#doumeki chikara

[buthesacoolliar]

I keep thinking of where I am in Twittering Birds and what I found out earlier today about Yashiro getting raped once again by Inami and it's like.......... I have no idea how on earth we are gonna get Doumeki and him back to that emotionally vulnerable place they once were. because right now they're BOTH fucking things up. like Yashiro is purposely trying to hurt him and pretend that he never gave a fuck about Doumeki and he's doing it so publicly too like in front of Doumeki's boss he's like oh he followed me like a puppy he was as lost as a baby bird he wasn't useful to me at all i pitied him and its like ik he's doing it to protect himself right

but Doumeki is also purposely trying hurt Yashiro by telling him u haven't changed you'll still have sex with anyone WHEN HE NEVER DID THAT BEFORE HE NEVER ONCE JUDGED HIM OR COMMENTED ON HIS SADOMASOCHISM and again ik that he has every reason to be hurt and bitter and angry bc as far as he knows and what he's been told by Yashiro he just used him and tossed him aside

but my point is HOW ON EARTH ARE THEY GONNA COME BACK FROM THIS HOW ON EARTH ARE WE GONNA GO FROM THIS BACK TO DOUMEKI SAYING THAT YASHIRO IS STRONG AND BEAUTIFUL THAT HE'S BEAUTIFUL ON THE INSIDE HOW ARE WE GONNA GO BACK TO YASHIRO TELLING HIM HE IS SWEET AND CUTE AND RESTING ON HIS LAP HOW TELL ME HOW

[buthesacoolliar]

Oh my God and now that I'm thinking about this I'm thinking of the fact that Doumeki................. doesn't know he doesn't know that he's been used by that fucking cop Inami and he thinks he's still sleeping around and he's been like you'll still do it with anyone, do you thirst for men that bad

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WHEN I THINK OF WHEN HE FINDS OUT OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDD

[buthesacoolliar]

Spotify play Linger by the Cranberries

[buthesacoolliar]

Doumeki's thighs

[buthesacoolliar]

"It's not all about looks. You're not popular with the women at the club because of your personality."

DOUMEKI IS SO FUNNY BUT SO RUDE WHY WOULD HE SAY THIS

[buthesacoolliar]

I cannot stop thinking about where I am in TBNF right now bc like Doumeki is now full on yakuza, Yashiro is still yakuza but not in a group like he wanted but he's with Misumi which is essentially like going back to an overbearing ex who he was suffocated by and seems not to enjoy sex anymore which he once said would feel like death to him

Like these two dudes p much are in opposite ends of where they started from and it's their lowest point so far :))))

[buddyhollyscurls]

I barely started Vol 7 but I already miss my pre time skip Doumeki like I only read the first chapter but seeing him as an actual yakuza in an all black suit his eyes look colder he's not my sweet tall giant bear anymore this is man is bitter and hurt

He and Yashiro haven't even seen each other yet but I miss their gentle relationship so much already I fear it's gonna be a while before we see them being sweet again. The loving look in Doumeki's eyes Yashiro resting his head on Doumeki's lap, Doumeki saying how beautiful Yashiro is inside and out Yashiro calling Doumeki cute and sweet I MISS THEM ALREADY I WANT TO CRY I WANT THEM BACK PLS GIVE THAT BACK

[buddyhollyscurls]

So Yashiro really just.... leaves Doumeki afterwards huh. Like they had such intimate sex where they both are vulnerable and express their feelings and he .... leaves him..... while he's asleep.