My ToM Thoughts (after watching the live stream)
So Iām supposed to write a review for my darlingĀ @mythosethan but tbh idek what to say. Iām just an emotion with legs right now. I feel like I could break down sobbing at any moment. It was just..so much. Those beautiful, talented, incredible beans take my breath away. I have never come across more authentic, passionate humans. I have no doubt that theyāre exhausted, but that they just donāt care because their hearts are full. And their bodies may be tired, but their souls are being energized.Ā
I think itās so great that even though theyāve already done the show a handful of times, they still react genuinely to different parts, still break character, still giggle. I mean, I just couldnāt stop smiling! I felt so proud, and so in love. I look up to them and respect them so much. I feel so damn blessed. *wipes tear*Ā
All in all it was fantastic, I loved every second, and I will cherish the experience forever. And itās all because of Ethan, if it wasnāt for them I wouldnāt have been able to participate. Bless this amazing community, I love you Beasts <3
Aight, itās about to get a tad personal:
I believe that the universe brought RandL into my life exactly when I needed them. At a time when Iām really starting to work hard on embracing what makes me..me. Accepting what makes me different...and mythical. :)Ā Somehow, RandL make me feel like itās ok to be myself. To be weird and unique.Ā
As many of you probably already know, I am bisexual. And thatās something Iāve only recently come to terms with. Iāve only beenĀ āoutā for a couple years. And it still kinda feels strange to refer to myself as bisexual. Iāll be 23 on Feb 7th, and I was 20 when I really figured it out. I donāt think Iāll ever know why it took so long for me to realize, but I think it had to do with not wanting to be more of aĀ āfreakā than I already thought I was. I hated myself for a long time, and I went through a very dark patch. Now, Iām finally seeing the light. But thatās not to say that I dontā have cloudy days, of course I do, anxiety and depression donāt just go away. But Iām more aware of my mental health than ever before. And RandL, and yāall, this community, is most definitely aiding in my healing. Anyway, accepting this part of myself has been lifechanging, and RandL make me feel loved and supported through the process (which of course is ongoing). And I really do want to meet them someday, to say thank you. For inspiring me, and for helping me see the beauty in being different. I am short (4ft10), I am nerdy, I am spiritual, I love God (my definition of Him that is), I am on the Autism spectrum, I love storytelling in all forms, I am quirky, I love dressing both masculine and feminine, I am Bisexual. And thatās just the tip of the iceberg! I am a one of a kind Mythical Beast, a freakin Unicorn. And I love myself more and more each day.