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[attilee]

And now I'll be painting phen + brandon + kyle + julie.

Who's cassandra? I only know of this phen girl you keep telling me about.

[phenomenaaa]

december magick

{a poem for the end of the year, for you. to Kyle, Brandon, Julie, Eva, Lexy, Crispy, Attilee, Corinne, Brittany, Tori, Layla -- all of my hitRECord friends, everyone who's opened my eyes in one way or other, everyone who's helped me see all of the love there is to see. Thank you for making this such a remarkable year. <3}

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the winds are so violent

at this time of year.

so sharp

and biting,

it curls itself around

my fingers

and clings secretly

to my skin.

  there’s been a quickening

to my pulse in 

the winter,

it is unforgiving,

it is unstoppable,

it is riddled

with the memory

of what December used to mean.

  the memory tries to escape.

it scrapes and pulls,

it climbs, it tears,

it fights,

but it’s stopped by the wind

and by my heartbeat.

  December

used to be a different kind

of magic.

It used to mean

more secrets

and less fear,

it used to be

colorful symbols of love

and quiet smirks,

it used to be more light

than any darkly winter cloud

could cover,

and the brightest barrier,

even against

all of that wind.

  i fall over everything

that was once the truth

while trying to believe

that maybe

it still is.

but there is freedom

in the falling,

and despite the

skinned hands

and bloody knees

i remember that i’ve

been down here before

  and i know

my way out.

  winds are so vicious

this time of year.

they bite sharp against my skin

and they curl

around my fingers

as they're curled

around your fingers.

  there’s a quickening

to my pulse

with the spread of laughter,

and new memories

bury themselves

into my bones

despite the wind.

  December is still

a kind of magic

waiting to be

discovered

as I learn

to trust 

in the winter.

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for my best friends. for the end of the year. thank you for everything.

a revolution for 2012 : trust, forgive, grow.

<3C

ps. hitRECord-ed this shit.