#knoxwitch

[knoxusmaximus]

When you have lots of plans for the Christmas full moon and the wind simply says No and you have to move all fire inside.

[knoxusmaximus]

Self-doubt and Altars

Self-doubt 

 It was only April this year I first became interested in witchcraft, or for a matter of fact, even heard of it as a real practice people actually do. Not just a name for supernatural gifts people have. 

 Since then I have been reading about it, a little practice, learning a lot. However it doesn't feel enough. Hell, I'm 18 and im now just interests. No familial history. Christened at birth but never practiced or held a belief beyond agnostic. Believed in the possibility for the supernatural, divination, and all things occult. But never experienced it. 

I don't have a path, I don't have a goal, I don't have a talent. Just an interest. I don't know wether I should read more theory. Or get a bit more gritty with it and actually practice. Well, meditate. And meditate. And meditate. 

There's just so much to be learnt and tried. 

My problem is, I don't think I should interfere with the outside world. I don't need for people to respect my privacy, most already do. I wont do a love spell, I believe its unethical. Money spells. I'm in no debt right now, have a good income (from my parents) which I try to spend as little as possible of. Could I do a money spell for mum? Or will that means the money won't come later if be desperately need it. 

There are some I could do. A Shut-my-door-or-so-help-me spell, or charm or sigil. But I'm barely in my room anyway, and most people shut my door.

What's the difference between a charm and a spell anyway? 

I don't really have enough knowledge to really write my own spells/charms. All I've done so far could easily be coincidence. 

I just have this thing against most of other people's spells. 

I might do that online Queria lesson guide. I think it'll help. 

 And as for religious problems, you have no idea. No conflict though. Just confusion. I've never been a gods fan. But I do believe there's a something. Non-judging. Just there, with life's essence. 

Altars

Despite all that. I don't know what to do about altars as well. Not as in a place of worship altar. Oh no. But a space to practice my magic. I have a suitcase. Old leather from my father. I'm using it to hold all of my witchy supplies including books. Shall I just take those books out, and have that for all my supplies. A space to do spells over. A nice scarf to have as a packable altar cloth. Or as a meditation mat.

I will probably do that, but first I've got to make room for those books on shelves. I have too much stuff, im hoping to donate it, in the quest for minimalism -  which does seem contradictory to the hoarding nature of witchcraft, but yeah - I'm not sure either way.

This was a lovely 1:00am ramble from your dear 

 ~ Knox

[knoxusmaximus]

Hey! So about writing in a book of shadows from what I understand from most people it's all about what you prefer like me I write in it for like maybe ten minutes a day and I try to keep it really organized but of you just want to write in it every now and then and it be messy you can and most of the time it's like a journal / spells n stuff you have made up

Ahh, thank you c:i would like to more but i’m still getting my head around the fact the witchcraft ian’t separate from normal life, like writing in it in college, as break from work or relaxationtbh I’m 15 ish pages in and i don’t have many actually useful reference pages :/ do prefer the more messy journal style though c:Thank you again o u o