#kyxanon

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I'm rereading everything in Jude's Grand Adventures series, and wow. Wow I'm crying at the overwhelming softness. These four are just so pure and soft and what a big happy family there are. And uncle Osh is another pure soft being. I love Jude and Nick. Thank you for this series.

Oh gosh, you're welcome. Never thought my writing would make someone so emotional. Thank you for reading the stories.

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Neutering is a very safe surgery with an easy recovery. You’re doing the right thing for Magenta so try to stay calm. 🤗

Thank you nonnie, I'm trying to breathe and remember in the long run this will help with behavior and his training as my service dog.

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I just want to address this real quick cause it doesn't sit well with me that an Anon would just assume I thought the kiss Anon wanted to get together or something like that? Like here's the thing:

I have a crush on like 3 people

I'm not even looking to be in a relationship when I can barely function as a human on my own. I don't need to subject someone to my emotional turmoil and issues when I know I'm not ready to help with theirs.

The Anon didn't mean it like that and I knew that. I'm not naive enough to let that be taken deeply serious.

It's not that deep fam.

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I'm really confused about my gender. I feel like if I transitioned into a guy, my depression would basically go away. BUT, in my heart of hearts, if I could literally switch from male to female physically like I'm in some sort of sci-fi/fantasy world I'd be the happiest of all. What does that even mean??? And it's so hard to find somewhere to talk about this because of the sheer amount of transmeds so I just feel unvalidated and small. I'm sorry for dumping this on you! 🙈🙊😖

Hey, never feel sorry for having questions! Transmeds can go back to the hovels from wince they came. While I don't know a lot about some stuff I'll try to help as best I can.

I personally am Genderfluid and honestly I felt that in my whole being. There's days were I just want to transition fully to male and days I'm like "But will that actually make me completely happy?" It's a hard line. For some top surgery is enough, some simply binding or packing is enough.

There's a few terms I can supply you with:

Agender: is a term which can be literally translated as 'without gender

Bigender: is a gender identity which can be literally translated as 'two genders' or 'double gender'. Bigender people experience exactly two gender identities, either simultaneously or varying between the two

Gender non-binary: When a person’s gender identity doesn’t fit inside traditional male or female categories (sometimes called the gender binary).

Genderfluid:  is a gender identity which refers to a gender which varies over time. A gender fluid person may at any time identify as male, female, neutrois, or any other non-binary identity, or some combination of identities. Their gender can also vary at random or vary in response to different circumstances.

If you are in a safe environment you can try binding and packing. Ask trusted friends to try solely he/him pronouns for a bit to see how it makes you feel. Know you don't have to have dysphoria for every part of you. It's different for each trans person, some don't have chest dysphoria, some have hip dysphoria. It's all valid. Even not having dysphoria is valid you don't have to hate some part of you to be trans.

There is a lot of stigma around people who don't think you have to medically transition being shitty. But Transmeds are just gamekeepers. You're valid Anon. I'm so glad you messaged me and if you want to talk to someone dm me I'm always here.

I'm not an expert by any means though I am trying to educate beyond my own labels and base labels. So if I'm forgetting any labels someone feel free to add to them. Also correct me if I got a term definition wrong. I'm never going to claim to know everything so help from others is welcome. 💜

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Hi :) I saw your post about people giving you shit for whatever weird reason and i just wanted to reach out and tell you that they’re idiots. All i ever see from you is kindness and a sweet, strong spirit, despite the fact that it sounds like you have a lot of crap to deal with at times. I was immediately super happy for you when they read your message in More. I almost teared up a little along with the guys... Anyways, i’m rambling, but i hope you know that you’re appreciated! 🌻💚

Hi! First lemme say this: y'all gotta stop saying I made y'all cry cause even if it was a good cry I feel bad. 💙

Now as for the hate. It's nothing I can't handle. Something tells me they might have been supportive if not for all my social media stating I am lgbtq+. Which sucks, especially since the boys are so supportive. But it doesn't matter what someone throws at me I gotta keep my head up. I learned quick that if no one around me was going to be positive that I had to be. My life is a rollercoaster and I'm gonna scream when it gets scary, cry when it goes to high up, and laugh like crazy when it goes down a hill super fast. Because that's just how I'm wired.

Thank you nonnie, I'm positive I'm loved and I'm glad y'all make sure I know it. 💙💜

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LMAO YOU DONT LIKE NINI EITHER?? i thought I was the only one phew...

Oh gosh no I despise her. She didn't give Ricky time to process what she confessed and then now made it all about her when he really just needed a friend and now she's jealous of Gina when she's the reason her and Ricky aren't together anymore. I would go more in depth but she drives me insane.

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Hello again sunbeam. A small scenario popped into my head. Rhett and Jude make ridiculous dishes like mac and cheese sandwich (mac and cheese between two pieces of toast and a drizzle of ketchup) while Link and Nick with their bowls of cereal watch them eat in horror. (Idk what this is but I thought it was funny?)

Omg Anon that is beautiful! I love the idea that Rhett and Jude make these food concoctions that no sane human would eat, (Josh fully encourages them.) While Link and Nick watch in horror with their very basic meals, (Josh thinks they're boring and need to explore more crazy foods.) That it, it's canon now.

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Oh my gosh, I wanted to marry Jack Frost when I was a kid too! ❤️❤️❤️

ANON THANK GOD I'M NOT ALONE. You have no idea how much of a relief that is haha. But seriously though now as an adult I just see that as a more validated thing because the man was (and is) a snacc™