Motive.
pairing: kwon jiyong x Fem!reader.
summary: you and jiyong have been a ‘thing’ for a while, but a fight in the club bathroom might change that.
warnings: 18+, drinking, kissing, smoking, cussing, Arguing, confusion, situationship, suggestive content, angst.
part 2.
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The club was a mess of shadows and strobe lights, everything flashing too fast to catch your breath. Bodies pressed together in every direction, moving like one giant, feverish pulse.
The bass thudded through the floor, through your chest, through your teeth. Sweat clung to skin, and the air was thick with perfume, smoke, and heat. It felt like the night might swallow you whole, and maybe you’d let it.
Your friend Chaelin had invited you to some party, something about an album release. with nothing else to do on a saturday night, you decided it would be fun.
so you tossed on some black dress, some heels, and threw your hair up and told her to send you the address.
And now here you were, squeezed in the middle of Chaelin, Min-ji, and Bom, into some booth in the VIP lounge, In a night club, in Hongdae.
Min-ji in Chaelin’s lap, and Bom sitting Right beside you, Downing shots and and bumping elbows, their loud laughter ringing in your ears.
Daesung, Younbae, and Seunghyun sat on the opposite end of you three, Seunghyun Took the corner of the booth, A drink in one hand, and a cigarette in the other, Laughing loudly about something Min-ji had said.
Daesung was Next to Dara and Youngbae. All three of them clinking their glasses together, laughter spilling between sips.
And Jiyong, He was in the middle Of Bom and Daesung, Sipping on an old fashioned. His chanel tooth gem catching the light as he flashed His devilish grin. the grin that made your heartbeat speed up.
that made you want fall to your knees like a fan girl, just to see it one more time.
You and Jiyong had always been close, some would say way to close, but you two never payed any mind to all the teasing and rumors that sparked up between you.
But one night, After a drunken karaoke session with both of your groups, Jiyong decided it was best for you to stay with him that night.
just to make sure you were okay.
One thing led to another, and clothes were flying off, tongues clashing as you kissed him sloppily, you ended up underneath him.
And it only went on from there. light night texts, Quickies in some fancy club bathroom while everyone was distracted by flashing lights and loud music, or Late night drives that turned into something more in the back seat.
You tried to stop. you’ve tried countless of times, after every hookup, quietly thinking to yourself ‘this is the last time.’
But Jiyong was like a drug, pulsing through your veins everytime you were with him. You were each others fixes.
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You had gotten up from your place at the small booth, everyone’s laughter, and clinking of cups being heard as you made your way over to the bar.
You could feel the music’s bass ripple through your bones. The smell of some expensive tequila, sweat and cigarette smoke flodding your nostrils.
Just as you had finished ordering you felt a presence next to you, you didn’t have to look to know who it was. The smell of dior cologne and hair gel was enough to guess who.
“I’m surprised you came tonight, saturday nights in your bed binging dramas is your go-to.” Jiyong said Smirking, Lips brushing your earlobe due to the music blaring in the background.
You look away from the menu and to him, flashing him a small smile as you lean over to his ear. “Well i wasn’t going too, But then Chae said that you’d be here, and i knew you’d be miserable without my presence.”
You say, Grinning ear to ear, Watching as the man in front of you lets out a laugh. His hand falls to your waist, pulling you in closer to his chest. “You know me to well.” He Replies, hand slowing falling lower.
He licks his lips, lips going back to your ear.
“You look really good tonight.” He says, breath fanning your neck. You could feel the heat creep up your neck, your breath hitches at the feeling of his lips being so close. He pulls away eyeing you up and down, his gaze burning holes into you.
You bite your lip, eyes darting from him to his lips. Without another word, you take his wrist, your drink abandoned and forgotten.
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You drag him into the bathroom. it was dimly lit and cold. You lock the door before pushing Jiyong up against it, Kissing and nipping at his neck.
He sighs, head falling back, hands running up and down your sides. “you’re feisty tonight, mhm?” jiyong sighs, his chuckle turning into a soft groan as you tug at his hair.
his hands fall from your lower waist to your ass, grabbing it and pushing you up against his bulge, both of you sighing at the contact.
Jiyong takes ahold of your waist again, pinning you against the door. he push’s a knee between your thighs, separating them, before dipping his hand into your underwear. “Jiyong,” You sigh at the feeling of jiyongs fingers, thrusting your hips into his hand, Desperate for any kind of friction.
He smirks at the movement of your hips, crashing his lips onto yours. his lips soft and warm, tongue tasting like whiskey and mint. His fingers start to speed up, Hitting every spot just right.
You moan, your thighs closing around his hand, head in the crook of his neck, biting and nipping that spot that made him go crazy.
You felt the knot in your stomach tighten, legs trembling as you were about to finish. Before you could, Jiyong pulled away, Leaving you a whimpering mess at the loss of touch. You look up at him, confused as your lips slightly pout.
He starts to unbuckle his belt, quickly undoing slacks. Before you could say anything else, jiyong Slides into you without warning, both of you moaning at the feeling.
