s a bloody Friday, and we’re going out.” There’s no hint of a question in your voice, and Matty knows it. When you’re in the mood to party, there is no force, no matter how strong, that can stop you. Thankfully, Matty is exactly the same way. Maybe some would call it reckless; you just call it living.
Matty rolls over, pushing his face further into the cushion. He had dozed off about an hour ago, practically seconds after he had arrived at your house. You had spent the time rustling through clothing and makeup, before settling on a lacy dress with some fishnets underneath. Your hair was teased and half up; your eyes painted in black and silver glitter, with your lips a deep maroon. You watched as Matty slowly rolled over, opening his eyes to see you towering over him. A smirk paints his face as he takes your frame in, eyes greedily mapping up from your thighs to your tits.
“Oi, eyes up here, Healy,” you snap, a laugh slipping out at the end. You liked this. Being here, in your house, with him. When the sun had long set and the only lights in the room were flushed pinks and neon purples. When the glitter on your eyelids caught his gaze in the glimmering rays of fluorescence.
Matty grins. You grin right back.
“So, where the fuck did you say we’re going to?” Matty’s voice is painted with the last reminisce of sleep, his appearance showing it much more heavily. He had been absolutely knackered when he arrived, likely tired from a long day of doing god knows what with god knows who. But, when he was here? None of that mattered. He could rest with you; rest in the uncertainty and the sureness and the sane-madness of it all. Of you two.
“The woods.”
“The woods?”
“Yeah, that’s what I said.”
Matty raises an eyebrow, squinting slightly.
“What do you mean ‘the woods’?”
“So, the woods are this place where there are loads of trees and they– oi!” Matty tosses the same pillow you had previously thrown at him back in your direction, hitting you across the chest.
“I know what the bloody woods are, Jesus," he laughs, “I meant what the fuck are we doing in the woods?”
You laugh, fixing up your now tousled hair.
“Some girl Ross has been messing around with and her mates are throwing a thing there, he texted me and said we should come.”
Matty scoffs, leaning back with a groan.
“How the fuck does Ross get more girls than I do?” He protests, “I mean, he’s fucking massive– he’s pratically a beast!”
You glare at Matty through mascara covered lashes, “Matty, you literally shagged me yesterday.”
Matty freezes, a blush finding his cheeks.
“T-that’s different.”
“Oh?”
Your voice is dripping in faux-intrigue, as if you are desperate to hear Matty’s pathetic interpretation of whatever this was.
“I-” he starts, “this feels like a trap.”
You smirk, taking a step closer.
“W-what do you want me to say?” He murmurs hesitantly.
You stop mere centimeters from him, slotting yourself between his stretched legs.
“I think I like you best when you’re not saying anything at all, Healy.”
Matty bites on his lip, consequently dragging a smile from you. You run a sure hand over his clothed thigh, stopping when your eyes gaze down to find him already half hard and straining against the black denim.
You liked having him like this. It was much easier to pretend he was yours when you had him squirming under your fingertips than when his side of your bed was empty and his lips were kissing another girls’.
“Pathetic– pull yourself together, mate.”
You turn, leaving his breathing heavy and uneven.
‘Mate’.
Matty rakes a hand through his unruly curls as he catches his breath.
“I hate you,” he manages to gasp out.
“Yet, you’re in my house?” You smirk, touching up your lipstick.
You turn back, taking a firm hold of his wrist in your palm, relishing in the way he looks utterly and entirely affected by your barely-there touches.
“C’mon,” you start, “I don’t want all the beer to be gone by the time we get there!”
You hear something like a groan covered by an incredibly un-slick cough escape Matty’s mouth, drawing your gaze to his direction.
“What was that, Healy?”
You make a point of letting your eyes fall heavy onto his trousers, somehow looking even tighter now over the obvious bulge that had formed.
You smirk as his eyes follow yours, snapping back quickly to your face. He knows far better than to test you when you get like this– all irritated and domineering. He also knows that things are much more likely to go his way if he just sits back and lets you handle him.
“Nothing.”
“That’s what I thought.” you give his wrist a squeeze, accompanied by a sickly sweet smile.
You feel his pulse jump under your fingers.
God, how you loved the feeling of his skin against yours; heartbeat dancing.
God, how he loved your shimmering eyelids; pupils sharp as blades.
God, how you love whatever this is.
─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───
Pink and blue lights prance across your field of vision as you stumble into the woods, Matty’s hand still tightly in yours.
The walk was quick– not nearly long enough to constitute a drive. Plus, the extra few minutes gave you the opportunity to smoke the spliff you had rolled earlier that afternoon without prying, greedy hands of partygoers trying to get a hit or two.
The sky had long gone dark, the silhouette of tall, winding branches all that was left above you.
Hazy warmth blushes through your blood and tingles at your fingertips, brushing mindless circles into Matty’s skin.
Ribbons dangled from low-hanging branches; you watch as Matty twirls one around his digits with his free hand.
“Reckon we’re getting close, now?” Matty asks, temporarily pulling you out of your cloudyminded state.
“Yeah, I hear music I think,” you respond airily, mind in the clouds.
You catch a smirk spread across Matty’s face as you speak.
It was no secret how funny he found it that even after all of these years of doing god knows what together, you were still a proper lightweight. Or, at least, compared to him, that was.
He openly reveled in your foggy state of mind, rarely holding back from teasing you.
More often than not, he was still met with quite the retaliatory effort from you– even when high out of your mind. He found it cute. You knew he did.
Another few steps ahead, you feel as though you have been smacked with sound; heavy bass and streaming light wash over the both of you as the crowds distort into a murky swamp of colour and sweat.
Matty spots Ross before you do, signaling you with a squeeze of your palm.
“Oi! Ross!” He shouts out, his hand dropping yours suddenly in favour of creating a make-shift megaphone with his palms. “Oi! Over here!”
After a few more shouts from the both of us, Ross turns to face us, a lazy smile plastered onto his face.
You turn to Matty, voice low, “god, he’s already bloody hammered, isn’t he?”
Matty grins, “let’s hope so– I was bored anyways.”
“Y/N!!” Ross nearly shouts, slurring the last syllable, “You came! And, you brought Healy!”
You keep your cool tone, any remnants of your previous height sinking lower and lower as you realize you and Matty are the significantly more sober parties in the conversation.
“Yes, Ross,” you start, “you invited us.”
“Right– of course.”
Matty squints slightly, eyes locked onto Ross’s mouth.
“Is that…lipstick?”
You let out a gaspy laugh as you focus your eyes, several smeared streaks of purple and red painted across Ross’s face and neck. Maybe he really was getting some action.
“Oh, you can fuck right off,” he sneers, wiping his face with an obvious lack of dexterity, “it’s a party for god’s sake!”
