Earlier this year i lost a great friend of mine. Katiana; she was only 14 years old. Honestly i didn’t know the whole story only because i’ve only known her for five going into six months i was also busy with school and dance. The funny part is her mom went to school with my mom, i bet she doesn’t know that though; i just found out recently. When i got that phone call on the 10th of january, my heart sank but my expressions were just numb. I didn’t know how to feel. I was at my cousins house at that time so i didn’t show any emotion towards the news except a little stunned. When i got home all i could do was cry, and cry and cry. I had no one to go to, you were so full of happiness whenever we talked or saw each other. You were so strong too, especially this was your third surgery from what i was told. I regret it you know? Not being around much, not being there for you, not being at the hospital with you if only i would’ve known it was that day, i was so busy that i didn’t even ask. When i saw you laying in that coffin, from the second i stepped onto the front of the doorway to see you there… oh baby girl, little penguin.. i couldn’t hold it in anymore. Once again i had no one to hold me as i cried, i was just there crying. I didn’t want it to be the last time i saw you, i kept going out for air and waiting in the line to go see you again. I didn’t go see you be put down in the ground i didn’t think i’d be able to do that alone. A couple days after that, i dreamt about you for a whole week. You looked so beautiful, so cheerful, as always. I then got a follow on twitter from this girl; Ashley. She was there at your funeral too. i have a great memory huh? One thing led to another and we just connected; she became my girlfriend. I swear you brought her to me as a sign; you are always with me. Just something i will always want to believe because you’d always make me smile. I love you little penguin. I can’t believe it’s going to be ONE WHOLE YEAR without you being here with me physically. I don’t think i could ever let you go and i’m sorry about that… and i will come visit you eventually i’ll be big enough and come see you. Rest In Paradise mi Corazon. Te Amo… Te Amo Mucho.