#ksxjunhwan

[kshaneul]

☯

☯ : Do they believe for every darkness there is a lightness? If not, why?

— haneul has always been one to fixate her mind on the brighter side of everything, even when she could be too positive at best. personally, the artist thinks it wouldn't bring her any good to dwell much on darkness and often has the thought of things doing well, eventually, on her mind.

[ksjinwoo-blog]

Have you ever thought of forgiving me and my dad even once?

“ –– i thought about forgiving your dad when he paid for the rest of my tuition when my mom couldn’t or when i found out my new step-brother who was just one year older than me went to the same school and maybe, we could’ve been best friends. but i have a strict ‘no forgiving losers’ policy, sorry. ”

[ksxiaolu-blog]

@ksxjunhwan

it’s days like these that xiaolu longs for most. rainy days and sunshine all blurring into one. today, the skies are grey, and the windows of the cafeteria made it hard to tell if the rain had stopped or not. she drums her fingers on the table, looking over the food she’d bought for the junhwan in exchange for her helping him on his exams. xiaolu had forged a strange sort of relationship with the boy since the last few days, where they depended on each other’s services to help keep the other afloat. and right now, she was waiting for him to meet up with her. 

students start hovering around the area, more of them lining up. a generous amount of chatter becomes the backdrop to xiaolu’s thoughts, and she decides to text junhwan to make it seem like she was doing something instead of just sitting there and staring. 

( ✉ → junhwan ) junhwan, are you coming? ( ✉ → junhwan ) let me know when you are~ 

[kshaneul]

☃, ☎, ♠

☃: what my muse does when it snows

winter makes her feel soulless so haneul would just sleep in for the rest of the day and be the party-pooper that she is.

☎: the last person my muse made a phone call to and why

junhwan to ask if she can come over and practice her lines for a play since he’s the only one who’d most likely understand how important it is for her (also, she trusts his judgement). 

♠: the riskiest thing my muse has ever done

the riskiest thing haneul has ever done was to run away from her home because it was just a four cornered place, anyway.

[kshaneul]

( ✉ → sms ) stop being so fuckigjn borign and coekm to my party

[ sms - junhwan-not oppa ] i’m sorry hun being boring is the only thing i can afford right now[ sms - junhwan-not oppa ] pay me per hour then maybe i’d reconsider :p

[nxrii]

( ✉ → sms ) fu ck you for hurting me

( ✉ → sms ) well fuck you for becoming a dickhead( ✉ → sms ) life isn’t fair( ✉ → sms ) fuck ( ✉ → sms ) I’m sorry ( ✉ → sms ) i just want to do whats right( ✉ → sms ) but doing whats right hurts so much

[kseunhwan-blog]

( ✉ → sms ) today is the oldest you’ve ever been, but the youngest you’ll ever be again…

( ✉ → junhwan ) Okay? 

( ✉ → junhwan ) Thank you for send me your philosophical musings. 

( ✉ → junhwan ) Are you drunk?

[ksxaislinn-blog]

&& ivy.

utterly pathetic, was the only words echoing in her ears. the male was the one who got away for a reason, yet each and every time she would never learn. slipping, hoping and breaking; a cycle on automatic repeat whenever emotions overwhelmed her. but junhwan was familiar, a constant presence in her life for the last two decades. perhaps it was her mistake, to be as foolish as to develop feelings for the male. ultimately, it had also been her mistake to not utter a single word before.

all it took was a phone call from paris and the cycle began once more.

the sound of her quiet sniffles filled the hallways, barely able to keep herself together as her feet lead her to the male’s dorm. knuckles against the wood, aislinn waited for a moment to pass before knocking on his door. it wouldn’t be his first time seeing her like this, at the very least. junhwan was a friend before anything else and she’d take anything he’d give her at that point.

the second his door opened, her lips started to quiver. “j-junhwan, i’m so sorry. i just need someone or i might lose my fucking mind.”

@ksxjunhwan​