Matty laughs, slinging an arm around your shoulder. “Oh, we know.” He smirks suggestively, pulling you closer, arm finding your waist and squeezing slightly, pulling a sharp laugh from your parted lips.
Ross was no stranger to your somewhat-odd public displays of affection; nonetheless, he never failed to look endlessly disgusted by it. God, he really didn’t know the half of it.
He didn’t know the way you had Matty squirming for you at the simple brush of your hands.
The way the hair stood up on his arms when you whispered how ‘good’ he was after what seemed like lifetimes of bringing him right to the edge, but never quite letting him fall off.
The way he liked his hair pulled and back mauled by your sharp nails when he was feeling needy.
He certainly didn’t know how much you enjoyed it; how much you thought about it.
How much you wondered if it was all just a game to him.
“Save some of the chicks for the rest of us, mate– seriously it’s unfair,” Matty groans. His hands are still on you. You cringe ever so slightly; he doesn’t notice.
“Piss off,” Ross huffs, “I’m getting another drink.” He disappears into the crowd; the wall of rubbing fabric and sparkling makeup generates enough heat to draw a bead of sweat down Matty’s forehead despite your intentional distance from the epicenter.
“So,” Matty turns to you, eyes glittering, “I guess Ross is a bit too preoccupied to hang ‘round with us, then?”
You smile, rolling your shoulders softly as you try to shake off all of the damn thinking you’ve been doing. This was a party, afterall.
“Fuckin’ loud here,” Matty complains, running a hand through his hair absentmindedly, “Fancy sitting down somewhere?”
It was funny– for two people who seemingly went out constantly, you and Matty seemed to always end up tucked away somewhere; a corner, a bathroom, or as you were now, backs pressed against an oak tree, hidden away from the flashing lights and streamers hung over branches.
Matty had lit another spliff, all while complaining that you had ‘hogged the first oneI’. Classic.
He takes a slow, lazy drag, letting the smoke curl into the cool evening air.
The skin of your back is prickled by the bark of the tree, your hair slightly caught in the moss. You glance over– Matty looks…God.
Matty looks beautiful: lips plush and wrapped around the filter, eyes a bit red at the corners. His hair is a mess, and his cheeks glitter softly, likely with some highlighter he snagged from your makeup bag.
You smile– if not for your growing desire swirling low in your stomach, (only perpetuated by the earlier high and the shots you had downed before secluding yourself deeper into the forest), then for your sheer gratitude for getting to see him like this.
Matty looked like a puppy– no, maybe that wasn’t right.
Maybe he looked more like a deer.
He was strong and slender– pale and ashy.
He carried everything that was dark and gave out to the world only that which was light.
You snatch the spliff from his fingers, taking a long drag of your own before passing it back to him, blowing smoke across his face as you did.
“You look pretty, Healy.”
Matty’s eyes catch yours, but he doesn’t dare respond.
He knows this is a losing game; you’re both high, but more than that, you’re both here. You’re here as one. He’s been with you enough times to know that if he wants to feel good when you’re like this, he needs to sit back and let you.
“Look at you.” you coo, eyes scanning over his body like he was prey. If he was a deer, then you were a hunter. “Having fun?”
Matty nods, and you swear you can see desire swirling across his blacked-out pupils.
“Thought so,” you move closer, thighs pressing against his, “you always look so pretty when you’re having fun, baby.”
Matty has to actively fight the moan-like-sound that stirs in his throat at the petname– knowing that if he made any wrong moves, you would leave him needy and reeling.
You run a sure finger up Matty’s chest, stopping when your digit reaches his chin. You lean forward, pressing your painted lips against his, only pulling back to see the stain that the red had left behind. Your deer, marked with blood, the wounds of your arrows.
“Tell me what you want.”
Matty makes a grumbled noise, a greedy hand snaking around your back in a sad attempt to plant you atop his lap.
“Words, pretty boy,” you stay cemented beside him, not moving in the slightest until you get what you want, “need to hear you, you know that.”
Matty bites down on his lip, discarding the burnt-down joint beside him before placing his attention onto you. For a moment, you wonder if he is genuinely lost for words– he just sits there looking at you blankly; a deer in fucking headlights.
“Need some help?” You smile sweetly as you run your hand back down his chest, stopping just before the waistline of his jeans, and making a point of noticing the bulge forming beneath them.
“When did this happen?” You smirk, tapping once on his clothed hardness.
Matty near moans as you do, body shivering at even the slightest contact.
“‘Dunno…” Matty manages to gasp out, voice weak and unsure. He was too damn cute like this– all malleable and airy-headed in your hands. You could practically feel his brains melting right out of his ears as you began to palm him through the denim, coaxing a groan from his pink lips.
“Want me to touch you like this, gorgeous?”
You watch with hunger in your eyes as Matty nods aggressively, eyes screwed shut tightly in pleasure.
Suddenly, your hands are off him– a weak sob falling from Matty’s mouth in response.
“Need to hear you say it, ‘kay?” The corners of your mouth perk up as you watch Matty process the request in real time. It never failed to amaze you just how gone he became every time you took control. A deer running for his life in the forest.
“N-need you to touch me,” he pleads, eyes beginning to tear up as he thrusts helpless against nothing. He is straining intensely against the fabric of his jeans, and you can tell it is nearly cutting off circulation. “I-i’m so hard it hurts…just need to– ah!”
You cut him off before he can plead any more, unzipping his fly and relieving the slightest bit of pressure. You tap his hip twice and he raises it, allowing you to slip the tight-black garment down his slender thighs.
You run a hand over his hard cock, noticing a dark spot where the precum had already stained the dark fabric. You stroke him through the fibers, watching with a grin as he melts into the wood behind him.
“Wanna see you, pretty boy,” you lean close, pressing your lips into the soft skin below his ear, “is that okay?”
“Mhm…please…need you,” Matty’s voice is lighter than before. All of his characteristic cocky-confidence is entirely lost under the heat of your hands.
You slide your fingers under the fabric of his underwear, letting his throbbing dick slap back against his stomach. You shift onto his lap, straddling him with a practiced ease.
Matty opens his deep, brown eyes for the first time in minutes, and you swear he nearly faints when he sees the sight. It didn’t seem to matter how many times you two slept together, touched each other, or did anything for that matter– Matty looked like a kid on Christmas every time he got to see you.
A creeping thought weaves its way into your head– did he look like this with the other girls too?
A soft gasp falling from Matty’s mouth pulls you back into reality as he ruts his hips against yours. You smirk, letting him chase his pleasure momentarily before stilling his movements with your steady hands.
“Did I say you could move?”
Matty stills, fear and something that looked rather like arousal painting his expression. He shakes his head no. You smile.
