#kukithoughts

[livingbrave14]

I'm in love and it hurts

I don't think it's supposed to be this way.

[livingbrave14]

Please, please, for the life of me, please

Let tomorrow be okay, i need it this to work. I love you, and i know it's not enough but we can work through it if you'll let me in. Please.

[livingbrave14]

The reason I wore make up today

Isn't because i needed to look nice for the interview. It was because I was feeling insecure and needed to distract myself by emphasizing my insecurity in my looks, and remind myself that make up is ridiculous and that i don't need it. It was my ego boost because i was dealing with a new hurt i havn't learned to deal with yet. I'm good enough as I am, make up makes me feel that i'm not.

[livingbrave14]

Things i need to do tomorrow

-Breakfast? -Clean the car *check coolant -Laundry -Graduation application -HOMEWORK -Return/sell back Chegg books -Lunch? -obtain letter from employer/handle new apartment paperwork -Talk to USF admissions (cause ima screwed up meeesss) -boyfriend ❤️ -Parkour! -Aerials -Dinner?

[livingbrave14]

Academic Success/Failure

Is definitely a trigger for me. I dont even like to talk about it, even if i want to

[livingbrave14]

I'm still afraid you're meant for her, and not for me.

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[livingbrave14]

I feel /needed/ somewhere

I just don't know where they need me, or who they are. What if it's right here? Why can't I get a read on people?

[livingbrave14]

It's Memorial Day

And I don't know who talk to or what to feel. I'm just so sad and it's because i can't help everybody else feel better.