#kookaburrito

[fecklesheckleshacklesschmeckles]

@kookaburrito you were in my dream!! we were staying over somewhere and trying to construct beds for ourselves out of coloured sand, and you had a bunch of craft stuff with you that seemed to be charms an' beads an' stuff threaded on colourful embroidery floss and it looked very cool <3

the dream scenario wasn't particularly pleasant (see above re: trying to sleep on piles of sand) but it was nice to get to hang out in imaginary real life :333

[ivegotchickenstofeed]

@kookaburrito sent me the loveliest present <3

Дякую моя подруга

Shitposts of my top 9 episodes + lovely lovely cards with Ukrainian, English and Dutch (!!) on them!!

[levil0vesyou]

i'm so sorry for that monday production story, i hope it doesn't affect you as much now. adults really do say some wild shit and don't even realize how damaging it can be. my dad would point out all the broken and abandoned houses and dirty cars on the street and say they were mine, and i always replied they were his, and we'd start bickering, and then laughed it off, and i only thought about it recently and have no idea why he would say such a thing? i think it subconsciously got ingrained that i'm not good with housekeeping and generally don't deserve nice things (sorry for trauma dumping). just, adults are so weird with their kids and don't realize the damage

(ask is in reference to my tags on this post)

(there's more trauma in this reply btw, fair warning. under a cut bc long)

Thank you, it actually means a lot!! I wasn't even sure if anyone was gonna read it lmao, tag rambling sometimes feels like just straight up screaming into the void lmao

Hate to disappoint, but its effect on me has been increasing for years 😎👍 It's so weird how you can have shit like that lie dormant for ages until you one day go "hang on" and then it starts eating away at you

It also goes really well with her "Niemand wünscht sich ein behindertes Kind" (lit. "Nobody wishes for a disabled child" but can more accurately be translated as "Nobody wants a disabled child") which she only said once and not even about me but basically one shotted me and has been squatting in my brain evilly ever since. Top ten fucked up sentences to completely devastate your disabled child, number 4 will surprise you 😎👍

(I actually did bring that one to her attention years later but she dismissed any effects it had on me on grounds she didn't mean it that way 😎👍)

Yea, that's some bullshit tbh. Like, that's not the kinda shit a father should be saying to their kid, like bro this is an impressionable young mind in your care who trusts you blindly, not your fucking sibling or highschool bestie you can shoot the shit with. Parents give like zero shits what they say to their children, it's wild. And very concerning sometimes

And it would probably be possible to heal that shit more easily if they actually recognised that, maybe even apologised, but at least in my mum's case, she categorically refuses to acknowledge any instances of one of her children being negatively impacted by something she's said or done if we're the ones bringing it to her attention.

Like, I think she recognises some of the stuff she's said and done as not great but any attempt to amend that list will result in her "oh so I'm a horrible person and at fault for all your problems and you refuse to take responsibility hmmm?" spiel 😔

For the record tho I wanna say I don't think she's a horrible mum and especially when it came to material well being/physical health/etc she really did try her best and I could've had it much worse. She was an underpaid nurse raising three children (two of them disabled) mostly on her own while also caring for different sick elderly relatives over the years.

It's a miracle she made it work and while I do think some stuff was unnecessary, some of especially the later stuff that was more affective (not like hitting or anything, the only parental figure who ever hit me was my grandma who did it exactly one time tho even that took many years to process which is how I know "it's okay to hit your kids" ppl are full of shit) which I can far more easily understand & forgive. That said, if your own child says "[thing you did or said] had a negative impact on me" maybe believe them lmao

...yea this is a bit too long huh

[ohsalome]

10, 20, 30, 40, 50!

thank you!

10. what’s your favourite animal?

Corvids, goats, owls, monkeys

20. what is your favourite feeling?

Manic artistic inspiration

30. do you prefer the moon or the stars?

The moon

40. when was the last time you cried?

Yesterday. My bro put on the music and there was a Fullmetal Alchemist opening song...

50. do you have a nickname?

Seryoga

Some cute and unique asks

[twyllodrus]

How To Become A Millionaire! Q: Kiev is the capital city of which country?

[lishashisha]

Mike Chang, Burt Hummel, Brittany Pierce!

Mike Chang: Something that makes me laugh

Captain Holt on Brooklyn Nine Nine. How the hell has Andre Braugher not won an Emmy for that role??

Burt Hummel: A piece of advice

Don’t get stuck in a dead-end job for too long. I’ve been at my job for almost 12 years, and I feel like I don’t have any other options, and it sucks.

Brittany Pierce: Something weird about myself

I’m a 36-year-old virgin....that’s pretty weird, no matter how many people try to tell me it’s not (also i hate the word virgin ugh)

[fecklesheckleshacklesschmeckles]

realistically at this rate i'm not going to make a proper post about hullowe'en, but it was an absolutely magical and delightful weekend from start to finish, and it was such a joy to share it with those folks who could make it <3

pictured: bracelet haul intensifies, thanks to @silverview and @kookaburrito :333

[fecklesheckleshacklesschmeckles]

There once was a bear called feckles

Just like James’ show filled with heckles

He was full of mischief

Hiding bittersweet grief

And enjoyed writing Reece getting shackled

:3

line 4?? omg assigned Sad Clown by kooka XD

jk i adore this, both of my chippy neurotic comedy boys namechecked in one limerick :3c