“That’s what I thought,” you press a kiss onto his forehead, skin warm against your lips, “now be a good boy and stay still for me, alright? Gonna use you since you’ve been so damn needy.”
Matty mewls as you begin to stroke him, not before spitting with an obscene groan onto your hand.
Dirty, slick noises fill the night air, the only other noise audible being the faint sound of trashy house music from the party that the pair of you had long abandoned.
The sight below you is near pornographic: Matty, bottomless, cock leaking into your hand, and you: fully clothed and atop of his bony hips.
Your lips meet his as you lean down, a sure hand still working him closer and closer to the edge.
You feel his muscles go taut against you, and you press a flat hand against his lower stomach to only further the feeling.
“Feel you getting close, honey,” you whisper against his lips, “gonna come for me, sweet boy?”
Matty moan against you, rutting his hips into your fist like a vice.
“S-so…please…need to cum…”
You smirk as you slow your pace, not quite letting him reach the high he had been so desperately running towards.
“No!” Matty chokes out a pathetic sob, eyes flying open and full of terror as your hand continues to slow. “W-why’d you stop? ‘Was so close…” He throbs in your hand; the head of his dick angry and red. You lean back, taking him all in. He’s flushed and covered in a thin sheen of sweat– his eyes are dark with lust and his brain seems to be devoid of any substantive thoughts.
He may not be yours, but right now, he belongs to no one else.
He’s your favourite game, and he’s just too easy to hit.
“Relax, pretty,” you coo, biting softly against his neck, leaving behind a red mark in the place of your teeth, “‘s not fair if only you get to feel good, is it?” You watch as he nods, nearly looking embarrassed that he had come so close to a release without accounting for you. “Don’t I deserve to feel good too? After all that I’ve done for you, baby?”
Matty looks at you as if you were a god. Little did he know you were the hunter that held the arrow he was forever hung from– wrists punctured and heart bleeding. All that he knew was that you were here. That you were the living embodiment of all that he desired and all that terrified him– he knew that you made him feel so good it was saintly.
You make quick work of getting your bottoms off, leaving behind nothing but your lace panties, already soaked through. Maybe, with another man, you would have been embarrassed by how wet you were– not with Matty. Matty looked as if he would gladly drink every last bit of you up like water if it meant getting to touch you, or rather, be touched by you.
You pump his own slick precum down his dick, sneaking your free hand into your panties and rapidly circling your neglected bundle of nerves. You stifle back a moan, and you’re sure Matty does the same; his hips meeting your hand with every flick of your wrist.
“Wanna feel you…please…need to be, uh, in you…” Matty’s voice is low– unsure. As if he was scared to speak his mind, worried you would leave him teetering on the edge once again.
You smile in response, “there’s my boy,” you give his dick a squeeze, “using his words so good f’ me, yeah?”
Matty nods, melting into the pleasure happily.
Your lips find his once more as your free hand slides the lace barrier away from your entrance, letting his head circle the pooling wetness. He slides in with a whine, and you clench around him immediately.
The stretch was delicious– familiar, but never diminished.
You two were no strangers to sex. You were no stranger to taking control. Yet, this moment, the one where he enters you, where he splits you open and leaves you gasping for air as you are pulled under– it is the one moment where you feel like the deer. His arrow pierces you just as yours pierces him. How utterly tragic. How perfectly orgasmic.
Once you are sure he is ready, you begin to move your hips against his. You can tell he won’t last long, his face distorting in pleasure with every thrust. It’s perfect. He is yours.
“Fuck– please…so close…” Matty whimpers, skin glowing red even in the pale moonlight.
“Yeah? Gonna be a good boy and cum for me?”
You move faster, feeling your insides re-arrange for him as he hits spots even deeper within you. The sounds of skin against skin echo through the halls of trees, your gasps punctuating every last movement. You feel yourself clench once, twice more and you know you won’t last long either.
Your hands find Matty’s waist, squeezing and pulling on the skin. He looks utterly pitiful below you, spewing endless moans and crys.
“Gonna—fuck! Gonna cum…please…”
He’s nearly begging now, holding on for dear life as you increase your pace.
“So good for me,” you manage to gasp out whilst holding onto the edge of your own orgasm, “asking so damn nice– shit, c’mon, gorgeous,” you press an open mouthed kiss into his neck and feel his dick twitch, “cum for me.”
Matty grabs desperately onto the last of his cohesiveness, his eyes locking on yours.
“W-where?”
“Inside. Pill. Matty, now.”
The words serve as more than approval for him– they allow yourself to let go as well. You cum in tandem, waves of ecstasy washing over you, pulling your intertwined bodies deeper and deeper down into the sea of pleasure.
Matty spews hot, white ropes deep into you. You watch in pure wonder as Matty reels below you, body twisting and arching and melting into the soil beneath the two of your frames.
He is wrecked. You’ve caught him.
You lean closer into him, letting your bodies collide into one another. The hunter and their prey.
“Feeling good, Healy?”
Matty bears a blissed-out smile, utterly destroyed and perfectly happy to be so.
“Thank you. Thank you– god, ‘felt amazing.”
You smile right back, kissing his cheek as you catch your breath.
The two of you lay there for a moment. He pulls out eventually, watching as his pearls cascade out of you messily.
The music from the party is long-forgotten in the distance. The surroundings matter less and less with every passing moment.
You lace a hand through Matty’s messy curls– damp with sweat and smelling of desire.
You hold him tight; your prized game, won so valiantly.
You liked having him like this.
It was easy to pretend.
You hear a yell in the distance– partygoers far too drunk and horny.
You look back at Matty.
Your prized game, is he yours at all?
Inside Your Mind - Act I
Obsession will always beat passion. Luckily for Matty, he is quite fond of both, which is what leads him to you. Oh, how devoted he has become to his new project.
Act I of Stalker!AU
Based on this lovely anon request xx
Act I Act II
WC: ~3.8k
CW: Stalker!Matty x FemStageActress!Reader, unreliable narrator, stalking, nonconsensual-non-graphic photography, smut, masturbation (m), allusions to sex, allusions to oral (f receiving), allusions to fingering, biting, marking, semi-graphic depictions of m*rd3r, cursing, smoking, several semi-intense mentions of blood, angsty bc let's be real- I can only write if there's angst, Matty is a fucking weirdo in this one!! Like, get help level weirdo!
A/N: Hi loves!! Wow, this one was definitely interesting to write! I have to say, getting to make Matty an obsessed mental man child was honestly so much fun, and I cannot wait to see where this story goes. I really hope this goes without saying, but I am NOT condoning stalking in any way, shape, or form!! This behaviour is absolutely not tolerated on this blog! If you, or someone you know is dealing with stalking, either digital or irl, please contact the proper authorities. It can be super fun to write about, but this is not romantic in reality!! Also this is filthy don't look at me!!!
