One Sided Love Affair is Never Okay
I now understand why most people won't settle for a one sided love affair. It was never okay to love someone who loves somebody else, as they say. But I didn't listen, I'm happy when I'm with you and that's all that matter, I thought. Until time has come where even happiness become sadness just thinking that we're bound to take our separate lives in due time.
So I thought, while I still can, I have to leave and move on. But you never let go, you kept holding on and I was just too weak to keep on walking away from you. I stopped and turned around and held your hand.
Then it came again, I just couldn't describe how happy I was when we were together. Everything felt so right, but I knew everything was not in place. Everything was just borrowed. I thought of leaving again, so I did.
Consider this cliche. But there he goes and I,again. Taking some borrowed time together.
I never really thought I would be this much in love with him. I love him so much that it hurts. I honestly don't think I can ever successfully walk away from him. I love him so much that to the extent, I would rather be just his mistress than be just his friend. It's absurd, but so is love.
I know, not just because he told me so but because I felt it, I feel it. I know he loves me too. And that's what makes it harder for me to let go. I know he loves me, but just not as much as he loves her.
I should've listened. One Sided Love Affair is Never Okay.
Now I'm stuck in this unconditional and undying love for him.
