hi moon of my life! this is a nickname khal drogo gave to daenerys in game of thrones. i don't like that relationship very much, but i like the nickname. so i decided to find a new use for it.
well, i'm sending you this ask because i feel like i don't appreciate you enough. i never sent you an ask and so i thought, "how rude of me". you were always sweet to me.
i love all my friends here. in fact, all of you who interact with me are few, but enough. you all are different and i love you all in different ways but none more than another. all my relationships here are different, but it doesn't mean is any lesser. there is no way to measure love, in my opinion. we just... love people. and i am a person that is very good at loving.
i swear, i'm extremely good at loving.
i wanted to thank you for being so patient with me when i'm silly, for giving me strength when i'm down, for helping me with my fics, for the random chats, for making me feel loved back. i wanted you to know that your presence here makes me very happy. since you arrived i feel that there is something different.
and yes, i know i'm a whore for affection and a bit needy and clingy, and i know it's hard for you to express yourself or talk about what you feel. so i'm so grateful for your effort in doing it for me. i swear, i wanted to give you a thousand hugs and kisses, but i can't. so i can only send you an ask to let you know how much i care. i certainly care a lot!
hi sun of my moon! or should i say sun of my life? before i go on, i have to thank you for the affection and for coming here. i really wasn't expecting this, so it was a pleasant surprise to come home, open tumblr and find this ask.
honestly, i believe you have earned the right to call me whatever you want, but i love the nickname. the fact that we can give it a new meaning, for something better, makes me happy.
i must say that i may not have words enough to repay you for everything i have read here, so i ask you not to be sad with me. it is not for lack of consideration but because, all of this was too amazing for my poor brain to process.
you may have heard this before, but i have to say it one more time. you are wonderful, nikka. your soul is special. your energy vibrates in a good tune. you are the sun shining on everyone around you. so, i ask you, how could such an amazing person not love so much? you need it like you need air, i understand. but i think that we, your friends, need your love at the same intensity and that's ok. i think we have found a balance point, no?
oh, and i thank god that you are so good at loving.
i can have the patience of a thousand lives, if that will calm you down. i can reach out my hands, offer you my shoulders and ears when you are sad. and, haha! i will never get tired of instigating or encouraging you. supporting your works and stories is my favorite hobby right now. whenever you need me, i will be here.
maybe you have broken my rules, and trying hard is no longer a challenge but a mission that I try hard to fulfill. whenever you need a little affection, I will try my best to make sure you get it. so, receive my virtual kisses and hugs.
and, again, thank you for caring about me. it was important to know that. know that the feeling is reciprocal.