MDNI!
Enjoy!! xx
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Hair.
Hair soft as a baby’s blanket; cascading in waves of chocolate gold. Curled at the ends, and all let down. Matty imagines tugging at it: how it would feel between his calloused fingers as he pulled and guided. What it would look like tied back or braided or slipping down the drain.
Skin.
Oh, how pristine. Unmarked and tender is the silk that wraps the flesh beneath. How sweet it would taste under Matty’s rough tongue– how the crimson would escape from its confines under the pressure of his canine teeth.
Eyes.
Every last drop of the oceans could be explored and examined, and yet, nothing, no pure blue water could come close to the depth of your iris. What they would look like staring into his own; how beautiful, how moving.
Legs.
Long and strong and nothing but shadows under the draped fabric of your black dress. Matty imagines how you would wrap them around him as he drove into you– clinging to every inch; to every movement.
There’s applause. People are applauding.
The curtain comes down.
Matty stands on autopilot, your image still burned into his retinas like the sun.
This was the eleventh evening he had spent tucked away in a dusty theater in the West End.
The eleventh time Matty had seen you twist your tongue into old English rhymes and gaze into the crowd. Into him.
The eleventh night that he had gone home alone.
The eleventh time he had laid in bed, chest heaving, hand wrapped around the thick base of his cock, stroking and squeezing and picturing nothing at all but you. How your breasts would look– peaked and hardened by the cold air of his flat. How you would sound moaning and gasping his name. How he would grab at your hair, bite at your skin, gaze in your eyes, claw at your legs. How he would have his way with you. How he would have you.
It was perverted, sure.
He knew it.
He knew it, yes.
He didn’t care.
Not one bit.
Maybe he would have if things had been different.
Maybe he would have if you hadn’t been performing his favourite play.
Maybe he would have if he hadn’t been too tipsy on wine and loneliness that first night.
Maybe he would have if you hadn’t looked at him when you spoke– oh, he was sure that you had.
Maybe…
‘Maybe’s’ are useless. Afterall, he didn’t care about the sickness of it all. Not. One. Bit.
It had become religious: his church was the theater, your altar the stage. You were his Mother Mary: pure as a virgin yet beholding a work so incredible that it is deemed a miracle. Your voice rang in his ears like hymns; your lines, his scripture.
Oh, how Matty worshiped.
He imagined what it would be like to see all of you. To have all of you. He would praise, and bite, and kiss, and suck, and taste, and devour until you were a squirming mess beneath him. His devotion was in his admiration. He moaned your name like a prayer; he touched himself like his climax was the eighth sacrament. He played out scene after scene in the cinema of his mind. It followed him
You followed him.
He didn’t plan to keep coming back.
He didn’t plan to keep cumming.
Perhaps he should have been scared; your sorcery was clear– compelling him through some sort of hypnosis to return night after night, and come home sweat-slicked and sensitive.
You had to know.
He was sure you knew.
Had you thought of him too?
The eleventh night was like the rest for the most part.
Matty stood to clap as the curtain dropped and watched as the crowds of people filed out like mice in a maze through the rows of velvet seats. The lights were dim and the air was heavy. It had become familiar. The familiarity did not diminish the electricity in his veins. Not one bit.
He took the same route out the side exit, his strides consistent as he moved through the lobby.
Old men and women queued to retrieve their fur coats and jackets.
Young couples smiled and laughed about whatever nonsense they pretended to care about.
If this were any other night, Matty would have kept straight when the cool night air hit his face and soaked his lungs.
If this were any other night, he would have called a car and made the journey home.
If this were any other night, we would have dealt with the growing hardness in his trousers alone, back flat on his mattress and head dizzied with lust and the ever present lines of your face.
Yet, he didn’t.
Because, this was not any other night.
And, as such, the moment his polished shoes touched the hard pavement, he veered left. He turned the corner, and walked until the white ‘Stage Door’ sign found his line of sight.
And then, he stopped.
He waited.
He waited for you.
He knew you would be there.
He had seen it before. Only from a distance, but enough times that he was sure of it.
He unlocks his phone, turning down the screen brightness.
He taps rhythmically, opening the familiar folder with dozens of pictures– each nearly the same.
They were all in the same place, at roughly the same time.
They were all taken on the corner where the avenues merged.
They were all adorned with that same ‘Stage Door’, the very one he stood below now.
And, they all had you.
You, in boots the night it had rained.
You, in a jacket when it was chilly.
You, in a sparkly dress when there was a cast party.
You, nursing a tea when you had been ill.
You, you, you.
He knew you would be there.
He knew you would be here tonight.
The door creaked open.
His heart pounded against the boards of his chest, threatening to crack ribs and bend the walls of his skin.
It was you.
Matty wasn’t quite close enough for you to see, but you could tell there was someone there. You could smell the cigarette they were smoking, anyway. He knew you would be able to. That’s why he lit it.
He also knew you were a smoker. That you liked Parliaments. He had a picture of it: night four, lighter in hand, smoke adorning the screen.
You take a few more steps and see him.
You think for a moment that you recognize him, but brush off the thought quickly. He was probably just in the audience tonight.
His gaze catches yours.
He smiles.
You offer a polite nod back.
He puffs smoke like it’s air.
The moment is heavy around him— he knows you can feel it too.
“Hey– you were in the show tonight, weren’t you?”
His voice is certain as he speaks through a cloud of grey– almost too certain, as if he already knew the answer.
You gesture towards the sign slightly askew from years of English weathering.
“Yeah, I was,” you smile, turning to face him.
Soft, golden light spills onto you both from the street, casting a light glow onto the sides of your faces, the others hidden by the sharp darkness of the alleyway.
“Lady Macbeth?”
“Yep.”
“You were amazing.”
“Oh- thanks!”
You grin as you always do when given a compliment about your work. They were often hard to accept; it was work after all.
You turn to begin walking, legs tired from hours of pacing onstage and head cloudy with lines and cues.
“Fancy a smoke?”
You pause for a moment, considering it.
Your head is moving into a nod before your mouth can protest.
Matty slips a slender cigarette out of his pack, offering it to you.
You take it, fingers brushing. You barely notice, quickly planting it between parted lips.
Matty thinks he might just faint.
Skin.
“Light?” He asks.
“Oh, yes, please.”
He steps closer, movements certain as he lights the cigarette.
You take a long drag, letting the familiar headrush wash through you.
He watches you attentively as your shoulders soften, eyes growing droopier.
“Thanks,” you say softly.
“Anytime.”
And then, he’s gone.
Cigarettes stomped out on damp pavement. Trousers tighter than usual.
Matty had played it out a million times in his head: what you would say, how he would respond.
It had happened.
