// The Moon: Has your muse ever had something unexplained happen to them? If so, what?
✝ THE MOON: Has your muse ever had something unexplained happen to them? If so, what?
Something unexplainable by her standards--something that she could not wrap her mind around--were the voices in her head convincing her that her son was corrupted--sin--and needed to be saved, only to then go on and say that it demanded a sacrifice of the same boy. It isn't what the voice told her to do--because she completely understood such and complied--rather why it had done so in the first place.
Isaac's mother had been used to these voices all throughout her life; they were pretty harmless at first, but soon became violent as she would glance at a puppy with the other children and think, 'What if someone just came along and kicked that dog across the park?' while all the other children would rush over to pet it and offer affection. She'd never do anything like what she had thought, but ideas of this nature had sprung up all throughout her adolescence.
The voices got louder and more violent as she was exposed to the world as an adult. They began to grow quiet as she met her husband and went on to have two children, Isaac and Maggy. But when her husband died (or left--I'm still up in the air as to what I want to have happen) as well as her daughter, the voices came back and were louder then ever, almost making it as if their deaths were her fault when she had nothing to do with them.
As just a personal choice, she seemed to have favored her daughter and husband over her son. All of Isaac's love was forced back into the recesses of her mind, thus when the rest of her family was gone, she didn't rush to Isaac to seek comfort nor to comfort him about any loss that he might have been feeling as well. She simply decided to watch Christian broadcastings on the television for reassurance of good in the world as her son played beside her, and this went on for a while with both members of the family remaining happy--at least, on the outside. The voices in Mom's head were still pushing her to lengths that she didn't want to travel to, and she was able to control them on account of putting up with their violent tones all of her life. It wasn't easy, but it was doable.
She felt herself growing smarter--more righteous--as she put more and more faith into God. And with her mind set on her holy faith, the voices grew smarter and shifted themselves as well. Presenting themselves as the Lord, Isaac's mother felt compelled to finally obey them, for it [the Lord] was her savior--the only thing she sought out to be good when it would actually be the worst thing that would have ever happened to her. She wasn't able to convince herself that these were the same voices under a façade, and therefore went on to take away all of Isaac's toys--and his clothes--isolate him in his room, and finally, sacrifice him to God. These voices were overpowering the love for her son and pushing it back so far that it would never be heard from again; she was driven by madness, and now her only love and devotion was to her Lord--not her deceased husband, her daughter, nor Isaac.
Ultimately, she fell captive to herself, for she had expanded upon her faith in God which ultimately led to her downfall. She was struggling to fight against herself, and she had won--not Mommy Dearest that Isaac hoped and longed for, rather a Satanic behemoth that was ready to impale her son with a sacrificial dagger and offer his corpse to an unknown God--she was ready to drag his dead, bloodied, bruised body out into the front yard and call to her God, only to hear nothing. She would glance down and weep over the cold body of her baby boy, then realizing that she lost.
But that would never happen, and these unexplainable voices would continue to urge her to do wrong when really she would be thinking that she's in the right. Isaac's mother doesn't know that she's playing herself against herself and cannot realize that.