Jiyong picks up the pace, Slamming into you, Leaving you dumbfounded. “Jiyong please, i’m so—“ He starts to go faster, Sucking on your collarbone. “I know baby, come for me.”
That was all it took, waves of pleasure washing over you, shaking as Jiyong still pounded into you.
Jiyong arriving shortly after you, groaning as his lips crash onto yours once more. “That’s it, baby. Only i could make you feel this good. All mine.” Jiyong growled into your neck, Slowly coming down from his high.
You tensed at the word.
“Mine.”
You two had never discussed what you were, you didn’t want to put a label on it. everytime jiyong would try to say something about it, you would quickly change the subject. It was just fun, nothing more or less.
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Jiyong had pulled out, pulling his pants back up, fixing his hair in the mirror before turning back to face you.
He smiled warmly at you, But you couldn’t bring yourself to return the gesture, still confused on why he said what he did.
Jiyong noticed your tension, His eyebrows furrowed as he walked closer to you. “Is everything okay?” He said worriedly. “Did i do something? Did i hurt you?”
You tensed once more, crossing your arms over your chest uncomfortably. “Uhm, No, it’s just..” you trail off, thinking of what to say. “Why— Why did you say that?” He quirked up a brow in confusion. “What? what did i say, y/n?”
You look down, playing with the rings on your finger. “ You said “All mine.” i just, Didn’t know we were putting labels on this now.”
He frowned softly, confused at your words. “What do you mean “label?”, I didn’t drop down on one knee asking you to marry me, y/n. ” You look back up at him. “You could’ve said anything else Jiyong,” You say, lump starting to form in your throat. “Im not yours.” You exclaimed.
Jiyong looked hurt. confused. Your words digging into his chest like a knife. You raise your eyebrows, Frowning. “Ji, Did you think i was?”
He looked away from you, Jaw clenched.
“Oh my god, you did.” You say sadly.
“Well what did you want me to think y/n?, We’ve been hooking up for two months already.” He exclaimed, Voice slightly breaking.
“Jiyong, I thought we both wanted the same thing. I thought it was just sex!” you say, trying to hold back the tears starting to brim in your eyes.
He looked back at you, eyes glossy His jaw clenched. “Is that all this is?,” he scoffs loudly. “Just sex, Y/n!” He says as his eyes start to water.
You scoff, looking down for a second, before turning your gaze back to his, You Open your mouth to speak, then shut it, words not being able to form.
He laughs dryly, blinking away the tears in his eyes before they could fall.
“You know what’s funny?” he says, voice cracking. “I kept telling myself That this would turn into something, that maybe you cared for me the way i did you.”
You swallow hard, chest tightening as your fingers twitch at your sides.
“Don’t do this,” you whisper, tears falling onto your cheeks.
“Do what?” he spits back. “Care about you?, Think that this would actually go somewhere?”
His voice is louder now, not yelling—but shaking. Hurt bleeding through every word.
You flinch slightly, but don’t look away.
“That’s not fair, ji.” you say, more defensive than you mean. “I never wanted to make you feel like this!”
“But you did make me feel like this, Y/n,” he says quietly. “You made me feel everything.”
His voice breaks.
you stare at him, eyes glossy, lips quivering softly, and a lump in your throat.
He shakes his head, stepping back like the space between you might stop the ache in his chest.
You stare at him, throat burning. You want to tell him he’s wrong. That it wasn’t just sex. That it meant something. That he means something.
But the words catch in your throat like glass.
He turns away from you, facing the door.
“I think we should end this.” he says, a single tear falling. “it’s better for the both of us if we stop.” His Voice cracking, as his chest tightens at the words coming from his mouth.
Another tear falls down your face, you cry softly.
“Jiyong, please,”
Before you could say anything else, He unlocked the bathroom door, leaving you alone in the room.
You Sob quietly, Your heart beat ringing in your ears.
You pull your phone out of your bag, Texting chaelin to let her know you would be leaving.
You make your way out of the club before she could respond, Tears and mascara running down your face as your chest heaves.
Your World feels like it’s crashing down in front of you, your body feeling like it would give out any second knowing you lost him.
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You look out the window of the cab, trees and street lights blurring together. you eyes were puffy, head pounding, and mascara smudged.
You had tried texting Jiyong, but the texts would not go through, crying softly as you realized you had been blocked.
you had shut your phone off, not in the mood to deal with everyone asking where you had went, or what was wrong.
You fumbled with your keys, stumbling through the front door as tears clouded your vision. Your hands trembled as you reached for your phone,
checking, for what felt like the hundredth time to see if you were still blocked.
You dragged yourself to bed, tears still in your eyes. One of Jiyong’s t-shirts that he had left there clinging around you, loose and worn, still smelling like him.
you curled up, knees tucked into your chest as jiyongs words reply in your head,
You swallowed hard, blinking up at the ceiling as more tears slipped down the sides of your face, wetting the pillow.
Eventually, your body gave out before your mind did, and you fell asleep to the sound of silence.
his absence louder than anything that was said tonight.
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a/n: re-upload since my both of my accounts have been deleted 😁