You had met.
It worked.
Matty let the fantasies of the evening swirl into an endless film reel behind his eyes. He watched you take the cigarette out of his fingers hundreds of times over; peered adamantly as your face lit up at his complement. How your voice was dripping with appreciation, how you had become properly fond of him in only a moment.
He knew that you had known all along.
He was sure you had recognized him, that you had known that this moment was destined to be.
If Romeo and Juliet’s love was written in the stars, yours and his was coded in the blood that you had scrubbed of your husband’s hands for the last eleven nights. In your passing moment together, he had felt it– the blood on your hands. It was now on his, too. Turning the corner, Matty pops a finger into his mouth.
You taste so damn sweet.
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Messy sheets.
Messy hair.
Messy flat.
Messy hands.
Messy mind.
Matty’s breath is heavy. Heavier than it’s ever been before.
He drops his phone beside him– screen bright and illuminated with a new picture. One from tonight. One of you, smoking his cigarette.
The pads of his fingers trail delicately over his bare chest. The skin had been inked for years. Each swirl of black telling a story that words simply never could.
Matty had only awoken maybe thirty minutes ago– pulled out of sleep by desire swirling low, yet heavy in his stomach. Pictures of you, hands covered in blood as you yelled out to a crowd of viewers, each with their eyes locked on nothing but you. How you would run off stage and kiss him– how he would hold you. How you would be his.
A ring on your left hand would sparkle in the stage lights, a child growing day by day in your womb.
He awoke with sweat on his collarbone and a tet in his boxers.
His need was insatiable. He was a poor addict; you, his drug of choice.
Now, after the high had come crashing down, Matty was left as Lucifer: an angel fallen from the highest heights of heaven, left in the darkest, and most delicious pits of hell.
Matty’s gaze poured over his pale skin, adorned by the red marks left behind by his nails; kissed by his release that he had chased so adamantly.
The contrast was beautiful.
White, pearly ropes of cum covered his stomach, stretching over the years-old ink and filling in the lines of his clawed marks. His chest had become a map of lust and desire, pioneered by pleasure.
He looked like sex itself, and he knew it.
He spent a while laying just like that: feeling his hand run over the goose-bumped skin; the same hand that you had touched only hours before.
Breaths became deeper, less shallow. Marks began to fade. Cum began to dry.
Matty glanced over to his nightstand in the darkened room, a war-torn looking notebook sat atop of it, a black-inked pen beside it.
He reaches for it with his clean hand, sitting up as he does. The leather book falls onto the sweat-dampened mattress; edges torn and spine bent.
Matty opens it to a fresh page, flipping through page upon page of songs and poems.
Some of them were for girls of his past. Some of them were for himself.
Nowadays, he finds it hard to write about anything but you.
Words poured from the pen like the kisses he would press into your skin: warm, sweet, sharp.
The web of words begins by saying everything and nothing at all. His eyes wander greedily over to his phone, still open to your picture.
His pen moves faster.
I can show you the photographs
Of you getting on with life
Memories of his stolen dreams play hungrily behind Matty’s eyes. His pen flies wildly over the paper now.
I’ve had dreams where there’s blood on you
All those dreams where you’re my wife
Inside my mind.
Dark eyes and blown pupils read back the lyrics; a string of syllables being hummed under Matty’s breath.
His eyes catch the last line he wrote, where he had pressed ever so slightly too hard on the ivory paper, forcing ink through the thin layers.
Inside my mind.
He watches the words as if he is expecting them to move, and he swears they almost do. Inside his mind?
Matty picks up his pen once more, scratching out the three words in one, straight line.
He writes below.
Inside your mind.
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“Be so much more the man. Nor time nor place.”
Your words are loud– booming over the low hum of the creaking, old theater. The crowd doesn’t dare speak. Matty holds his breath.
“I have given suck, and know how tender ‘tis to love the babe that milks me: I would, while it was smiling in my face, have pluck’d my nipple from its boneless gums. And dash’d the brains out, had I so sworn as you have done to this.”
Matty grips the armrests of his seat tighter. His gaze stays woven to you: to the way you move, the way you speak. And then, it happens. He’s sure of it. More sure than he’s ever been before.
You look at him.
You see him.
Your words echo loudly in his mind: ‘Be so much more the man.’
He knows it then; he knows it from the vertebrae of his spine to the hair of his head: tonight, he asks you. Tonight, he touches you. Tonight, you become his.
The next hour is near torturous: the show that had once been his favourite blends into mindless words and over-dramatzised bouts of screaming and crying. What a bore.
None of it meant anything at all now that he had made up his mind.
He had heard the monologue a million times– seen the look on your face as you described smashing the skull of your own child.
He had cringed the first time he heard it.
How violent?
How grotesque?
He didn’t cringe this time.
For once, he’s sure that he understood. You meant it for him.
You wanted him to make a move, god, you needed it. You were his Lady Macbeth begging him to take action.
Left alone for too long, and the love would go cold; grow meaningless. The only way to feel it would be to destroy it.
It was sick, and twisted, and utterly gorgeous.
How delectable, the violence.
How tender, the pain.
Soon, it would be his to have– to feel.
All that was left to do was wait.
His eyes fall back to the stage as Macbeth scrubs his hands clean.
He looks down on his own.
Phantom blood soaks them through to the bone.
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Dark, grey smoke curls around Matty into the crisp London night.
The rain of the previous night has long dissipated, leaving only a cool breeze in its place.
The small lamp that illuminates the ‘Stage Door’ sign flickers. It was out last night. Curious.
Matty checks the time on his wristwatch.
You should be out any moment now. You always are.
One…two…three…
The door creaks open. You step outside.
A long trenchcoat drapes over your shoulders, wrapping you loosely and ties haphazardly around your waist.
Matty watches as you turn your head, spotting him leaning against the wall across from the open door.
“Oh!” You startle slightly, placing a hand on your chest.
Matty takes another drag. “Sorry, didn’t mean to scare you, love.”
You suck in a breath at the petname, your eyes darting up and down Matty quickly. You hope he didn’t notice.
He did.
He was attractive, objectively. A sharp jawline and messy hair– tall enough and slender in frame. He looked enticing.
He looked familiar.
The puzzle pieces click in your mind.
“Sorry- were you here last night, too?”
Smoke pours from Matty’s mouth as it stretches into a grin.
“Good memory.”
You smile softly.
“Two nights in a row?”
Try twelve.
“Yep. It’s a great show, in my defense.”
You smile openly now, a soft blush creeping into your cheeks. You take a step closer.
“I’m Y/N,” you speak softly.
“I know.”
You raise an eyebrow in response.
“Playbill,” he smiles, taking a drag. “I’m Matty.”
“Nice to meet you properly, Matty.”
He lets out the smoke he had sucked in, letting it fan in your direction.
The moment is approaching.
‘Be so much more the man.’
“The pleasure is mine,” he smirks, hand sinking into his pocket and pulling out his same pack of Parliaments.
“Smoke?”
You shake your head hesitantly.
“I’m trying to quit.”
“That’s not what you said yesterday.”
You pause, biting softly on your lip.
He notices.
If only you knew.
“Suit yourself.”
He slips the pack back into his pocket, dropping his own cigarette and stomping it out.
Oh, how familiar this was. Oh, how different it was about to become.
“So,” he starts, taking an imperceivable step closer. You barely notice. He does. “Headed home?”
You nod.
“Shame.”
You squint softly.
“How so?”
“We could have had some proper fun tonight.”
You let out a small laugh.
He hears it. He notices the way you suck in a breath. The way your shoulders stiffen. The way your pupils go a bit wider.
“You’re bold.”
“I’m right.”
Matty pauses, taking a larger step forward, now.
He tentatively rests his hand on your clothed arm. He tests the waters: they’re as warm as the blood that pumps through your veins. He can feel it.
“Come back to mine, love.”
You let out a soft breath, melting into his touch.
If only you knew how long he had waited.
“O-okay.”
Matty smiles.
You smile back.
If only you knew that you were now his.
You walk a step ahead of him, his hand now resting on the small of your back.
His gaze is fixed to the back of your head– to the way that your hair falls over your skull.
What a brain you must have.
It must be swimming with lines, with words and stories. The walls of your plush mind, soaked and coated in deep maroon. Even a drop spilled would be far too precious. Matty can see it so clearly: the code it would hold. Each blood cell, engineered to your uniqueness. He would bottle it up if he could. Maybe, it would tell him everything he had been waiting so, so long to hear. Cracked, white bones and spilled scarlett would stain him with knowledge far too bitter to be obtained, yet far too sweet to resist.
“My flat’s this way, darling.”
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You’re asleep.
You’re asleep in Matty’s bed.
Your back is bare.
Your hair is wild and free.
Your legs are twisted in sheets.
Your cunt is swollen and red.
Your lips are bitten and taste of blood and something uniquely Matty.
You had given yourself to him so willingly.
So adamantly.
So perfectly.
He had held you and whispered sweet nothings in your ear as you drifted into sleep; collarbone bearing the marks of his teeth and the deep blooming purple where he had sucked spots into your prim skin.
He hadn’t slept. Hell, he had barely even shut his eyes.
To do so would be a sin, he was sure of it.
His pupils had stayed glued to you, not daring to blink.
How wasteful it would be to miss even a moment of time with you?
So, he hadn’t.
He watched as you stepped foot into his flat.
As your back arched in pleasure as he licked a flat strip over your sickly sweet wetness.
As you had shed your trenchcoat at the door.
As your face distorted in pleasure when he bottomed out.
As you had nodded ‘yes’ to a cup of tea to mend a sore throat from long nights spent performing.
As you had clawed at his back as he chased your third orgasm of the evening, rubbing a sure thumb over your overstimulated clit.
As you had laid back on his bed in nothing but your panties.
As he had come all over your stomach, just as he had done on his own.
Now, he lay awake.
His mind swam with words. Words waiting to be said. Words that had already been spoken. Words that could only be immortalized on paper.
His beat-up notebook sings sweetly in his ear.
He has to write.
The pen is heavy in his hand– much heavier than usual.
The words come less naturally, too. As if these ones mattered more– as if they were special.
When he wrote, now, it was no longer a prayer. It was a recollection. A memory. A moment chiseled into the pure white paper staring back at him.
He opened to the same page as the night prior.
He begins to write.
I’ve been watching you walk
I’ve been learning the way that you talk
Moment after moment ricochet across Matty’s vision– dancing in black and white. It was real. It was always real.
He glances over to you know; back facing him, skull taunting him.
The back of your head is at the front of my mind
Soon I’ll crack it open just to see what’s inside your mind
You stir in your sleep, only slightly. The pen drops from Matty’s hand, leaving ink smudged across the page.
It drips down and sinks into his lap. Deep red that paints his sheets and his skin.
It’s red. It’s red. It’s red.
Matty blinks.
There is only a smudge on the page.
It’s black.
He glances back to you; to your head.
He watches as you shift.
Are you dreaming of him?
He picks up the pen once more.
Maybe you are dreaming you’re in love with me
The only option left is look and see, inside your mind
Inside your mind.
Your Face Has Got a Hold On Me
You shouldn't. You can't. Under no circumstances can you end up with him again. But if it's so wrong, then why did fate bring you together tonight?
WC: ~3.2K
CW: ILIWYS!Matty x Fem!Reader, smut, fingering, masturbation (F & M), handjobs, unprotected sex, somewhat dubcon (Both characters are tipsy), substance usage, angst??, switch!Matty, a teensy bit of subby!Matty, switch!Reader, bad writing sorry
Please be nice this is my first fic and probably shit x
MDNI, I mean it!!!
Enjoy!! xx
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“Fucking twat.”
Those were the only two words my mind could seem to conjure up when I saw his face from across the dimly lit club. The air was too hot and too thick, which certainly was not aiding in my struggles to control my breaths after one too many tequila sodas, and a drunk cigarette that I definitely did not need. Plus, I was trying to quit. Then again, I was also trying to quit seeing Matty. Figures.
Perhaps it was a bit sad of me to be out at the club, alone, on a saturday, but then again, I wasn’t here to linger on my internally judgemental dialogue. I was here to get drunk and end up in the bed of a stranger, and hope that the dull sting of the impending headache mixed with burning liquid would be enough to divert my mind from wishing it was Matty laying beside me.
But now, he is here.
In the club.
Where I am too.
I quickly shift my gaze down to the dampened cup in my hands, and pray that the definite eye contact we had just made was somehow a figment of my overactive imagination. The room gleams with purple and pink neon, dripping in glitter and regret. The music is too loud. The liquor is too expensive. There are too many people here. And yet, only one seemed to matter. I nearly drop my drink when I feel the warmth of a hand on the small of my back.
“What the fuck!”
I spin myself around before I know what I am doing, before my mind can tell me to stop. The smell hits me before my eyes can adjust; the familiar scent of whisky and cigarettes mixed with expensive cologne and something distinctly His.
“Didn’t think you could hide from me all night, did ya, Darling?”
I cringe at the petname, the same one he used to whisper into my ear in the dead of night and in the wee hours of the morning. His voice is just as raspy and heavy as it was the last time we spoke– when I stood out in the rain cursing his god forsaken name and praying to never see him again, whilst wishing to run right back into his arms. Fucking twat, I echo in my mind.
“I was actually counting on it– seems as though you’ve fucked up my plan though.”
His face distorts into something reminiscent of a smirk, tainted by something much more closely aligned with victory. His shirt lays perfectly over his skin; crisp and white and buttoned far too high for my liking.
“You’re welcome.”
“I didn’t say thank you.”
“You didn’t have to.”
I only now realize that his hand has not yet left the curve of my back, his fingers tracing mindless, lazy patterns over the thin fabric of my excuse of a dress– the one I had bought hoping he wouldn’t see. I shift under his touch, not quite moving closer, but not exactly pulling away either.
“You look nice.”
I frown a bit at his sharp tone, knowing instantly that there is nothing complimentary about his words.
“I know.”
“Good.”
“Yeah, good.”
Matty pauses, like there is something on the tip of his tongue that he can’t quite get out. The silence is deafening, tension so thick I could grab it in my hands. I take a sip of my drink, hoping the liquid will give me even an ounce of courage, or at least enough will to walk away from this evening unscathed.
“You here alone?” I ask between sips.
“Not anymore.”
He runs his free hand through his curls; they’re messier than usual, in that unkept yet perfect kind of way that always used to drive me crazy. Used to. Used to. Used to.
“I’m not here with you, Matty. You know that.”
He pauses, his touch stills over the fabric of my dress.
“I could be.”
My gaze catches his once more, and I can practically feel the heat radiating off of him through his blown pupils. I shift in my stance ever so slightly, subtly trying to squeeze my thighs together to ease any of the growing tension swirling in my lower stomach. It’s no use.
“Matty…”
He bites down softly on his lower lip, a mannerism I learned well in the nights we spent together. Seeing it again feels almost natural. Right. Matty leans in, his grip on my back moving to grasp at the bone of my lip. I let out a near-silent gasp, and pray that it was quiet enough not to be noticed by him.
“Matty…” I repeat, as if I have any intention of intervening now. “We’re not doing this.”
Matty lets out a low noise– something between a chuckle and a groan.
“Love, we’re already doing this.”
He pulls me closer and my body melts like putty under his fingers; the growing wetness against the lace of my panties becoming increasingly uncomfortable. His digits trace the hem of my dress, inching higher at an agonizingly slow pace. His breath fans across my lips teasingly, never quite getting close enough; never quite giving in.
“Fuck you.” I retort; a desperate last attempt at holding onto my promises to stay away from him.
“You want to?”
He smirks as I frown at his shitty joke. My reaction is immediately wiped from my face as I feel his middle finger ghost over my clothed core with a near painful lack of pressure. I close my eyes, feeling the room spin around me. Having Matty this close again was stronger than any drug I could ever imagine.
“Tell me to stop,” He whispers against my lips, my chest now mere inches from his. “Tell me to stop and I’ll walk away, you know I will.”
I open my eyes, my sight catching on his dark irises once more. I know it’s the truth. If I said the word he would leave right now– walk away and pretend this had never happened at all. But, I know he won’t, because he knows I won’t tell him to.
“No.”
The singular word is enough to make Matty snap, his lips crashing against mine like wild waves against ragged cliffs. The kiss is all teeth and smeared lipstick. I gasp as matty applies the faintest of pressure against my neglected core, still wrapped in lace like a gift to be unwrapped. He uses my reaction as an opportunity to slip his tongue into my mouth, sucking up every last bit of my taste like a man starved. He pulls my chest flush against his, far too gone to care at all about the packed club still vibrating around us. The darkened corner we were tucked away in served as enough privacy for us to manage.
Matty slips a finger under the lace of my underwear, letting the pad of his digit run through my soaked core, dragging a bit of wetness up to my swollen bundle of nerves.
“Fuck, darling…all for me?” Matty smirks that same damn smirk he always had when he gets a little too proud of his work.
“Don’t get too cocky, Healy. What if I’m just using you to get me off?”
My sad attempt to add any bite to my words is ruined as Matty slides a long finger into my entrance; my walls contract around it desperately, aching for the stretch it doesn’t quite give.
“Then I would say that nothing has changed.”
In another universe, his words may have stung more– a certain dig at my consistent lack of emotional commitment. However, at this moment, I was sure that I could feel my brains leaking out of my ears with each one of his sickly sweet words. I was too drunk on pleasure to care much at all.
Matty moves his lips from mine to the skin of my neck, biting and licking his way down the sweat-slicked skin as his fingers continued to work on me. His thumb finds my clit, rubbing tight circles over the electrified nerves.
In a cruel twist of fate, a figure brushes against my shoulder, sending me spiraling back to earth before my high could truly set in. I place my hand over Matty’s, stilling his movements. I watch as confusion and something that seems almost near concern floods his face.
“Not here,” I pause, collecting my thoughts. “It can’t happen here.”
I don’t have to say anything more for him to understand the meaning between my words. He takes my hand in his, hastily dragging me through the tight tides of people and towards the neon “Restrooms” sign in the far left of the club. There’s a line, quite a long one at that. Thank god Matty couldn’t give less of a fuck. All that matters to him now is feeling skin against skin, fingers in his hair, and heartbeats blending to one.
He shoves past a group of guys in line, pushing open the door with one hand as his other holds tightly to mine. The men' s protests go unanswered by Matty, who is much more focused on locking the door behind us before shoving me up against it, resuming his unrelenting attack on my lips with his own.
“Need you…”, I gasp as he slots his knee between my legs, gripping onto his dampened curls like a lifeline.
“I know you do, sweet girl, always so needy for me, yeah?”, he murmurs against my neck, the vibrations making my cunt purr in his absence.
“Don’t be a dick”, I quip. Even in my most vulnerable, Matty knows I have fire to me.
“Don’t be needy then”, he growls against my skin, pressing his fingers deeper into my hips with effort that I am sure will leave purple marks tomorrow.
With a bit of effort, I flip us around, Matty’s back now pressed flat against the cool metal of the washroom door. I let my hands trace over his clothed chest, popping open a solemn button at the top of his now-wrinked white shirt, revealing the top of his detailed tattoo that I had grown to know every intricacy of.
My hands move lower, now toying with the hem of his slacks, all whilst kissing up his neck and across his jaw. He thinks I’m needy? Two can play at that game.
I run my hand over his obvious hardness, and smile against his swollen lips.
“Oh, sweet boy…this excited already?” I apply the faintest of pressure over his bulge, feeling his dick twitch beneath the fabric.
“P-please love…need to be in you…” He bites down softly on my lip, making me arch against him. I snap back to reality only a moment later, remembering the goal of my behavior in the first place.
“Did I ask what you want?” I remove my hand from him swiftly, leaving his hips bucking up against nothing, and a pleading noise escaping from his lips. “Don’t be needy, right Healy?”
I smirk against him as he squirms at the lack of contact, reminding me of how he left me aching and wet only minutes before.
I take a short step away from him, watching a gorgeous flush red sneak up the collar of his dress-shirt in the wake of my teeth. The sight is almost too much to bear: Matty, pushed against a door practically whimpering, surly having thought that he would be the one in control this evening. God, how wrong he can be. Plus, after the way he spoke to me, he doesn’t deserve it.
I sneak my hand under the hem of my dress, taking in the ravishing picture painted out in front of me. Matty’s eyes are closed, and I blush at the idea of him noyt knowing what was unfolding in front of him. I lean against the cool porcelain of the bathroom sink as I slide my dress to pool around my waist, dipping a finger below the line of the lace. I let out a soft gasp as my digit brushes my clit– swollen from neglect and arousal.
“Fuck…”, I gasp out, sliding a finger inside as I draw figure eights over the bundle of nerves.
Matty’s eyes open instantly as he hears the sound escape my lips. His pupils go wider than I have ever seen them, sheer lust practically dripping from his skin. He moves forward, hand going to swat mine away– to take over and regain his control.
I halt his hand before it can reach my core, his gaze snapping up to meet mine.
“Nuh-uh,” I whisper against the shell of his ear, “no touching.”
A poor whine spills from his reddened lips, and I feel his hardened cock twitch against my thigh. For a moment, I consider taking mercy on him: letting him touch and take whatever he pleases. But, no. I can’t. Not yet.
“Look at you, baby,” I coo, “thought you were all big and strong, huh? Look at you now, being so damn good for me, yeah?”
I punctuate my sentence with a second finger into my entrance, a moan fighting its way out of my mouth.
“All you can do is watch me make myself feel good, isn't that right?”
Matty groans at my words, forehead dropping against my shoulder as I let out another surgery moan.
“P-please…”
I smile as I watch how undone he is becoming. I am starting to remember why I loved our dynamic so much. One second he’s making me squirm under his hands, and the next he’s wrapped around my finger.
“‘Please’ what, baby? Use your words and you might get what you want, yeah?” I grin as the wheels turn in his mind. I may be cruel in my actions, but I’m nothing if not consistent. Follow my rules and things will go your way.
“Need you to touch me…please…”, His words are closer to wispy, strung together words than true sentences, but they do the job nonetheless. Before he can get another word out, I pull my hand away from myself and begin unbuttoning his trousers. I run my hand over his clothed cock once more before freeing it from the confinements of his boxers.
“Fuck, love–” Matty groans, “feels so perfect”.
I capture his words in a searing kiss as I run my thumb over his slit; already red and dripping with precum. Matty hisses at the contact, body shuddering beneath my touch. I cross my thighs together, clenching them tightly and praying for a swift relief of the growing tension between them that my fingers had previously been unable to remove.
I stroke him quickly, twisting and squeezing in all the right places to make Matty squirm.
“So pretty for me”, I say as I plant kisses across his face, “you want to touch me pretty boy?”
His hips jerk against my hand– I can tell he is getting close. My stomach swirls with need as he nods, hooking his hands around the waistband of my lace panties.
“Can I?”
Matty looks at me with wide, hopeful eyes; cock strained and dripping– he looks like a fucking wetdream.
“Mhm, go ahead Healy.”
The reminisce of a smirk is wiped from my face as his cold fingers pull my panties down my thighs, cool air hitting my wetness, sending shockwaves of pleasure but my spine. Matty runs a sure finger through my wetness as I shiver, cunt throbbing from two near-orgasms painfully denied.
“Please Matty–”
What was meant as a steady sentence comes out as more of a pathetic whine, surely inflating Matty’s depleted ego, all memories of his previous behavior fading into the haze of the moment.
He circles my entrance before slipping two fingers in, the pad of his thumb rubbing perfect circles over my swollen bud. I gasp and writhe at the feeling– the stretch is absolutely delicious. His fingers are much thicker than my own, and more callused as well, making for the perfect feeling inside my plush walls.
He curls his fingers and I practically see white; the rubberband in my stomach pulling so tight that I’m sure any more and I would collapse right now.
“Shit– please…”, I gasp, eyes closing as I throw my head back.
Matty flashes a shit-eating grin, planting a sloppy kiss on my neck.
“Knew I’d have you reeling for me soon, love. You want to cum, yeah?”
His voice is too sweet to hold any truth, but my mind is far too ruined to hear the deceiving tone.
“Yes–yes! Please Matty….feels so good…” I bite my lip, stifling a scream as Matty curls his fingers once more, hitting that godly spot inside me. Then, with no warning at all, he’s gone.
I feel an emptiness that is near devastating as I clench around the air, heart pounding and breath ragged.
“What the fuck?!”, I practically yell.
I open my eyes to find Matty smiling my way, a glint of pride in his eyes.
“That’s for earlier. Really thought you could play unfair and get away with it?”
I pout my lips slightly, but I don’t have time to be angry before I feel Matty lining himself up against me. His eyes catch mine one last time; I give him a slight nod, a final confirmation of what we both knew was about to happen.
Without any more warning, he pushes inside me, a moan ripping from his lips as ecstasy floods my axons. His pace is unrelenting: deep and purposeful. He paws at my still-clothed tits, and it is only then that I realize we are both still mostly dressed. Even with him inside me, I find myself wishing for the woven barriers to be removed. God, what ever happened to hating Matty?
Matty’s hand sneaks between my legs as they wrap around his waist, the tip of his dick hitting the spot that makes me see stars as he circles my clit. I whimper against his lips as my eyes shut.
“Nuh-uh, come on, Love. Let me see you. Eyes on me.”
I fight to open my eyes, locking my gaze on his like a life raft in a sea of pleasure.
“C-close”, I manage to gasp out. I can see in Matty’s eyes that he is thinking the very same thing.
“Cum for me, darling. ‘Been so good for me.”
My vision whites out as I cum with a stifled scream, fingers clawing at Matty’s shoulders as my walls convulse around him. His pace continues inside me, riding out the waves of my aftershocks.
“Fucking hell…gonna cum, Love,” Matty’s breath halts, body stiffening as he pulls out. Sticky, white ropes paint his hand, drops falling messily onto the silk of my dress. Under normal circumstances I would have cursed him out for messing up the garment, but my head is much too hazy to think any real thoughts at all.
I collapse against Matty with a final gasp, letting him hold me for the first time in months. It is now, perhaps, that I am beginning to remember why it took me so long to leave.
“Did so good for me, yeah? That’s my girl.”
His kind words glaze through my ears as I melt onto him, my own release dripping down my thighs.
“Missed you.”
The admission slips from my lips before I can stop it, and I tense in anticipation of his reaction.
“Missed you too, Love.”